Friday, July 29, 2005
Top 20 My Foot!!
As the days draw nearer to the start of school and to the end of my working life,
My heart feels heavier...
I feel ill most of the time..
My nose and my tummy just dun feel rite all the time..
I wonder if I am really ill,
Or is it pyschological??
Suddenly, I feel that I was duped into this whole NUS TOP 20 shit...
The administration sucks..
The staff sucks...
And to think I rejected NTU for NUS even when I was promised lots of money over there..
Guess I brought all this shit to myself...
It started when I attended NUS course briefing...
Everything was tailored to a JC student...
I felt so boliao that I had to leave in the middle of the talk...
Then when I am supposed to take adavance placements..
I was pinning high hopes to get exemptions for some modules..
So I could graduate earlier like I planned..
I was wrong...
The paper was out to kill...
And now NUS can definitely pocket one more semester of school fees from me..
Yes, my mom always say..."When in doubt...ASK!!"
I did that...
I called and asked what modules am I exactly exempted for..
The lady told me "I dunno leiz..u have to wait then maybe they will email you..."
I called and asked which timetable am I supposed to follow..
Another lady told me "The dates are over already...You should check the website everyday..."
I went to the office to get a form so that I do not have to take modules which will only lengthen my undergrad studies...
I stood there like a fool, not being attended, listening to two bitches talk abt their stupid city harvest church wedding and how much each table costs!!
Yes..I am upset...and fucking angry...
I am upset because I regret my choice(s)...
I am upset because it is only now that I realise..
With a good diploma (and no money),
You should not hope for exemptions..
You should only hope that they dun give you extra modules...
And if you have a choice..
Go with the flow..
Go to a JC..
Not a poly..
Life is soo much more difficult for one poly kid...
|10:22 AM|
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
I realise I have not been smiling as much recently...
Its been a long time since I blogged...
Partly because the compie at home crashed...
And my workstation is kinda "snatched" away...
Well, selfish me has snatched it back...
Even though I think I shouldn't really be sitting here anymore...
Last Friday was a super duper fun drinking session at Kokting's house...
Many reasons to celebrate...
WF's and Cindy's birthday..
And of cos, my leaving.....
I always pictured that I will cry when I make my farewell speech...
To the people who inspired, motivated, helped me...and of cos, irritated me...
But somehow, recently, I am soo eager to just leave this place...
Because I feel nothing here belongs to me anymore...
Saturday was Meihua's orange party...
Crowd was fun...
JF was with me...
Food
(did i mention the stingrays) was great...
But my orange top turned red...
Sorry MH, I really bought it as a orange top...
Dunno why it became red....???????
Sunday was Alex's OCS Commission...
I was very proud of Alex...
No one in our clique would imagine that he actually survived it!!!
Amongst the 5 boys...he was the ultimate bummer..
But he became the OFFICER!!
He looked very smart in that white, neatly pressed uniform...
The whole parade was something to remember...
I dunno why...
But I am already looking forward to my graduation day....
(even though I haven even started school)All my frens are materialistic and horny bitches / bastards (thats Darren)...
They choose to side JF when I am unhappy...
I guess I am just paranoid...
And dear parasitologist Fiona preached
"Paranoidism is the cause to many breakups.."I was pretty unhappy abt news that I gathered and by my own thoughts..
A few weeks ago, I thought that maybe this time round...
That I will be nonchalant abt most things...
But I was wrong...
Look how I blew my top over some stupid SMS-es...
And you know I really really cared...
Or rather...how nasty I can get when I am jealous...
I really wouldn't give a damn if it was only a one-way traffic...
I can't help but to think that the conversation (whatever it was) was mutually flirtatious...
|2:09 PM|
