Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Wanna know the juicy details?? Call me...
Prof Chua said:
"I am inclined not to give you the scholarship!! You were disloyal to NTU!! So tell me why you deserve it once again..."
5 mins later (after a long and persuasive verdict) he said:
"I will put you at ease..I will give you the scholarship...But you still have to convince me further that you deserve it..."
Another 10 mins later:
"Pls work hard, graduate and be a good citizen!!"
"Yes sir, I will..."
I am praying hard...
|7:18 PM|
I am happy...
Some said: "Good for you..."
Some said: "Congrats..."
Some said: "You are so damn lucky..."
I say: "I am happy!!"
Because..
IAMANANYANGSCHOLAR!!!!!=)Many ppl to thank...
Baolian...who got so excited with me...
Fiona...who brainstorm and spotted questions with me...
Meihua..for the never-dying flow of words of encouragement...
Prof Lars and Dr Sze who have hopes of me doing well...
Prof Chua...who although made things difficult for me...but still gave me the scholarship...
NTU admin ladies...who were as busy as a bee just to do evrything for me...
And of course
NUS...for pissing me off to becoming an even richer gal...
Now my fixed asset is confirmed at 10k!!! whaha...
|9:25 AM|
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Whatever I do..its just not enuff...
I remember...
After I broke up with Tiong and was together with Lewis..
I was (tried to) pretty nice to Lewis..
I cared about him alot because I was soo in love with him..
Shufen then asked me,
"Why are you soo good to him? I nv see you soo nice to Tiong before..."I shrugged my shoulders...
Now..
I am trying my best to be nice...
To be as demure, virtuous, less flirtatious as I can be...
But all I get are loads of back-stabbing...
From frens of mine..
From people I hardly know..
Or well, whom hardly know me...
After many weeks of collection of negative feedback...
I finally teared..
I am not sad...
Not upset..
Just tired...
There are many gals in the whole wide world..
And of cos many different categories of gals..
If there are good ones..
There are definitely bad ones..
I, Audrey Wang, can proudly declare I am not the best...
Or do I fall into the "good" category..
But I definitely do not fall into the "
fucking lousy" category...
I try me best to be nice to frens..
Maybe I am a lousier fren than Meihua or Baolian or Fiona or Siewling is to me..
But I still am always there for them..
I do not make any effort to meet up with Xiu or Fen..
But I always still miss them..
I try me best to be nice to my little cousins..
Although I always break my promise abt bringing them here and there..
At least I would feel gulity when they remind me that I broke my promise..
again...I try me best to be nice to junfeng..
But fucking not-surprisingly..
My goody-two-shoes act is not enuff...
Bcos he is always better than me..
I am not upset..
Bcos thats part of the reason how i can fall in love with him...
It freaking ironic that his frens think I am a bitch character...
But my frens think that he is the nice one and I am bullying him..
I dun blame anyone..
If I am not me..
I think the same way too..
In case you care to know...
I DO NOT take advantage of him...
I treasure him too much to do that...
|12:18 PM|
