Friday, May 13, 2005
Thursday - Life's a Bitch
I skipped the pill last night..
Cause Fiona's and BL's voices kept ringing in my mind..
"You shouldn't depend on it too much..."
I was awake on my bed---
for one hour,
B4 I finally fell asleep....
A bad sleep..
Interupted by dreams like my cousin got chicken pox,
And that Prof Moore grew a moustache!!
I just popped a pill, [
0033hrs, 13/05/05]
And I am feeling sleepy already.
I will be sleeping after this entry.
Congratulate me!!Met up with MH, SL and FIo.
The plan was to bitch..
About men,
About life,
About studies,
About life.
OoOpz, I forgot to let you guys know I am planning to get a tattoo this June...
Well, now you know!!!
I love you gals...
And I wanna let you know I treasure all your love, care and friendship.
Please be careful.
I might just kiss you on Wed!!
But maybe not Fio..
I dun wanna taste ya bleeding gums and feel the stitches..
Yucky yuckZzZ..
Shufen smsed.
And said I looked FAT.
I am happy!!
Extremely delighted!!
I am always happy when people tell me I look fat...
But not when they say I have a big tummy.
I know that fact,
And I am trying best to trim it down.
So pls pls pls,
Dun remind me ok?
Please only say I look fat!!
And I will give you,
My sweetest, most dazzling toothy trademark smile!!
Anyway,
She dated me to chill.
I said yes, of course!
I miss her a whole lot...
Heaps and heaps of misses!!!
But I really doubt I will see her tml...
My fingers are crossed!!
Good nitez..time for bed...
Pinky is kicking into action now.
Pinky is the name of my pill btw...
I just thought of the name..
Cool yeah??
|12:21 AM|
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
A Good Nite Sleep
It just took one pink pill...To rock me to sleep...Within an hour, I was in a daze! I said good-nights to my friends on MSN and went to bed. The pill had a rock-me-to-sleep-on-a-cradle kinda effect. I slept very very well, something that I had missed since some time ago. No, I did not dream of a tall, dark handsome guy. So of course I did not get to kiss him!! But anyway, I am still happy that I finally had a good good sleep.
Today is a good day.
For one, I booked my basic theory test. I never wanted to do it in the past , bcos I always thought that I would be lucky enoughed to be ferried around. But nowadays, I guess I just have to wake up my idea..I took 3 tries at the photo-taking machine. Finally chose a nice-enough pic for my application! Guess the guy likes me..haha..others only had one try!! See..it takes a B cup and a pretty face to get such treatment!! Way to go MH!!! Haha...
And I got Performance Bonus, so happy!!! I now believe in Lillian Too; Create a vaccuum in your financial circle(give money to people) and more money will be sucked in. I gave up my NTU scholarship and now money flows in!! Hee...I am happy!!LV Change purse..Here I come!! You shall be a Made in France-Imported from Thailand-Stays in Singapore-Owned by Pretty Audrey purse!! Be proud and strong..we will brave the waves together!!!
Been bumming around at work recently. Not much to do, or so I am just plain lazy. I have stuff planned out, so I shall work hard next week! Now that I am rich, well richer, I can buy a nice top to go clubbing on Wednesday and get my Gucci without much guilt!! =)
|5:25 PM|
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
This is the updated version of a picture of Darren's birthday. Notice the Ah-ma and someone is missing!! And the colour is nicer!!!
|3:53 PM|
NUS.Me.Money. Love-Hate Triangle
A biology patent lawyer, A bio-statistician...That sounds cool enough..5 years to a BSc, Honours and Masters.Major in Life Sciences,Minor in Law or Stats.That sounds cool too.Student exchange to France, Switzerland or Germany,Even China, Taiwan or Hongkong.Sounds like heaps of fun.But how? How the hell am I going to survive through this 5 years?With a cap of 4.00 and above!Or even 4.50....With classmates that are 2 years younger, Still spotting small jappy tees,And micro-denim skirts.I feel like an old hag.I am anticipating NUS with open arms,But a caged heart!!I am apprehensive.And at the same time,Extremely excited!I will survive..Live thru' the 3 yrs,Then the 4th.Then think of the 5th.For all I know,It will be all but a breeze......
|2:37 PM|
Sunday, May 08, 2005
Insomnia - Sleepless nights are dangerous...
I am losing sleep, something that I have never experienced in a long time.
Well, I haven been single in a long time. I have resorted to getting pills from Fiona, cos all these sleepless nights have drained me out physically and mentally. I am becoming, like I always say, kuku...When I can't sleep, I think of all sorts of shit. I think of suicidal means and how maybe I should just die...I think of how many people have achieved what I always wanted - all by a pretty face and nice boobs, maybe I just shouldn't study so hard...
Sometimes I feel like crying, breaking out in hysterical sobs and wails, but I can only tear silently and discreetly on the bus. And I feel so bloody pathetic. I am too lazy and afraid to go to parks and seasides to cry. Too embarassed to cry in the bathroom or at home. So I can only weep silently in my bed, in front of this comp, and on lonely bus trips..
I feel like I have been dumped into a cold open sea, and right now, I am in the middle part of the sea, where the water is the deepest..I am struggling hard to stay afloat..but even when I swim to the other side of shore, what will happen?
I will be so god-damned alone on the island...
|12:47 AM|
