Thursday, October 13, 2005
2345hrs Friday 13 Oct 1999
That night..
I started my journey of happiness..
Only to crush it with my own hands 2 yrs later..
Today..6 yrs later..
I have made a resolution..
I will move on..
My prince has come..
And he is bringing me..
To another chapter of my life..
That chapter is past tense..
I will look forward to the new one..
Moving on is sad..
Letting go of regrets is sad..
But to live my whole life in despair and regrets is a far worse fate..
You left many memories in my heart..
The most beautiful ones thus far..
You have found a new love..
So have I..
Lets move on with our lives..
If you ever read this..
I wanna let you know..
I was sorry that I left you..
And I hated you for forgetting me that soon too..
It is this love and hatred that kept me going for another 3 yrs..
Today..
I have forgiven you..and myself..
So I can move on..
With a man who loves me more than you do..
|11:47 PM|
To Shawn....
Congrats on passing ya driving..
I couldnt say it on ya "SQUEALS"
It just refused me...
=(
Anyway..yah..the message is "congrats!!"
I also wanna go clubbing
Zouk..20 OCt..someone jio me la..
If i say no..then ask again..nicely...
Then I will go!!!
Love ya all lots..
|2:01 PM|
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
I found my prince..
Its 12 Oct..
A special day for me and Junfeng =)
Yesterday I told him something that I nv thought I would ever confess,
That he sets me free from my past regrets..
My memories of my ex-ex-boyfren..
Which had been huanting me everyday for the past 3 yrs..
Frens who know me would know I am still in love with him..
The reason why I dun have a friendster is bcos of him..
I used to kill myself bcos of him..
And I teared in buses thinking its all my fault he left me...
Junfeng was all cool about it,
Although I know deep in his heart he must be disappointed..
That I still think..
I would be disappointed too...
And my reaction would be definitely terribly nasty..
Therefore, I felt more in love when I realised that he was willing to help me erase my past..
I reassured him that the memories had taken its toll and I am no longer sadden by it..
Memories are just memories..
And I have moved on with my life..
To a new chapter where Junfeng plays the lead character..
And I am a princess..
I am happy...
Hall life has been fun thus far..
My rate of knowing fren is climbing like money-losing stocks..
My rate of studying has improved quite a bit anyway..
I have decided to stay in hall for good..
Although I am saddened I cant see my aunty and cousins much..
My aunty would call every other day and ask me to go home for dinner..
I am very happy that she really bothers to..
She has thus taken the role of the 2nd most important woman in my life,
Sometimes, I feel sad that I dun get to see my cousins much,
Dun get to chit chat with them over dinner..
Junfeng always reassured me that things will get better after my exams..
That I can bring them out after my exams..
And I am happy for his moral support...
Its the curse of a woman..
The surge of hormones are working and I feel emotional writing this entry..
I am gonna bath..dress up nicely..go for lecture..
Then my ultimate date with prince charming!! =)
|10:39 AM|
