Thursday, July 24, 2008

Embracing a healthy lifestyle
I heart East Coast Park!!! :)


Last Thursday was my last day working as receptionist at some advert company. And before my REAL job on Monday, I was happy to have Friday, Saturday and Sunday to ROT!!
Friday was insignificant cause I really cannot remember what I did on Friday. I prolly slept till late and rot in front of the TV. Oh wait, I went to Biopolis to sign offer letter. Hehe!!!



Saturday was PICNIC + CYCLING at ECP!!!


I prepared some sandwiches, fruits, chips, drinks and off we went to cycle. The bicycle rental was like "Buy 1 hour, get 1 hour free" so we cycled from Macs all the way to the end of ECP. Super shagged!!!



And we took many pictures!!!


Food!!!!
And if you havn't tried Ayam Chilli Tuna, you are missing out on some great canned food!!!
SERIOUSLY!! Go NTUC to buy now!! Only $1.90.
Whats better? Its a lift-tab can!! No need can-openers!!!



Starting soon!!! Still hyped up!! And my boyfren trying to touch my BREASTS!!
Hahaha!!


Acting cute by the pond!! :)


More side-tours!!!




Group picture!! Supposed to be a double date. But her hubby is an ultimate sleepy head. So Peifen (my bf's sis) is like the brightest lightbulb at ECP that day!!
And I think I am like BEST in setting cameras up for taking pictures on timer mode. My pictures all turn out nicely at cool angles!! :P

Very fulfilled day!! Very happy!! And I feel very happy!!! :D


And my work at Biopolis? I would say its still early to judge.
My boss --> English and nice.
My colleagues --> All 9 of them from all over the world, nice, polite and couteous up till now.
My work station --> Empty but nice enough, and with a great view.
My project --> Dealing with 11 strains of knock-out / knock-in mice, breeding, genotyping and taking care of them.

Another 5 hours to convocation.
More pictures soon. :)

|12:13 PM|

Friday, July 18, 2008

Yummy foods (HongKOng)

Sweets at Xu Liu Shan!!
Checked - Craving satisfied!!!


Authentic Sushi after eons years of lousy sushi in US.
Checked - craving satisfied!

Yeah, we brought Shamu the killer whale home with us.
And forced him to watch us eat his friends.
*evil laughter*


Double Roast Rice = Char Siew + Soya Chicken :)
YUMMY!!!!
Checked - craving partially satisfied!!

|11:55 AM|

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Washington DC (17-19th May)
I so enjoyed myself in Washington DC!!!

|9:38 PM|

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Philly
Hello hello,

I am in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania now.


If you watch National Treasure, you would remember this Indepence Hall, featured on 100 dollar bill. The top of the building where Nicholas Cage looked out at 2.22pm to find his next clue. :)

The 4th city of my 10-day (backpack) trip. Its really a historical town and there are lots of tourists. Yesterday we had such good weather that I could walk around in my tee-shirt. And I am so tan now cos of the blazing sun yesterday. So, I visited most of the sights and museums and read about US and its independence and the important leaders. i have to say I am not BIG on US history but yeah, I having a good time. Except for some little little things (like the bad hostel that i am staying in, with a LOCKOUT time from 1030-430pm).

BUT the biggest reward is meeting Peiyu (from taiwan) and Pamela (from Singapore) in the hostel. They are really nice people, whom I just had a two-hour breakfast with in this Double-shot cafe near our hostel. We are hiding here cos its raining so badly out there now.
SHIT!! :(


Peiyu, Me and Pamela at breakfast :)



Travelling alone can be really fun too.


OK, gotta go check out more of Philly and maybe grab some postcards. So long. :)

|12:53 AM|

Thursday, May 15, 2008

On the move
Hello peeps,

I am ON THE MOVE now!!

|7:17 AM|

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Spring weekend
Its the Annual Spring Weekend in UConn this weekend.

Everyone was out drinking, partying, getting into fights, smoking weed, having sex in the laundry rooms, smashing cars in the parking lot.
And all I did was stay at home to watch movies and go to the lab to do work.

My life sucks.

I miss the party animal in me! :(

And the best part is, my boyfren who hates me going to clubs and getting drunk was out at St James partying his life away with his friends.

How ironic!!

|12:52 AM|

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Final Year Project
Many people have commented/envied my life in USA.
About how I am having fun, but not working hard enough in the lab.
About how some of my other classmates are so stressed out while I was having fun and traveling.
You see, I am actually very stressed too.
I am 5000 miles away from home, my loved one and my family.
I came with 0 frens (actually 1 if you consider Prof Urs "my fren").
And I had to adapt to everything, everyone, every place from scratch.

So, lets talk about my FYP today.
I am working on tolcapone, an anti-parkisonian drug, and its molecular mechanisms on hepatotoxicity. My study model is a novel, spontaneously immortalized human hepatocyte cell line that only my lab has. And people are practically begging us for this cell line. And results wise, I guess I am doing good, not great, but good enough. :)

I came with the intention of getting an A. Cos I know Prof Urs, and I understand his research. He is a great teacher, very attentive and gives his best for his students. The only disappointment was that I had no mentor and had to pick everything up from scratch. I have to troubleshoot my own protocol, plan my own experiments and do all the shit on my own.
But I'm not complaining. It was a great learning experience. :)
So right now, I am just hoping for the best. My A / A-!!

So, I am very happy working in this lab, I met some nice people in this lab, and at my place, some NUS exchange students and fren's frens...
My professor offered me PhD opportunity like 100times, but I had to reject him for the sake of "love".

I will be done in two weeks. I gotta write my discussion by this weekend. So I will not be going anywhere this weekend.

So so so, please wish me luck. :)

Love you guys,
Audrey

|1:24 AM|

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Sweet tooth!!!!!!!!!
I love desserts!!!

After the yummy Sunday brunch at Pros Urs house that ended with yummy Apple cobbler and strawberry soaked in balsamic and red wine, I was craving for sweets again.

Today, I went for dinner at local diner's, Applebee's, with Jean.
We talked, gossiped and shared a steak.
And ended our meal with a yummy strawberry cheesecake served in a shot glass!!!
Very creative and delicious!!!



And Haagen Dazs is super cheap here!!!
Its only 3USD per tub, almost half price that from Singapore's price!!
This is my 2nd tub!!!! :)


YUMMMMMILICIOS!!!!!

|9:22 AM|

Monday, April 14, 2008

Two Great Weekends :)
SATURDAY 040508 RHODE ISLAND TRIP

Rhode Island is the smallest state of the 50 American states.
Newport is a small town, where rich people stay, eat and have fun.
It is famous for its seafood, so being the glutton, of course I fed myself some good food. :)


A (beautiful) cemetry behind me.


The Atlantic Ocean (and Europe) behind me...
I wanna swim over...


Me and Jean :)


The Breaker's House behind me.
Summer house for the breakers in the 1800s.
Very very big and grand. :)


Melisse, me and Adeline (at dinner).
Had some yummy Seafood Fra Diavolo for 22.95usd.
YUMMMMMMY!!!!


SATURDAY 041208 NEW YORK CITY


The main reason for this trip..
The Broadway show, Legally Blonde.


Times Square (in the day).
I like it better at night...


Flowers flowers flowers...
Spring is here...
HAPPPY!!!


Ground Zero..
It was a mess there.
Like many others, I kinda wished that that disaster never happened.
I just dun understand why people wanna pose infront of the huge construction mess.


Me in front of the New York Stock Exchange Centre.
I love the huge flags.


Me and Chengwei at New York Palace.
Pretty trees and beautiful flowers.


2 things:
1) Spring is finally here :) *grinz*
2) I like New York City a lil' better. :)


Sunday - 041308
Prof Urs invited us to a wonderful lunch at his place...
So so yummy!!
There was too much good food, but I didn't take pictures of them cos I am not so socially awkward. :)

But it was a good time, talking about funny things, lab things, pollitics, New York, Taiwan, Singapore, Switzerland, and every every thing under the sun.

I had fun!!! :)


Carmen, me and Prof Urs :)


Me, jean, Veronica and Carmen.


Everyone in the lab :)
Me, jean, Rohini, Veronica, Carmen, Amanda and Urs.

Oh, maybe you haven realised.
But it was GREAT weather this 3 days...
Yippeee, I am not cursed anymore. :)

|6:07 AM|

Friday, April 04, 2008

JINXED!!!
I went to NYC last weekend. (Mar 28- Mar 30)
Great city. Lots and lots of people.
Messy. Dirty. Expensive.
But most importantly....
BAD WEATHER AGAIN!!!

It was raining on Friday while I was still in Storrs, so my travel mates went to the outlets without me cos they cannot do sightseeing in NYC when it is raining. (they were in NYC on Friday morning already)
and so i was SAD!!!

So for those of you to ask me buy things, soorry!!
Gotta wait till May. :)
That includes you, Shufen!!! hahaha :P

Some pictures from NYC...


New York Public Library
This is the place where they filmed one of my favourite movie - Day After Tomorrow.
I didn't go in though, no time. :(


Me, on the ferry to Staten Island...
Yeah, the tiny thingy behind is Statue of Liberty.
Damn hard to take a nice picture!!


Behind me the sharp sharp thing is Empire State Building lo!!!


Took this picture at NYC Chinatown.
Very dirty, smelly and tonnes of Asians.
But they sell very very cheap souvenirs, and very very expensive bubble tea (3.50usd)
Notice how they write XIN-jia-po wrong!!
Its NEW not STAR!!!
Shame on you!!!!




The flashing, buzzling streets of New York Times Square.
Too immense, too little time.
I wanna go back in May to enjoy the lights and maybe I will fall in love with NYC.
:)

I am going to Rhode Island this Saturday (b4 I stay home on Sunday to write my thesis and do my ppt slide for lab meeting presentation on Monday..).
The smallest of the 50 American states.
But still 5 times the size of Singapore...
Guess what?
Its gonna freaking RAIN this weekend too!!
CHEEEEERIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOS!!!

All I have to say:
I'M JINXED!!!

Will load more NYC pictures next week. :)

|11:46 AM|

Thursday, March 20, 2008

BEWARE!!!! Many many many pictures after the sad post....
5 years ago, this was the saddest day of my life when my grandmother left me.
Up till today (and now as I type), my tears would still flow uncontrollably whenever I think of her.

I still remember vividly the series of events that day.....

I received a call at 5am in the morning from my aunt that my grandmother had left us. The night before, we were all by her hospital bed watching her gasp for air and waiting to die. I cried so much that night. Strangely, when I got that worst call of my life the next morning, I did not cry. Instead, I woke up, made my bed and went down to the void deck. I sat at the ceramic stool where my grandma sits everyday. She would sit there after she came home from the market to catch up with her friends, start peeling her vegetables, talk about the price of fish and prawns, or gossip about some random old woman whose funeral was held 2 blocks away. When I was much younger, I would always sit there and kill time with her and her lao-cha-bor friends.

That day, I sat there alone and waited for her.

At 9am, she came home, but this time, in a coffin.

Cold and motionless, and all I wanted at that moment was for her to talk to me.
I wanted to tell her how much I love the yummy siew mais that she always buy for our breakfast, that I will never disobey her again, that I will bring her to Hongkong when I get my first salary.

But I didn't. I was lost for words.

5 years later on this same day, my brother got engaged.
I was extremely happy for him when he told us about it. I am happy that he is starting his own family with someone he loves. But deep down in my heart, I am upset and disappointed that he chose a day where I will not be around to witness the happy day of his life.

He is my only family in this world. I would do everything I can to change my wedding day if he could not make it for my wedding day. I would want him to be there to share my joy and witness a new chapter of my life. I would want him to see me kiss the man of my life and know that we have both broken away from our childhood nightmares of a horrible family our parents had created for us.

But he didn't do that for me. He did not wait for me.
I just dunno how I should feel...

The significance of March 20th have changed for him...
Every year today, he would be celebrating this day with his wife.

But for me, March 20th will always be the day when my beloved grandmother left me AND the day my brother got engaged without me being there...

I am not selfish. I am just upset.
I still wish for the best for my brother Ben and his wife... that they will be happy everyday in their lives...All I ever dreamed about was a vision of CNYs where his family and my family would sit together and chat happily...

Po-po, I miss you so much...

I just realised that my brother's wedding was not approved by SAF cos his wife is Malaysian.
Thus, it is postponed to June. Strangely, I feel happier. :)

Very EMO, pai-seh, MY BAD!!! :P
On a second thought, I blame my 3 little cousins..
Oiiiiiiiii, all ya gals fault lah, you are my messengers should have kept me updated with current affairs ok?? Make me sad for soo long..I blame you all LAH!!!
__________________________________

Pictures from Boston :)

-Day 1-
So excited to see Michie...!!!


After 2hrs drive and a wonderful afternoon snack,
OUR FIRST STOP ---->
!!!!!!!!!!!!!HARVARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Harvard has some nice-looking trees!!!



These are all taken at Harvard Square, a small community with nice (and not so nice) little shops that sells Harvard stuff!! And my, they are all sooo overpriced!!! Just because the name Harvard is printed on it!!! -geeeez-






Then we started driving to downtown Boston, in search of Quincy Market for dinner and more importantly, an indoors place!!!
SO HERE WE ARE!!!

Cam-whoring outside Quincy Market



Inside Quincy Market!!! Sooo sooo much food!!!


9USD per bottle President Candidates Tobasco Sauces!!!




Back at the hotel where we ate all the yummilicious food we got from Quincy market!!!


DAY 2!!
SUNNY but FREAKING WINDY!!
Very excited though.... :)

Follow the red line and tour the whole of Boston!!
FREEDOM TRAIL!!!


*1st stop of Day 2
BUNKER HILL MONUMENT...






*2nd stop - USS Constitution






3rd Stop: Beacon Hill
An area of pretty pretty and expensive house.. (saw on ad about 2k USD for a one bedroom apartment..) We walked around the beautiful, expensive estate with pretty 7-11s and Starbucks! And, the most important mission in Beacon Hill is to photograph the acclaimed
"MOST PHOTOGRAPHED/BEAUTIFUL STREET IN UNITED STATES"


And what else to do there (after a much long long walk) but....
CAMWHORE?????????

Take #1


Take #2


Take #199


Take #268


4th stop: MASSACHUSETTS OLD STATE HOUSE...




And guess who /what we saw in front of the state house??
The BUNNY guy with BUNNY CAR giving out GOLDEN EASTER BUNNIES!!!
I hugs the car!!!


Our bunnies all lined up for photo-taking :)
Pls forgive Mich's ugly looking rabbit!!!
She is such a hawk for sweet things!!
Chocs!! Pastries!!!


Goofing around.....


5th Stop: Boston Common and Frog Pond..
Which I think will be very very beautiful in Spring, Fall or when it is snowy snowy Winter!! Frog Pond is not a pond but an outdoor ice-skating rink. Maybe its a pond in summer...
I D U N N O.......




6th Stop - Where else next but Quincy Market for yummy lunch!!!???
One will never get sick of Quincy Market!!
At least not me..


The Little Italy in the north end of Boston where we had all the yummy pastries..
Very pretty streets but I still like Beacon Hill better. :)






8th stop - Paul Revere's house...
Not much of a sight I would say....
And IMO, definitely not worth 3usd to get in..
Hahaha...Look at our confused looks....


9th stop -The Old North Church.
Our last stop on the Freedom Trail...

The heroic Paul Revere from who fought the war against the English??
A more worthy sight than his house (above).... really....







Next, MORE College shopping!!
We drove back to Cambridge and visited Massachusetts Institute of Technology (MIT)




An interesting buildings in MIT.

Overall, I think Harvard is very different from MIT.
Harvard is old, rich, very nice and antigua (spanish word) buildings with lots lots lots of tourists. Very happening with an exciting Harvard Square!!!
MIT is younger and very vibrant, but much quieter.
And right now, I dunno if UConn is on par with this two colleges...
I D U N N O!!!

Back to Boston Chinatown, deciding where to eat for dinner..
We had yummy lobster in the end, if you remember from my previous post. :)


END OF BOSTON TRIP!!!
I HAD FUN....

AND NOW I WANNA WANNA GO TO NEW YORK CITY!!!
:(

|8:05 AM|

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Entry about food!!!
I gave up the idea of going to NYC bcos I saw that its gonna rain today. So I planned to go to the lab instead!!! And guess wat, it was FREAKING good weather today. Anyway, it was a good escape from the monotonous food that I have everyday....

I should post some pictures from my Boston trip but I decided to post pictures of my foods first.
Well, it includes foods from Boston too...
:)

So, an average meal outside should cost you about 10USD.
The other day I had Panda Express for lunch. It is actually chap-chai-peng (mixed veggies rice) and it cost me freaking 7USD!!! For two chicken dishes on fried rice and a stupid fortune cookie!! That day, I wished I owned a chinese restuarant in USA, cheating people money with lousy chinese food..
Well anyway, a good meal would cost you about 20USD.
But the good thing is that they serve you (like an American) here, meaning they give you HUGE portions. So it is always good to share. :)
BUT, if you cook at home, it will cost you like 2-3USD for good food...
Provided, you can cook as well as me...
HAHHAHAHH...

I kinda like to make pasta (Beef/plain/seafood marinara) for dinners. Marinara was the best and most unexpectedly good!! But ever since I ran out of cod fillet and the shrimps haven't gone on sale, I made it only once. Very sad...

Oh, and most of the time, I made rice for dinner. Main dish includes onion eggs, chicken stew, stir-fry veggies, oriental pork chops, and some random dishes that I create from whatever food I have when my grocery supplies run low.

Some foods that I made...

My AMERICAN BIG BREAKFAST!!!
Thats kaya on my french toast, with scrambled eggs, maple-favoured sausages and patties!!!
YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMY!!!
Total cost: less than 1USD


HOKKEIN MEE!!!
Total cost: Approximately 2USD
I ate this over 3 meals... :P



Foods from Quincy Market (Boston)!!!
Fish & Chips -8.95USD


YUMMY-LICIOUS CLAM CHOWDER!!!
Very very very very yummy!!!
They give free samples in mini cups and I had at least 5!!!
HAHAHA - I'm a sample hawk!!!
6.95 USD


PASTRIES!!!!
MUST-TRYS in Boston!!!
Boston Cream Pie, Canolli & Lobster Tail..



What else but fresh seafood from Boston!!
Lobster at Chinatown :)
2 for 29.90 USD

|10:05 AM|

Saturday, March 08, 2008

Boston
I am going to Boston in like an hour's time.

I AM EXCITED!!!

:)

|11:45 PM|

Thursday, March 06, 2008

Heavy Snowfall last Saturday!!
It snowed sooo heavily on Friday night that I was almost convinced that the stupid bus trip to Buckland Hills will be cancelled.

Its really weird bcos its always bad weather during the weekends (Fri/Sat) and bright and SUNNY on SUNday morning.

Evidence No 1: Raining soo heavily the Friday I wanted to go to DC.
Evidence No 2: This heavy snow that ALMOST ruined my long-awaited shopping trip.
Evidence No 3: This raining Saturday, when I am supposed to go to Boston!!
Oh, did I tell you Michie is coming from San Francisco to visit!!!
I am sooooooooooooo EXCITED!!!!!!!

So on Saturday, I woke up especially early with mixed feelings.
Happy and worried!!
Happy cos I get to go to lab to subculture my cells.
Excited about the shopping trip!!
Worried cos I might get an email saying that the trip was cancelled.
I literally paddled my way to school...
The snow was at least 3 inches thick!!
Luckily I had my boots on!!!

Some pictures of the white white Saturday!!


The usual road to school.
All covered with snow.



Into UConn already....


Frosted topping trees and thick thick snow!!!


I have March weekends all booked for Boston/New York and Washington DC!!!
Hopefully weather will be good!!
3 more weeks to SPRING!!!

Brain food(s) for the day:
1. Do you know that when it snows, it actually is warmer?
Interesting but TRUE!!!

2. Snow really appears like the beautiful SNOWFLAKE shape that we see on Christmas trees!!
Its BEAUTIFUL!!

Oh, and my room-mate from Nepal made GLIZZARDS yesterday..
Like chicken heart and liver and alot of unknown stuff in Masala powder and turmeric powder!!
So Dee and I decide to dissect the hearts and check out the aorta, valves, vein network..
And I actually tried like a HEART and an UNKNOWN very crunchy thingy!!
Dee ate one piece and freaked out!! Hahaha...
I have pictures in my camera..upload later!! Haha...

|7:36 AM|

Monday, March 03, 2008

I LOVE SHOPPING!!
Be it a big mall, a street market or a grocery store.
Be it Paris, London, Thailand, HK, Malaysia or USA.
I LOVE SHOPPING!!!

Nothing is more enjoyable than shopping.
I will whine due to exhuastion when I trek thru MacRitchie Park...
But I never complain of sore feet due to shopping...
I LOVE SHOPPING!!!

Thus far, I have went on 3 major shopping trips in US..
Once to Westfarms - total damage: 200+USD
2nd time to East Brook lao kok kok Mall - total damage: 100+USD
3rd time (but definitely not last) to Buckland Hills Mall - total damage: 80+USD



Show you my loot!!
*triumphant smile*

Introducing my looties from clockwise...
1. Abercrombie & Fitch (On sale 12.90, UP: 39.90)
2. Ralph Lauren Tote (On sale 29.99, UP:75.99)
3. I Love Me Junk Food Tee (On sale: 12.90, UP:15.90)
4. Delia's Colourful Flower Blouse (On sale: 14.90, UP: 22.90)
5. Abercrombie & Fitch Knitted Blouse (On sale: 12.90, UP: 29.90)
6. Forever 21 Gold Earrings (On sale: 99cents, UP: 3.99)
7. Yellow summer tube top (On sale: 9.99, UP: 29.99)
8. Spongebob Square Pants swimming trunks for baby Jayden ($1!!!!)
9. H&M Random tees and halter tops ($1 each!!!!)
10. Forever 21 Jacket ($14.90)
11. Delia's musical note top ($12.50)

Super happy!!!


That DKNY top is only 9.99usd!!!
But its XS...too tiny :(

|9:54 AM|

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Photos photos and more photos...
I am lazy to write..
Let the pictures do all the talking ok?

Skiing trip @ Ski Sundown
16th Feb 2008










Familiar faces? Yeaps, I met fellow Singaporeans who are from NUS.
They are all on exchange here.
They provide me with endless supplies og Singie jokes and Singlish.

To sum up the experience, skiing was expensive, painful embarassing but very fun!!
I fell so many times I lost count. And i felt sore all over my body the next day.
It may be my first, and most prolly my last.
Until I bring my kids there again.. :)

Polo match @ Horsebarn Hill (UConn)
17th Feb 2008, Sunday






I love horses, after elephants and giraffes and dolphins.
:)


The dogs at home.
3 dogs is way crazy.

Madison - my fave dog



Koji - the annoying midget


Polo - guest of the house, loves chilling at one corner
Like only me and Nima likes him!!
Everyone else hates Polo!!


I am supposed to be in DC now.
But weather was too bad to travel.
Very very upset about it. :(

|6:14 AM|

Monday, February 11, 2008

Go away bad luck!!
Dar Dar is having a rough patch in Singapore right now..
Having super bad luck and very depressed..
Wish I were in there to comfort and share the load..

GO AWAY BAD LUCK!!!
Huai de bu ling, Hao de ling!!! (I actually typed hao de bu ling at first :P)

I love you Darling..

Hugs and kisses,
Your baby..

|1:52 PM|

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Cam-whoring at my backyard
Its Saturday afternoon and I am at home with nothing much going on.
And then, it started to snow.
So, out of boredom,
I decided to cam-whore.
Where? Right at my doorstep.

THE BACKYARD!!



It took some time to perfect the techniques.
Equipments required - a stool and tissue box as tripod stands.

Shot #1


Shot #2



Shot #3



Shot #4

|4:13 AM|

Saturday, February 09, 2008

My happiest day in USA (yet)
Very very long post about happy things :)

I skipped work today again. Blehz...

|10:34 AM|

Monday, February 04, 2008

I hugs American TV!!
After the nasty freezing rain on Friday!!!
Its SUNNY for two days straight!!
Hoooooooooray!! :D

The only enjoyment, besides cooking, I am getting from this whole USA experience is definitely watching television. We have over 100 channels on television, and I watch the television from 6 to about 11 everyday. On weekends, when I am stucked at home, i watch tv ALL day!! Once, I watched 4hrs of American Next Top Model straight!! O_o"'

My favorite channel is Fox where they show mainly game shows - Jeopardy, Wheel of Fortune, American Idol (obviously not a game show but still hilariously entertaining), Deal or No Deal and the latest slamming Moment of Truth. This game, is to win money just by telling the truth. The prize money is USD500,000!! And they ask embarassing questions, in the presence of your family, colleagues and lover!! And of course, they verify the truth by hooking you up to the lie detector.

My favorite questions thus far,
1. Have you ever flirted with other other women on the internet?
2. Have you every tried to hit on one of your girlfriend's friends?
3. Do you plan to be a virgin till your wedding day?
4. Have you ever touched someone at work inappropriately?
5. Have you ever done something wrong at work and let your colleagues take the blame?
6. Have you ever gambled away your son's college money?
7. Would you leave your girlfriend if your ex-wife wants to get back with you?

I have a feeling this show will not be shown in Singapore. We're just too morally right!! :P

And this weekend, I watched 5 movies -
1. Pulp Fiction - Apparently is my housemate Nima's favorite movie of all times. he watched it 20 freaking times. 2nd movie of Quentin Tarantino, starring Bruce Willis, John Tralvota, Uma Thurma, Samuel L Jackson. Very very deep and soo hard to understand.

2. Knocked Up (DVD)- Watched it in Dee's room while the boys were in the living room watching mixed martial arts competition when big men hit other big men. They pooled about 40USD to order the game on cable and had beer while they watch. So we girls, who apparently do not wanna sit in the living room while the boys screamed over their beers. Anyway, this show is about Izzie (from Grey's Anatomy) gets pregnant after a one-night-stand with an ugly fat guy. And how after many many obstacles and relationship issues, fell in love and got together to raise their child. Not the best storyline, but was funny.

3. Mr Woodcock (DVD) - Lousy movie. No famous actor. Stupid and unoriginal storyline. No jokes at all. Everyone was so upset that we sat thru the movie when it was sooo lousy.

4. Saving the Last Dance - Watched it the first time in 2001 with some people from Poly. It was good. And i especially love the last comtemporary piece when she mixed hip-hop dance with modern ballet. SLAMMING!!

5. What Women Want - Mel Gibson with the ability to hear women's thoughts.. :)

It may be a pathetic excuse to stay home to watch TV. But TV rocks.
I know I said I am going to the malls this week. I didn't. But hey, I went to Big Y to spend money there on groceries again!!!!
BUT I found a way that I might be able to go to the malls.
Will let you guys know when I finally get to go. Haha :)

Oh, right..I learned a drinking game last night!!!
So, the boys got lots and lots of beer for the big game last night rite? And they decided to "get high" first with a game of "beer-pong" in the basement!!
So what is beer-pong? It is beer + ping-pong!!! Haha...
So, the game goes like this: Each team of two players stands on one side on the ping-pong table with like 10 cups, arranged in a pyramid, filled with beer. And each person gets a chance to throw a ping-pong ball across the table, hopefully into ya opponents' cups. If the ball goes in, they have to drink up!! The team that clears all 10 cups first wins!!
After losing 3 games straight, I self-declared myself as the best new-comer!!
No really...I was really good for a first-timer!! :)

Today is the day my room-mate will move in. I'm excited!!

|5:28 AM|

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

www.weather.com

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Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Greetings from Connecticut

|5:59 AM|

Thursday, January 03, 2008

On Cloud 9
I just lost 24 fan to some idiot in Mahjong 3+1, and then some idiot zi-mou just before I win my one-dragon tile (I had 1wan to 9wan straight flush)!! I was waiting for 2circles and that idiot, one seat before me, zi-mou 2 circles. SHIT!!!!!!!
So, I was declared bankrupt and forced to leave the game. So here I am, blogging about my day ponteng from work!!

Haha...But you know what? I'm super happy today!

Happy. Elated. Delighted. Ecstatic.
Overjoyed. Thrilled. Euphoric.

I had been super depressed for the past few days because I got a C+ for my TCM.
C+++++++++++++++++++!!! *weeps*
Its an 6AU module and I seriously just couldn't afford to get a C+.
Not even a B-. NOT EVEN B OK????
Especially when you thought you did very very well, and then you get an C+.
That feeling is simply.................horribly INDESCRIBABLE!!!
From that very fateful I saw that disgusting C+ till today, I coaxed myself to believe that it was a mistake. A grave mistake made by my school. So later that day, I tried to login to Studentlink to check my grades again to make sure that my eyes were playing tricks on me that morning.

But I couldn't.

I couldn't log in to Studentlink at all. So I sent many many emails to everyone and begged them that I need to see my results again or else I will die of anxiety and depression.
But no one replied my emails. Because everyone was happily enjoying the holidays while I grieved over my very pathetic C+.
And so I try, at least 20 times each day for 6 days in a row, to login to Studentlink in hope that my C+ has turned in to an A.
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NO LUCK!!!
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Until this afternoon, CITS replied me:



So I immediately open a new tab and check my results again.
There it was.

BMS203 C+

Staring back at me, while I stared at it.

ULTIMATE SIAN-NESS!!!

So I immediately emailed Miss Irene Tay, the know-it-all in SBS, no offence intended, but she really knows and handles everything like a thousand-hand-Buddha. If SBS ever loses either Irenes, it will be hell. Anyway, back to the email, so i immediately emailed Irene (my 4th email to her, after one email to Qin wei, and another to Irene Seet) and practically begged her:

Dear Miss Irene Tay,

I have been upset for the last 6 days after seeing that horrible persistent C+ on my result slip. Please tell me that that is just an illusion, that I indeed, really, did not got an C+ for a freaking 6au module. That you graded me based on a 70%, and not a 100% grade. (On a side note, I missed the CA, you see). Please, please, please, PLEASSSSSSSSSSEEEEE!!!! If you still don't tell me, I need to spend (waste) S$10.50 to appeal and that really will make me more upset.

Thank you very much.

Yours truly,
A very upset and pathetic 4th year 3rd class Honors student.
:(

No, those are really not my exact words.
BUT the true intention written between the lines.
I was practically BEGGING her to tell me that i did not get a C+.

No more than 5 minutes after I went to shit all the bad luck stucked inside me for the past 6 days and returned to the computer to play Mahjong 3+1 to drown my sorrows, Miss Irene Tay, my angel for the day, replied my email:

Hi Audrey,

I have checked and you are indeed granted exemption for BMS203 Continual Assessment, which means that your BMS203 will be based on 100% weightage on examinations.

Your BMS203 grade was graded without the above considerations.

The School would like to apologize for the error and will revise and update your BMS203 examination marks by mid-February 2008.

Do let me know if you have any further queries.

Irene Tay

I was sooo bloody happy, I practically floated from my seat. And shouted "Yes, yes!!"
Just like immersing in an uncontrollable orgasm *coughs*
But YES, i was(am) OVERJOYED!!

So I sent a very polite email to confirm that i DID NOT got a C+.
And she replied,

No problem Audrey, as it is our mistake.

Hope the error has not created too much ‘worries in you.

Enjoy yourself before school starts next week.
Irene

God, "too much worries" is an understatement.
But at least I very happy now.

Later, I am going to the temple with my remaining two-dollar bill in my Gucci wallet (pathetic rite?) to thank Kong-zi.

Wahahaha..... :)

|12:38 PM|

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Merry Xmas!!

Its an awfully quiet Xmas this year!!

Blah blah blah...

What did I do? Stayed at home and chiong TVB drama lo!! :(

I want a happier new year!!! :P


Dearest friends,

Merry xmas and happy new year!!!

Love,
Audrey

|12:09 PM|

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Post-birthday picture galore!!
Hey hey, I'm back...!!

|6:36 PM|

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Happy Birthday!
Happy Birthday to me!! (:

|9:01 AM|

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Life is beautiful


Life is beautiful
When you are loved dearly,
and loving someone dearly.
Treasure that one person...
:)


PS: I'm still around...

|4:57 PM|

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

My horny vampire and exam madness
Just the other day when we were celebrating Fiona's birthday,
I realised something..

Me and Junfeng are gonna celebrate our two-year anniversary soon (in June),
and tomorrow is our 22month anniversary.
While I proudly boasted to Darren about his wrong prediction about us,
Fiona reminded me, "But almost couldn't make it there..."
And it struck me.

Our relationship was built on such a thin foundation,
And like Darren said, we were two worlds apart.
But you know, at that time, I really needed someone TOTALLY different,
Cos my ex was TOTALLY similar.
And it ended up (and started off) in a total mess.

Actually, I should have realised this long ago.
Even frens should be totally/somehow/more or less different.
Shufen and I were totally different and we hit it off well.
Baolian and I were different too, so we became good frens very soon.
But frens who are more similar usually don't stay together soo long.

Anyway, back to me and Junfeng.
Things feel different nowadays.
I think I am too clingy.
And i hate it lah.
It used to be the other way round when we first started off.
Literally speaking, you may put it that i had him around my fingers (or is it how you put it?)
Now, he doesnt even care about me!!
Ok, thats not true, but it just seems that he care less (ok, just a bit less).
BUT BUT BUT...
Thats means he changed rite? His love is less? He got another gal outside?
I have been bugging him everyday with these questions,
Which even I know, are NON-existent.
But yeah, as I bug him, its bugging me too.
WHATEVER.... I abit siao one..

Its exams madness this semester.
Stupid me actually planned a timetable that has 3 papers consequtively.
But yeah, I finished earlier than most of my frens.
24th APRIL!! Yippppeee...
Then we go shopping ok?? :)

4 more days and I will know if I got selected for the EPFL Research Scholar Program.
Its pretty prestigious and I really hope I make it,
Although I think I wun be able to attend cos it clashes with my next sem's timetable.

Aiyah..
Everything is COMPLICATED lah.
See how lah!!

|4:41 PM|

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Have you seen my new haircut??
I haven had short hair ever since 2002.

|3:07 PM|

Friday, February 16, 2007

BIG Hello!!
HellOoOoOOo everyone!!

I know i know, i have not been updating this blog very religiously (i also nv go guan yin temple to pray you know, my guan yin ma must be damn sad....). Anyhow, I have now made an effort to come in and wish all a happy new year and a great v-day!!

To all my jie meiz who are celebrating V-day after many years of waiting for the rite guy...

School has started and i already broke my new year resolution!!
I only went for ~30% of my classes. I really shouldnt make that new year resolution anymore, since they are ALWAYS meant to be broken. SHIT!! I must do something about it, once TCM starts, i am dead meat...YES..i am taking TCM...sooo dead sooo dead!! :(

I have many pics to upload, and will upload it soon when i find time (hopefully).
I wanna show you my lv bag (my birthday present to myself) and maybe some other random pictures.

Till then :)

PS: My dearest vampire, you still owe me my birthday present and Vday present ok...?? i wanna go KOREA!!!! dun forget :)

PPS: I failed my driving test again! That stupid uncle was sweeping floor in the parking lot while i was doing parallel parking. Then this malay uncle on his yamaha motorcycle cut my lane to answer his handphone. wah sianz sianz sianz... need to waste another 300 bucks to take another time...i soooo want the dress at ness, i could use the money to buy that dress you know..boo hoo hoo!! :( dun rub salt into my wound, dun stop abt driving in front of me!!!!!!!!!!!

|4:43 PM|

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Sorry for the lag of updates.
I am sure my blog has accumulate massive tonnes of cobwebs.

To update you guys about my life,
I have 7 words.
(one for everyday in the week)

MY LIFE IS IN A FUCKING AGONY.

(:

P/s: i don't know how to tell you anymore, but i wanna say..for God's sake, please let me choose my life.

P/p/s: BL: Amidst the FUCKING agony, I am happy for you though. As Fish said, Congrats ;)

|11:09 AM|

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Yay...!! We Graduated From Summer School
Yup...44 days of summer school is officially over =)

Photos of graduation dinner..





Louis Wong - the one fashionable HK man.

Yups, its always the 8 of us..
And yes...I miss everyone badly..

My 7 RC members, Bary, Alan, Angel, Ashley, Kevin, Chris...
I miss the afternoon tea at UC..shopping at Argyle..the cold noodles,
the HKD12 wanton mee (and the fierce aunty at the stall)...

See ya soon guys =)

*more pics of last few days with feng to be up soon*

|4:40 PM|

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Updates in Hong Kong
Its been 2 weeks since the last post..
I have been really lazy these days..
Sleeping in the wee hours at night (early morning) and waking up real late in the afternoons..
This is because we are experiencing real bad weather here, for the past 3 days, the wind has been blowing non-stop..its so gloomy all day and the rain has been incessant..
Rain and wind here comes in all directions..thus a brolly doesn't really help, which is why I dun bring my bright red CUHK brolly out...
I never had the habit of carrying brollies out anyway..

The past two weeks had been fun, and not so fun..

Hong Kong Location #1
Ocean Park - every HK kid's dream.
But it was a really bad trip cos there were armies of PRCs, and they totally spoilt the trip.
They were rude and noisy and love to jump Qs and squeeze in between little gaps..
ARGH... *puiz*
Anyway, the dolphins and jellyfishes and fishies were really cute..
And the stingrays made me hungry..
AND.....
I conquered the Free-fall yet again..Hooray..But it was soo soo scary..
but the view was sooo worth it!!
And for the first time in my life, I see panda!!
Yay..and hor, they shit alot...
Green colour one!! =p




Hong Kong Location #2
Lantau Island, Tai-O Village, Disneyland(the entrance)
We had to travel 2 hours to Lantau Island and the trip was soo horrible..the roads were narrow and we turned at least 100 revolutions to get up to the very famous Big Buddha at Po Lin Monastry..
The Buddha was over-whelming and it was soo high up that the clouds just float pass us..
Its better than Genting, really..
But one thing I learn; Clouds smell bad!!



We then went to Tai-O Fishing village for dinner, a very disappointing SEAFOOD dinner, cos out of 10 dishes, the only seafood we had was prawns and fish..WTF..
It totally spoilt my day...!!


We were then rushed to Disneyland to catch the fireworks..
It was really pretty...!!
However, at 830, when all the visitors "charged" out of the exit..
The thought that ran through my mind..re-enforced my determination of not going to HK Disneyland..
Those PRCs tourist!!
They will spoilt every magical details of Disneyland..
NO way will I let them make my 70SGD ticket go to waste..
Magical moments of Disneyland will have to wait till USA =)


Location #3 - Macau


HOT HOT HOT..Like an oven....
The heat at Macau was really UNBEARABLE!!
We felt so sticky and hot and upset...
Went dog-racing, casinos, St Paul's Ruins..
I lost money...argh!!!
Ate alot of yummy food at road-side stalls...
And bought 2 pairs of sneakers =)

Hong Kong Location #4 - Yuen Long..
I really didn't place much hopes on the lunch..due to the bad experience from the previous SEAFOOD dinner..
And gosh, when you dun place much hopes, food can turn out to be real good..
We ate super-duper-delicious Pun-Choi as lunch, Lao-po-bing for tea...
We then left the school tour to explore Yuen Long ourselves...
Managed to hunt down the very famous B-Zai-Leung-Fan!!
We ordered the hot-favorite fruits platter with leung fan (grass jelly) and mango hor-fun (WEIRD) and this Durian pudding which looked totally unappetising, but turned out to be a knock-out!! The durian hidden was sooo delicious!!! YUmmy!!
And we had thai food for dinner, not as great as the authentic thai cuisine, but still yummy!!

And of course, the day ended with shopping ;)

PS: My cantonese is getting real good!! heehee..

PPS: My vampire is coming to HONGKONG!! Yay...
I am soo excited...
I love you darling...
Lets go watch the fireworks and soak in the nightview together..
(and bring lots if cash with you ok!!) ;P

|4:43 PM|

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Typhoon No 1
28.06.06
We got news that we were having typhoon no 1.
So we decided to stay in hostel to do some reading and work.

We woke up in the morning with really dark angry clouds.
Clouds that make you feel that you would be blown away.

I had my first taste of typhoon at 12pm.
This is how it is.
And it is only 20 mins apart.
Yup, i did not do work as planned.
I slept the whole day away! ;p









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01/07/06
Today: Esprit warehouse robbery.
When I first stepped in, i decided that it was so not worth the trip..
But as I browsed through the racks..i picked up more and more shirts..
2 for Feng and the rest for me.
Yippee!!!!!!
Total hours: 1.5
Total damage: 465HKD
Savings: At least 50% from Original Price =)

Oh, we next went to the Symphony of Lights at the Star Pier.

Comments? Crap. Rubbish. Shitty.

Give it a miss. =)

|12:12 AM|

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

New Territories Museum Tour














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The 2nd cultural tour we had was to this temple and HOng Kong Heritage Museum in Shatin.
Cos CUHK is in Shatin, I assume they decided that we should very much understand Shatin better.
The temple is kinda "normal" and "ordinary". Just a worship place for the dieties, Buddha and yes, our HK fren's dead relatives.
The museum, was nothing museumy ;p You know wat i mean rite?
It was quite weird in a sense, as they have this theme - "Megastore - Not for sale" All things of HK taste was arranged like in a supermarket kinda of style..like in a furniture showroom, or like along a laundry street. Nothing interesting seriously. But we gals (yes, 8 noisy gals) managed to giggle, squeal and roar in laughter amongst the exhibits.
Dinner was pretty good. Roast chicken and meatballs from IKEA. Yummy. Shucks..I am actually craving for them now.. =P
Thats really all to the trip.
Yup, holidays is all about ups and downs.
This is the down.
But tomorrow (02/07) will be a up. Cos its Ocean Park.
Hip hip hurray =)

Some photos of the 8 of us =)

|11:40 AM|

Tong Lo Wan & Tsim Sha Tsui
Yay!! I conquer yet another small portion of HongKong the other day.
I know I am really lagging in posting pics and blogging..
Pls forgive cos I am really slacking (and having too much fun)!!

Ok dokie..so back to Causeway Bay aka Tong Lo Wan.
Its really a upclass place. You can simply relate it to Oxford Street in London, 5th Avenue in NewYork, or simply Raffles City or Ngee Ann City in Singapore. Come to think of it, Singapore is pretty pathetic in defining a street dedicated to expensive brands. Anyway, the first store we hit was Coach. And gosh, the Coach here is at least 10% cheaper. I "look up" (kan shang) at least 3 bags!! And the coach sneakers I am lusting for, was going at HALF PRICE! But, fuck the duck (i just learnt this from the show - Wimbledon ;P) they only have it in red. I was like..argh!!! the whole day. Oh well... Shopping still have to go on rite? But not before we fill our hungry stomachs! We ate KFC!! The ambassador of KFC is actually Che Tian. Pls go download his songs and google him if you dunno him already. His songs are like a megahit in HK rite now. And i know him!! I am sooo proud of myself.. =) Anyway, KFC was nothing impressive lah..Singapore's one is alot more juicy..but the ones here have criss-cut fries and yummy scones-like buns =)

We then walked around Causeway Bay (depressively) cos the clothes are very very nice. But also with a very very pricey tag. Especially this street called Paterson Street when Island Fashion is..!! We could buy anything but we decided to make the best out of the long walk by taking pictures with the latest Coca Cola stars!!!



















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When Weizhen came, we just stood around to eat some roadside snacks. And i had my first "Curry Fishballs - Ka Li Yu Dan" here. It was....rubbery? Haha =)














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We then walked a long long road to take the ferry to Tsim Sha Tsui...How can i miss any photo-taking chances?
Shall let the pics do the talking!! =D

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On the ferry

At the pier


Avenue of Starz

Whats better than ending the day with a wonderful dinner and a yummy cuppa Dong Nai Cha?

Today is shopping free day..i only spend HKD20!! Yay..*dances*

|12:53 AM|

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Shopping is great!














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MY LOOT!!
Shopping Day 1
No of people: 5
No of hours: 5
Total damage: 700HKD
I am sooo happy.
And the happiest thing? Shopping was on my darling vampire! =)

The pic may not be doing the clothes and caps and shoes justice..cos they all soo damn pretty!! I just luuuuve this cap.



















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At Argyle Mall, i found this delicious japanese snack-cold noodles. Its only 5HKD. You choose 3 bags of ingredients(i chose noodles, octopus, and fish wraps). There are of cos shellfish, jellyfish, eggs, crabstick..blah blah..And this HK ah-lian will mix them all up in a bag with sweet sauce, soy sauce and chilli!! I tell you..its really cheap and yummy!!! Its a real good business idea..pls someone do it!! DO IT!!

Look!! Its yummy!! We are happy!!

|12:47 AM|

Monday, June 19, 2006

CUHK, Shatin, New Territories, Hong Kong
















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Reporting live in HK!!
Yup, your Highness is in HK.
But first...I need to whine...
Miss piggy of deyi is here. yucks!
The water is hard and the weather is dry. My skin and hair are being damaged everyday. shucks!
I have been sleeping irregular hours, bcos of wc and bcos I am still adapting. Thats bad for skin too.
And, i think i think, I diden bring enough money.
Haiz...
Anyway anyway..
Let me update on wat happened the past few days.

Day 1-Departure
The bloody jetstar flight was delayed for half an hour. The lousy onboard services and rude air stewardess were a pain in thy ass. The PRCs on flight were irritating (as usual) too.
So we arrived in HK at about 9plus, on an empty stomach. So i hit MacD to hit on my long-lusted pork burger. yummy!! =)

Day 2-Orientation
We like on a very packed schedule travel tour were forced to soak in all the essence of Hongkong. Heavy dim sum lunch, Repulse Bay, The peak, crazy 12 course dinner.
















































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Day 3-Shopping
Since CUHK is in the "green" part if HK, there is only one miserable shopping area in Shatin. By miserable area, i mean a series of shopping centres connected, 4 to be exact, or is it 5? Anyway, I practised self-discipline and bought mininum. And gosh, you know how hard that it?? *laughs*
We ate at "cha chan teng" at dirt cheap prices. And how can i forgo "Xu Liu Shan"?? Mangoes mangoes =)

Day 4-Today!!
................... wat else but shopping?? =P

|12:31 PM|

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Happy Anniversary
To Mr Horny Vampire,
I was upset when you spoilt my day by asking me to go to the wrong bus stop. But being very magnanimous, I decided not to be angry even though you didn't show up outside the Japanese restaurant that you asked me to wait for you at.
The blue Charles and Keith heels were hurting my feet (again) and again, you made me walk somemore. I asked you who recommended you the ulu place. And you replied saying is some idiot. I thought, "Great, you bring me to the restaurant some stupid idiot recommended? I looooooove you sooo much!"
Hands in hands, we entered a small alley, . And I saw a tiny beautiful garden. But I still had no idea where we were. We entered the restaurant and I was relieved. That idiot is some smart ass. The place was quiet, pretty and had some romantic thingy lingering in the air. Well, only a couple was tucked near some corner.
You then told me that the place is called "My Secret Garden" and then I realised that "Oh, i am the idiot!" So you remembered that I told you about this place. =)
At that moment, considering the fact that not many people was in the restaurant, we slowly slipped into a world of our own. Maybe because I was feeling very very happy and loved, the food tasted superbly great. We fed each other with the delicious calamari rings and sipped our Shiraz (which actually started off pretty horrible) and waited anxiously for our steaks. When the food was served, I came to a greater understanding of fine dining. Expensive, tiny but pretty. My tenderloin steak was no bigger then a baseball. And your ribeye steak was as big as my palm. The food and wine started to complement each other and I nearly had an orgasm. Ok, i am just joking =P. I was actually craving for some desserts, but you insisted on bringing me to another place for cake. In my mind, I was worried that you had some crazy idea of a huge cake with candles. I really wanted to talk you out of it, but I decided to let you play host the whole evening, since I already enjoyed myself tremendously in the first half.
So we left the restuarant and we walked, slowly and lovingly, with great suspicion that you had lost ya way and screwed things up yet again. In the end, we ended up at Carlton and you said they served cake at Level 19. I was estactic of course. Level 19 is not as high up as Equinox, but nevertheless, it would be a great view. 5 seconds later, I found myself locked outside Room1919 while you went in to "do ya things". You know I hate anticipation. So, I banged on the door really loudly and shouted that "wo yao xiao pian - i wanna pee". And maybe you were paiseh, so you let me in very quickly. I saw two cute little heart shaped pastry sitting on the table. Litted was the rose-scented candle left behind from out Valentine's Day dinner. Haha..cheapo you!! Honestly, the cake wasn't fantastic. =D
So what view does 200 bucks and a level 19 suite give us?
Drumrooooooooooooolls ==> SMU!! *applause*
That part sucked alot, but then everything that night has fallen in place so perfectly that I wasn't picky anymore. Although you again got cheated because we were not entitled to breakfast. Bloody hell. But well, you appleased me by suggesting dim sum the next morning. Ok, I am fine with that arrangement. =)
We watch Da Chang Jin on the big comfy bed. And we talked about everything under the sky. Whether we would catch some professor banging his secretary (or student) in the building across us. About my ex. About my family. About my clubbing plans in HK. About the lousy red wine you brought from home. =P
And yes, we exchanged presents and silly you, bought me another coach bag with ya miserable savings. But, I have to admit that I like it alot alot. Even though, deep down in my heart, I wished it was a LV. Haha. And i hope you like my Bruan Buffel wallet *yawnz* But really really, I am super broke. Next year I promise a better present. =) muacks
The rest of the nite is for us to know and remember. (And for you KPO third parties, you can slowly imagine yaself. Haha!!) The SMU view really wasn't that bad after all.
We woke up the next morning craving for a hot shower. The shower head at Carlton gives really strong jets of water that is very very shiok!!
Darling, I hope that next year, we would enjoy ourselves as much also. And seriously, it would be orgasmic if we are overseas ;P.
I love you darling.

From your cute & beautiful baobei. =)

|1:33 PM|

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

why did you do that?
I figured out you were trying to lie..
But I still can't figure out why you wanted to..
I'm utterly disappointed..
In you, in myself, and in our friendship..

|9:54 AM|

Friday, May 19, 2006

Long Time No Blog
Ahhh..its been long since I last blogged..



Its already the 2nd (or is it the 3rd?) week of holidays,
I am kinda enjoying myself..
But the biggest finding this holiday is that;
I come to realise that I need a "best friend".

Exams ended on 3rd May and following that..

1. I went shopping sprees spending alot of $$ with Junfeng.
2. I went for facial.
3. I painted my toenails bright red.
4. I DIY-painted my fingernails slime green. =)
5. I'm attending Spanish classes 4 days a week.
6. I spend at least 45 mins showering everyday. <--Me-time
7. I cooked dinner for Junfeng.
Cos he had been great the whole week..hee =)
Cooking is real fun when you are good at it..washing is boring.
Oh..and it was fun!! ;P
8. I watch Da Chang Jin everynite.
9. I played Maple story.
I am level 22 warrior!! Yay..
But I think I am going to be thief or magician..their clothes are nicer!! =P
10. I am reading "In search of an impotent man".
Its a good book.. =)

See, everything is "I", no "we".
Know why?
Thats bcos I got no "best friend".

After the JB trip, I fell sick, had to go to the doctor myself.
No care and concern from "best friend"'
And worser till, I had to go for Spanish classes even though I lost my voice..
Sucks-a-doo-doo...

But luckily, Spanish class is soo fun!!
I feel like a kindergarden kid,
with pictures all over the board
and labels on all the furniture in the classroom..
Singing "Happy Birthday" songs (in spanish of cos)!!

So, whats a typical holiday-day for me?
Wake up at 11.30am..
Wash up and prepare for class for an hour..
Spanish class 2-5pm..
Dinner 6-8pm..
Television time all the way till 11pm... (DA CHANG JIN!!!!!)
Maple Story / story book till 1am..
Bedtime..

Yes, yawn..pls yawn..
I am rather bored too....

Oh, you may ask, "So on Friday when you got no class, what do you do?"
And I proudly answer, "I still sleep till 11am, buy fried bee hoon from the market and eat in front of my lappie, watching Tom Yum Koong, and then surf the net and then I blog lo..."

Yawn, yawn, yawnz...
See, thats bcos I dun have a "best friend"
(oh speaking of fried beehoon, I noticed my thighs are abit flabby..I need workout!!!)

Oh, and I am soo damn broke now..
No input at all, couldnt find any job..
Argh..
Just depending on my advert freelance and tuition won't support my HK shopping spree..
Shitz!!!

Any sponsors or loansharks out there?? =)

iHola!
Me llamo Audrey, senorita Audrey Wang.
Tengo veintidos anos.
Soy una chica joven y muy guapa.
Soy Singapapur y soy estudiante en la Universidad.
Vivo en un piso pequeno en el Marsiling.
Muy bonito!! =)
Hasta la vista..!!

|12:53 PM|

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

What are sad hormones called?
Does anyone knows the scientific name of sad hormones?
I can't seem to find it on google.
Well anyway, I am damn sad now.

Today is a bad bad day.

I woke up and realized that my account on my windows is missing.
I failed my immune test.
I did not get selected for CUHK.
And I can't find a decent eraser in the stationery shop.

Worst still, my darling is not around to hug me.
I so feel like crying in his arms now.
Haiz...

I wouldn't mind going out for a drink or something.
Although I am pretty fren-less, I sure know of a few kind souls who would meet up with me for a drink.
But I staying home cos I need to mug.

MUTHERPHUCKER SONOFABITCH!!
@#$%$#@
Damn crap.

Ok, i feel better now.
Swearing helps. ;)

|5:00 PM|

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

I think there is a serious problem with me.
Thats y i have no friends.

It must be me.

Gahhhhh...Arghhh...
I am just plain jealous..

I need nice clothes, good food...
I dun need you guys anymore ;)

|10:06 AM|

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Taking a break
Dear peeps,

I am gonna take a wee vacation from the blogging scene.
As you prolly had guessed, its exams period again.
Everyone around me is complaining about the overwhelming workload.
Yes, I see it. But strangely enough, I dun feel it.
I am not trying to brag that I am taking it easy cos I am an smarty-ass. I am feeling more of stoned actually. I planned out my schedule, and ain't keeping to it. And yet, I dun feel the least anxious. God wonders why. Anyway, I am trying my best to pull up my socks (those ankle socks). So throw me a few words like "Go gal!", "Work hard lassie!" and turn me on today (to study) !! =)

Love
Audrey

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Some of you may have known that I have shifted in to stay with my brother, in the remote northern part of Singapore that's a stone throw away from Malaysia. I have got my own room and a great Queen size bed which I have overslept in it eversince the first time I slept on it. (Dun understand my sentence? read again!!)
Anyway, staying here is a unique experience.
I felt castrophopic when I first came, but now its starting to fit in pretty well.
I get to see my brother more often now, which I really feel happy about (in a wierd way, considering he still likes to scold and order me around).
But at least I know what he is up to. Heh, his scandalous lovelife..Haha..
He is really worrying me though. He plays WOW every minute he is home, sits in the huge manager chair for hours and orders me to buy food for him. He drinks like 4 cuppa pearl milk tea a day!!
And if I ain''t around, he orders a Big Mac meal + Orea McFlurry and eats his fries with a spoonful of mayonaise. And did I mention he ordered it by Macdonald's delivery, so he pays like almost $12 for each meal delivered to his doorstep!! Haiz
In case you are wondering, I am not complaining, I am worried. I so feel like a mother lah!!
So I have decided to stay around and buy food for him, no matter how lazy I am.
What a lovely and caring sister!! =)

So, date me for a JB shopping trip! Or you can come my house play mahjong!! =)

|1:42 PM|

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Photo whoring
Bored and nothing to do..
A major photo-whoring session..
ThAT night at Altivo...

As usual, the vainpots and the toilet-fetish..





I might be scratching my butt when this was taken...



The birthday MAN and his zuo-yong-you-bao priviledges..
The taboo pic is super suggestive..
Let ya imagination run wild...whahah...


He is obviously not so happy with the boys..


I wasnt supposed to be in, but as usual, I decided to join in..


Believe me when I tell you Aloy is drunk...




Cake, cake, cake.....


More pics just b4 we leave for supper...
Bird cages are really quite comfy...


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Brewerks, sometime back...

Acting cool with Huahua's sunnies..




And then we met "Taufik"...


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Graduation 2004

Gosh, i just miss those days..


KL trip - Nov 2002?

|7:07 PM|

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

I'll stuck a cucumber up ya ass!! =(
Damn, I just got scolded by the shutle bus uncle!!!!
Its not that I do not wanna press the bell ok, the frigging kuku bell just does not work la.
Comon, fellow NTU peeps, please stand on my side!!!
That shuttle bus is damn old and konky la, not my fault the bell doesnt sound loud enough rite?
He must be deaf...MUST BE!!!
And to think he had the nerve to scold me, I scolded him back, he scold me again.
Darn darn darn!! argh...

And the birds outside my room are so god-damn noisy. Now I cannot sleep.
I called vampie to complain..Then dunno why he so concerned about the species of the birds so i tell him they are kukubirds.!! Argh..

Anyway...
Its tuesday and its WAFFLE day!!
But darn, I am stuck at NTU. Actually, I am still coming up with a plan to sneak out for some waffles with my darling vampire. Hmmm..how how how??

I have handed up my form for the CUHK exchange. Chinese University of Hong Kong. Yippee!!
I will be in HK from 16th June. Nothing's gonna stop me....!!!!! =)
Not even H5N1 or SARS!! =P

And now, the most important juicy bit of my life this week.
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Ling, Yiqian and Yijie, you gotta swear to secrecy that you not gonna tell / show / reveal this to ya mommy or anyone ok.. Else they will nag, nag, and nag at me for turning into a secret society Ah Lian...
Which obviously I am not..
I just adopted a pet..thats all..
But I am pretty sure they ain't gonna take that, not nicely at least..
And the last thing I want is to explain stuff like "I not Ah Lian ok" or "I not secret society, ok"
So dun tell!! :X
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I AM INKED!!













Hee...22/2/06..
I told Bl and MH that next year its birthday (220206), I gonna find my pet a mate..
And probably it will look like this then =)





























Yup, butterfly f*cking butterfly...
So considerate of me rite?? =D

Btw, can anyone enlighten me on why butterflies copulate this way? Dun they do it the ways cows / horses / dogs / snails / ants do it? Its weird..They dun pounce on each other?? And they aint facing each other at all..

|2:50 PM|

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Recess
After endless reports and assignments...finally the RECESS is here!

I started the holidays with a bang on Friday celebrating Aloy's birthday at Altivo. Its damn fun!! I have NEVER been to mount faber, and it was a good first time. The ambience at Altivo was great, but guess we were too rowdy and irritated most people over there..Haha..
We were playing taboo (Aloy's pressie) the whole night and I tell you..we were soo excited, the lovebirds opposite us actually stopped kissing to stare at us a weebit..Well well, who cares rite? We were just being us, the noisy, rowdy group of peeps...
Anyway, taboo is damn fun, especially when you play with a group of real close frens!! Its funny how we read each other's mind..and impressive how we could link one thing to another.
I absolutely LOVE that chemistry!!
Come to think of it, we haven had soo much fun in a long time, haven't we?

I love you guys (too) :)

We then headed to Fengshan 85 for supper. Yummy ba chor mee!! Yum yum yum I tell you!!
Wanted to head to Geylang for some chick-watching, but everyone was too tired..Well well..

I ended the day with Darren telling me a very beautiful story on the way home...So beautiful I suspect he copied / lifted from some chain email thingy..

Long long ago, there was a beautiful House with broken windows. A Repairman walked past the house, and fell in love with her at first sight. He was determined to repair the windows for the House. As he repaired, he was hurt by the hammering and nails but became more and more in love with the House. However, the House could only be grateful to the Repairman but cannot reciprocate his love, for she said, "Thank you, but I gave my heart to my Landlord long ago.." When the windows were repaired, the Landlord came back, the Repairman left, with a broken heart.

Honestly, I think its a beautiful tale and I was touched.
I wish that the Repairman will find another House that he loves... soon...

Saturday was a hapy happy day too.
My darling Vampire brought me to eat Din Tai Fung at Bishan to eat xiao long bao...
And its soo good..i tell you...NONE, i repeat "ZERO" xiao long bao tore!!
yummy yum yum yum..
I reckon they must be facing too much competition from Crystal Jade so they were self-reflecting abit on their baos...and served us good baos!! Which I must say..its a damn good thing...

Then we went to Phin's Steakhouse for what else but STEAK!!
Topped with wild mushroom sauce!!!
fAtanbulously delicious...
Food always makes AUDREY happy.
GOOD FOOD makes AUDREY darn happy!!
Yay yay!!

To top it off, we had MANGO TANGO for desserts...mango smoothie topped with super duper sweet mango cubes..soo soo soo soo yummy!!
Mangoes make AUDREY happy too!!

And it was all on my darling Vampire...
Yay!!! =)

Ok, Sunday was not so happy.
I skipped tuition and skipped NTU job, to go sing KTV with Vampie and his frens, cos its Wenhong's birthday. I think this procastinating thingy is a real bad habit, pushing tuition behind..But I am soo soo sticky to Vampie that I cannot help it..Argh..But I will make sure I will go tuition tomorrow....!!!
I promise!!

Will upload pics later when I get them from BL...lots of pics!! =)

|10:45 PM|

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Withdrawal symptoms..
I can understand if I was ditched yesterday..
I can understand if he is on missionary trip somewhere is Istanbul...

But its only 88hrs since I last saw him..
OK, maybe 88hrs and 14 mins...
Its very very long ago ok......??

I am jumpy, emotional, irritated and tired..
Its like I am forbidden from drugs..
To make things worse, supper was lousy..
=(

I miss you darling...
Buy me the pair of heels that I like..
I dun care...

|11:08 PM|

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

What would you do if you were raped?
Me?? I will just die...

I remember not long ago..there was a rape case in Woodlands. Executed by our dearest friends who came all the way from India to build our condos and HDBs, grope gals butt during new year countdowns and hunt gals down in the dark alleys. That girl was raped in a rubbish dump, by the first idiot. Luckily (i dunno if she is lucky or not), someone from the opposite block saw them, and the second idiot did not get his feast that night.

Being raped is sad enough, imagine getting raped in the rubbish dump. While some idiot is trying to poke you, you see a big brown dirty rat run pass you. See...eeeks right?!?!?

Yes, sex is great!!! When you are forced into it, i can really imagine hell.
Like digging your own nose is shiok rite? Imagine I stick my finger in and dig for you...fun anot??

Anyway, I wrote this entry bcos of this idiot no 3..who disgusted me so much that I had been deeply troubled for the past 2 days..

Sashi Kumar Pubalasingam - You should just die!
You know how sometimes I say to people (jokingly and to those I hate), "So many people die, why you haven die?" I really think he should be dead since the first day he was born.

In case some of you need some introduction...
This bastard is an Indian, 23 year old and raped 2 women.
One 67 yr old and another two(one managed to escape), less than 20 yr old, within 24 hours.

I am utterly disgusted by him. So disturbed that I asked Feng in the middle of the night, at bus stops, over the phone, on the trains.."If you are really desperate, would you rape a 67 yr old? Did he bring lubricant with him? Then isn't it painful to poke her butt? How come he can have like so many erections within such a short time?"

Seriously, if you are 23 yr old and have a high sex drive..why do you wanna fuck a 67 yr old? Don't tell me you were fantasizing about Jessica Alba while enjoying the act? I am sure she has wrinkly skin and sagging breasts and do not turn you on as you watch her perform oral sex on you?? Why do you suggest anal sex when a girl tells you she is virgin? And then make her perform oral sex on you? I wonder if she gagged with all the shit all around the dick?

Shamir once told me that it is a "culture" that indian couples have sex without lights and fully clothed. The woman lies on the bed and let the man do everything. I really have no idea how true it is and I honestly have nothing against that since there are really many other traditional cultures that I do not understand anyway. So for God's sake, if you are dying to see a woman naked while you have sex with her, you don't go around raping woman. Not a 67 yr old anyway. -You take train to Kallang, walk 10 mins to Lorong 18, dish out $3o dollars and choose someone (from a list of race, height, age, looks) you want. You can do it in the street alley, in an old storeroom, or if you want luxury, dish out another $50 for an hour in the sleazy hotels just a stone throw away. I am sure they do not have wrinkly skin. And if you want the excitement of raping someone..pay another $20 to ask her to scream "Help. help!"

See, job done. Your dick is happy. The chicken is happy. Everyone is happy.

20 yrs behind bars and 24 strokes of cane is a shitty sentence in my view.
2 years is good enough.

In exchange for the miserable 18 years, Audrey The Mighty Judge will grant dear Kumar 20 pokeys in his ass everyday in Changi Prison. And at the end of 2 years, as a bonus to him..I get a 70 yr fat old woman, please and arouse him..and then when his dick hardens and elongates, old woman will slice Kumar's erected dick up into 20 slices of 0.5cm (given a 10cm erection). I was thinking a jagged knife would be damn torturing, so a jagged blunt knife it shall be. Old woman would then bring the dick slices away and freeze them up in the fridge and make penis -chocolate fondue..just for Mr Kumar.

How nice of me yeah? =)

|3:04 PM|

Friday, January 27, 2006

End of Project Stress-Part I
I just finished one lab report and one tutorial assignment.
Its something to rejoice about.
Thus I have decided to wash my one-week old laundry, watch 2 more episodes of desperate housewives(its damn good i tell you, i teared) and blog.

Its not the end. Bioinformatics assignment due 10th Feb, test on 17th FEb, Biophysics lab report due 9th Feb. And truck-loads of tutorials not done. Does it just sound sticky and sucky?

WEll, lets have a jolly good cny before we care. =)

Hei Pi Nu Ear!! PUll your ear!!
Gong xi gong xi everyone.!!! =)

x0x0
loves
audrey

|1:20 PM|

Sunday, January 22, 2006

A series of events
Ok, recap.

Friday:
I finished yet another redundant practical at 1130 and went back to hall for lunch. I drew up an agenda to study but in the end, I surfed net for hours, blogged for another hour, chat on the phone with feng for hours again. So actual fact, studying took only 2 hours (or less).
Dinner was sumptuous. I had Apollo cake for starters, Nissin laksa noodles for main course, and milo for dessert. Haha..I was actually craving for chicken wings but I was just plain lazy to walk over to Canteen 2! =P
OoOoo, I just checked my timetable. I have shitloads of homework not done.
I'm dead.

Saturday:
Well, in the wee hours of Saturday morning. I watched 4 episodes of Desperate Housewives Season 2!! Haha, I love that show!! And its getting exciting this season!! And especially love jason (lynette's hubby)!!

Woke up late for my primary school meeting 6 hours later. Took my own sweet time to dress up for I often neglect the fact that I am currently "residing" in the far end of Singapore. Thus, I reached an hour late. But very happy to see familiar faces!!
Shamir, Marcus, Jo and AnnAnn!!
None of us changed!! We reminisced about primary school stuff and gossiped and laughed (gosh its been 15 yrs since we knew each other). They are a bunch of people whom you can talk about anything under the sun (See, we were the cool people in class back then, anyone outside our clique - was outcast!!). I really had a real good time. We tried to recall who the class monitress was, tried to recall who sat where, tried to list all all 40 people in P6/3 (but we were still short of 4..argh!!) and tried to figure out who was the one who pulled down jianhui's pants. Anyway, in short, I had lots of fun and laughs in the short 5 hours of brunch, tea, and desserts!! And know what, I am soo thrilled by the fact that throughout the 5 hours, I spoke no more than 20 chinese words..my primary school friends are that english!!
Oh, did i already mentioned I had great fun?? Haha...Yay yay yay to KCPPS!!! =)

Feng came at 6+ to pick me up so we could go Clark Quay for the NUS bash @ MOS!
This is the starting of a series of unfortunate events.
We reached Clark Quay on time, 730pm sharp. The boys will be late, the girls will be late...blah blah blah...We decided to take a romantic stroll along the river but it started raining so we ran across the road to seek shelter in Merchant Court lobby. We waited for 45 mins. And the bloody lobby got no air-con!! Ok, never mind, the boys reached and we went dinner and walked back to MOS. Entered real quick cos we had tickets. And then waited at the main arena again (for dunno what, but for another 30 mins). After the bikini shows blah blah blah, we explored the club abit. Waited outside the toilet for 15 mins. After, we went in 54 and waited for another 15 mins. Got a table and started to think that its something to rejoice then this kuku old man chased us away! Shit you!! Then we went to the bar, everyone was drinking and we waited for another 30 mins.
Ok, everyone is high and ready to dance. We went to Smoove and waited for 30 mins to get in. Squeezed all the way in only to get more squeezy. Never mind...
REJOICE cos we can dance now.
Then suddenly, Feng got angry and walked away. Now I have to squeeze all the way out to look for him.
Know why he got pissed off with me?
Because I followed Darren ahead and never pulled him along!!!
*&^%#
I really dun think I did anything wrong so I flew into a rage. Then this KPO girl kept staring at us. I got so fed-up and shouted at her "See what see?" She prolly got scared and looked away. But I think she was still rather curious, cos I could see her still looking at us, but discreetly. I glared at her with this super "I will slap you anytime now" kinda look. I guess she got soo freaked out... she walked away!!
Yay!!
I tell you, sometimes small eyes can do wonders at glaring. I should really consider if I should get rid of them. =)

Anyway, we cleared the air rather quick. And we left the place early cos I was in no mood to party anymore. Well, but its a blessing in disguise. I did not spend a single cent on drinks!! I have foresight, you see.
1) The kick of alcohol will fade away with all the waiting.
2) If I drank, it would definitely be my fault I left him alone. And under the effect of alcohol, I would prolly just apologise (for something that I did not do wrong).

Well, its not so bad afterall. =)
Oh, and sorry if I ignored you or stared at you or yelled at you. I was in the mood of getting angry. =P

|1:36 PM|

Friday, January 20, 2006

Wardrobe Crisis
Help me!!
I have fallen into the horrible mid-20s wardrobe crisis.

Clothes at Bugis and Far East now seems kiddish and too "over" for me. Clothes at Metro or Seiyu tends to be too old. Clothes at E-base are too complicated to be understood, much less worn. Clothes at M)phosis are all black (and expensive) and I keep thinking that "If tomorrow sale how??"
So yes, my latest victory are 2 plain tank tops from Topshop. And I tell you, they are same pattern, just different colour!! =)

I am not poor you see. I am very glad to fork out $100 to get 2 tops, one skirt and a pair of nice shoes anytime. But I just can't seem to find anything to allow me to throw my money *blehz* And also, if you know me well enough, I am those kind that save money on little things and get brainless when it comes to Gucci and stuff. God save me. Let me brave thru this crisis with courage (and maybe a few pieces of nice tops).

Also hor, if nothing goes wrong, I will put on braces and look ugly for the next 18 months (starting March). Kokguan (thanks bro!!) found me this nice Dr Leong from JB that cause only RM3600++ (S$1600++) and I am soo tempted la!! So yes, my da-ling vampie is now writing down a list of foods to be eaten before Project Braces!! Top on my list is STEAK!!!
Wish me luck eh! Oh yes, if any of you interested, let me know k. At least I have someone for the journey and some weekend shopping at city square!! Yay yay!!!

On a totally irrelevant note, Do you know that our Mr President earns S$2,507,200 per year? (quote from mr brown on today newspaper) Thats like
$208,933.33 per month,
$6869.04 per day,
$286.21 per hour,
$4.77 per minute ok -
Calculated assuming he works every minute of the day, everyday!!!
So if you have friends or aunties working at Mac'donalds,
1 minute President pay = 1 hr Mac aunty pay?? (corrected thanks to fio...and aloy)

Wah!?! Thats some kind of attainment I would never be able to achieve. Its just like striking first prize toto every 3 months! Haha...shiok rite?

Anyway, these days, Audrey has been a good girl. I went for tuition last wednesday (after skipping 4 lessons) and went for all my classes (except one lecture and one tut) and I reckon thats really a good improvement.
Keep it up,Audrey!! (pats shoulder)

PS: I haven done anything sporty eversince the 12th. =(

|12:14 PM|

Friday, January 13, 2006

Let me tell you GROSS!!


Something to gross you out this weekend.
I'm telling you..

Taiwan sausages look like used tampons...

Do you agree??

**nods**

|6:18 PM|

Thursday, January 12, 2006

The Brand New SPORTY Audrey
By this Sunday, I promise to get a pair of running shoes.

I PROMISE!!!

Its either the pair of Nike at Bukit Panjang Plaza or Asics at the warehouse with Vernon!!

I PROMISE!!

And then let me, Shimeimei, present to you the brand new SPORTY Audrey.

Catch her at the gym, the jogging track, playing badminton, or netball!! (other than the ugly posters all around school and prolly ngee ann)

Haha..Let lao niang show you my li hai!! Haha...

PS: If you had seen me all around NTU, please pretend you dunno me..The photoshoot was a big mistake..Nonetheless, its a great experience..And my money is not in yet..Hope it comes soon!!

|8:54 PM|

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Happy New Year
I am not too late rite..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

I did not come up with any new year resolutions, yet. And I think I won't.
But it will be a good year..

School is starting soon (for many others it has alread started, I gave myself 1 more week of holidays), and I will work hard this sem. I promise...

Oh, yes...New Year's Eve at ONE was damn fun..

Cheers..

|4:13 PM|

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

New Year's Eve..
I am having a family BBQ at home on New Year's Eve..
That afternoon, I will draw up my 21 New year resolutions.

After,

LETS GO CLUBBING, SHALL WE???

Zouk?? Since MoS will be crowded??
I dun mind DblO or Chinablack cos it has been all time fave for me...
MOMO is fine too!!

Yay!!!!!

|1:32 PM|

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Reflections on Xmas Eve
Its 4.36pm, 24th Dec 2005.
I am still stucked at home with no dates.
Ok, I got a few dates lah. But I haven decided on which to go yet. I ain't that loserish ok!! =)
Its raining cats and dogs in Woodlands. I got bored and decided to give myself a nice Xmas present. I treated myself to a nice body scrub, face scrub, and hair mask. Spent an hour in the crampy bathroom!!
I feel better spiritually now, compared to an hour ago!!
Yay!!!!

Yesterday, I dug out my autograph book from secondary school days to look up a special fren's address, cos I wanted to send her a Xmas card thru snail mail. And then, since I was sooo sooo free, i read thru each and every entry.

I shall blog all the comments and adjectives used to describe me. And show you that Audrey really haven changed in 5 yrs!! You wouldn't need much imagination really, cos its just like the Audrey now..

"As a jedi and as your friend, a person with trust and courage i see.."
Pan Zheng Xiang

"Frank, friendly, easy-going, sometimes unreasonable.."
"Something in my heart tells me we are going to be best frens in the future.."
Shufen

"Your intelligence attracted many attention, esp. amongst the boys.."
Sam Tay

"Clever, determined, stubborn, quite unreasonable, playful.."
Gary

"Stubborn but caring, understanding, great person to chat with.."
Tiong

"Always say you pretty. Don't be like that lah.."
Zhenming

"Smarty is the best word to describe you.."
Weijian

"Emotional, sometimes hot sometimes cold. I find you quite attractive (REALLY).."
Teewei

"You taught me alot of things, good & bad ones..You will always be a good friend of mine.."
Cindy Ng

"You look like Ah-ya.."
Hong Sing

"You are a confident gal, and sometimes you like to bully ppl. Haha.."
Charlene

"You are soo chio I cnnt close my eyes. Wah lao, your figure is so chio my mouth is filled with saliva everytime you walk pass me.."
Guorong

"You are a nice and funny girl.."
Benny

"You are hard to understand and quite unpredictable.."
Xiaoli

"Independent, cheerful, unreasonable & sometimes have mood swings.."
Liyin

"Very informative. Know everything on Earth. Maybe thats y ppl like to chat with you.."
Caitou

"You are a rare species..Bcos you are soo clever.."
Kelvin Heng

"Rather interesting..really intelligent.."
Wan Ting

"Indeed a fren worth having..A nice ultraman to my worthy fren (stuck a glow in dark sticker)"
Weiming

"We were darlings but you ditched me 2 days ago, make me cnnt sleep, eat, work, shit.."
"I feel that you are a good fren to have around, although all you do is complain and grumble.."
Liu Weili

"Gan Qing Fan Lan, Happy also cry, Sad also cry (in chinese)"
KaLeung

"My first impression of you is you very 38. Very friendly, sometimes too friendly..Mood swings"
Meijiao aka 38

"Funny and playful. Always keep our spirits up and make us laugh like siao cha bou.."
"Thru you, I learn that friendship cannot be selfish.."
Xiuqing

"You were the first gal in 1/9 who took the initiative to go around talking to everyone.."
Yonghao

I almost cried after reading Shufen's entry. And I laughed like mad in most entries. So Audrey 5 years ago was such a bitch already. Bimbo is never the word to describe me cos I am smart and do not have big boobs. Although Guorong loved my figure sooo much..Whaha..

I miss Deyi and everyone at Deyi sooooo much..
Ok, its 5.23pm now. I am still blogging..
Lets hope Darren and gang will miss me and Meihua!! Heehee..

PS: Junfeng always say I am crude in my words. Like I say words that I could have skipped. I hope that you guys ain't too offended by the words I say, because I speak from the bottom of my heart. If its ugly, I tell you its ugly. I wun smile thru my teeth and say its nice. (For eg the earrings Alex bought from Taiwan). If you not happy and cnnt take it, tell me in my face. I wun speak like that in front of you since I know you can't accept the truth. (I am not talking abt Alex btw..) Besides, I dun always criticise, I would always try to come up with solutions when I can, if you are even bothered to hear at least...

I am straightforward and not tactless. Saying sweet things to please everyone else wun be my new year's resolution. Audrey dun lie, not for nothing. Not even a white lie. I rather save my karma for more impt things..

|4:36 PM|

Friday, December 23, 2005

My Birthday Dinner @ Pariss

International feast: Pepper crabs, sashimi, baked norway fishies, BBQ squid & lobster salad

Lamb chops and fried codfish

Peking Duck

18 cm long Canadian Air-flown oysters

My first attempt!!!! hee

My share did not end up in my stomach..I puked it all out...

Sorry, but it was really too disgusting...

Other food that was in my stomach & later out of my asshole in a 18cm long poo, but not in the photo includes;

Seriously, the food is so-so only lah.
The seafood is pretty fresh.but tasteless..
The (some) service staff are friendly.
Lots of Chee-na patrons lo...!! I dun like..

I would go for No Signboard crabs and cereal prawns anytime.

But, I did enjoy my vampire's company.
He's getting sweeter by the day (only sometimes when he is PMS-ing, I need to show him my true colours, then he gets sweet and cute again.)

Date me for my debut RA show please!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dress code: Ponchos, umbrella and condoms!!

Yay!!!!!!

|5:17 PM|

Monday, December 19, 2005

The Pink Party
17th Dec 2005

My Pink Party

Vital Stats: Pink undies, pink top, pink skirt, pink earrings, pink handphone, pink wings, pink wand!!! yay!!


Before you proceed, beware.

This entry is all about Me.

Me.

&

the beautiful lovely pinky Me. =)

Me and aunties and cousins

Me and Deyi mates

Me and Poly mates

Me and NUS colleagues

Me and NTU friends

Dear all,

Thanks for making the party a jolly, happy one. Many thanks for those who turned up in PINK!! And thanks to MH, BL, SL, Shawn, Sam, Darren, Aloy, Alex, Aaron & WEnfeng for the wings and wand!! I lurve it!!! Its pink and glittery..my faves!! Yay!!

Thanks for all your pressies..Now, I got lots of jewellery, watches (I got 3!!!), perfume, money (whahah--another fave), Famous Amos cookie (yummy)!!!

Many thanks to my dearest darling Junfeng who helped run errands and do-this-do-that, Vernon who helped taking pics, and of course, Teewei - the other birthday boy. I hope he is not too upset that Meihua's and Baolian's voice is sooo loud that only can hear my name during birthday song. But who ask the Deyi ppl and his Poly frens dun want sing louder. Cheers to you gals...!! hahha...can hear ya voice so distinctly in the video lo..send to you soon!! haha

I think pyjamas party sounds good!! But I am serious, I ain't gonna organise anything like tt anymore. Its tiring. I think its more fun fantasizing about it!! Haha...

I love you all...

Audrey

(10 more hours to the legal age for Ra shows and casinos!!!)

|1:25 PM|

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Directions to the chalet
In case you dunno how to go. Here are the directions..

Venue: Netheravon Bungalow F
Strictly speaking, it is not called Changi Aloha, although it is part of Aloha. It is actually opposite Changi Aloha. So well, if I ain't confusing you, the bungalow is part of Aloha, but not exactly in Aloha. ok??

By Car
Take SLE/TPE (from North), take AYE/ECP or PIE to TPE/SLE (from West) and exit to Loyang Ave (towards Changi Village). *Go along Loyang Ave (it's quite a long and windy route) and turn left into Cranwell Road. Then turn right into Netheravon Road.

By Train
Take the east bound train to Tampines MRT station. From there, you can take Bus 29. The bus should pass Changi Prison after 25 mins. Then it will drive into a long quiet road, you should be alert now and look out for the bungalow on ya right!! You will alight at the bus-stop opposite the bungalow!!

Recently I get very sianz when people tell me my chalet very far. I apologise ok? I could not find any civil servant to help me book Pasir Ris Aloha or any better Changi bungalows earlier ok? And yes, if you are fast enough enough, yes, the pre-war kinda bungalow is very ulu-looking. BUT i think since you are not there to stay for the next 10 years, you dun really wanna harm ya karma and complaining and cursing it that much (especially not on my birthday) rite?

Dear friends,

I shall see ya there on Friday or Saturday (food is served) in PINK preferably. Please come if you really wish, otherwise, its really ok on my side. Cos I understand its at the fucking end of stooopid Singapore and some of you really wouldn't come all the way down to just eat some stoopid dinner and sing a stoopid birthday song.

I was very more excited when I first planned it.

Anyhow, I would really love to see you there.

Cheers =)

|1:48 PM|

Sunday, December 11, 2005

The food in Woodlands sucks...
I realise something..

If you are outta job and think that you can become a hawker to earn a living, but you cant't cook for peanuts, make ya way to Woodlands or Bukit Panjang. You definitely won't starve to death!! Food around this 2 area simply CANNOT MAKE IT!! Take Plaza 888 (coffesshop 100m from my house) for example. Food there sucks big time, anytime, all the time. Everytime when we don't have meals at home, I get very upset cos I have to start brooding abt what to eat. Bcos everything is soo not nice lah!!

Dinner today - seafood soup @ S$3.8o.
Includes, 2 tiny crabsticks (3cm long), one tofu cube (2.5 x 2.5 x 2.5cm), one fish slice (approx. 3 by 4cm), two prawns (one totally inedible cos it looked rotten) and one sotong slice (abit bigger than the fish).

Actually, there is a nice stall here. Cute Chicken (Ke Ai Ji). My favorite dish being 2pc chicken wing rice @S$2.50. But this champion stall (at 888 plaza only) also have its bad day. The worst being once when the rice served was half-cooked, chicken wings burnt on the outside but bloody on the inside, and it was soo god-damned piping hot, that it burnt 2 holes in the styrofoam box. Extra carcinogenic ingredients for crowning it champ!! **yayz**

Ok, enuff of rantings!! I just felt upset about lousy food..let me know if there is indeed good food in Woodlands ok...

And it is in times like this that I miss AMK hawkers sooo badly..AMK rocks!!

|7:25 PM|

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Sleeepless..
I can't sleep.

I thought about why so, and then I realised it must be the tea I had @ Ya Kun. SHITE. So, since I can't sleep, I got a wee bit kaypoh and blog-hopped abit. After reading strangers' and ppl-whom-i-dun-likes' blogs, I'm having mixed emotions now. A feeling too complex to be written or comprehended. so nvm lah..

My birthday party is coming soon. and I am all excited. I can't wait to blow the candles and cut the cake, to get my presents, to get countless of hugs and kisses and "happy birthdays"..Somehow something is still missing. I hope my 21st year is a good year for me. The past years had been a nightmare that I sometime wish that I can jolt back to my senses in my AMK house and realise I am still 16.

My savings is running dry. My wishlist is piling high. I can't find a holiday job. I wish I can stop giving tuition. I wanna do so many things. I want to straighten my teeth to be the prettiest bride on the entire Earth, I need to pay for driving lessons cos I am going to drive a BRIGHT PINK AUDI CONVERTIBLE @ 25, ok maybe 30 @ this stoopid turtle rate I am going, I want to buy the Gucci bags that i damn like and MH hates, I want to stop hating everybody, I still want to eat at Lawry's cos i wanted to eat there since donkey years ago, I want go Japan, Hongkong and UK, I want to go back to Scotland just to give Frank a hug and eat scones with strawberry jam, I want to spend 10 hours in Harrods grabbing Tiffany, Burberrys, Vuitton, Gucci, not forgetting Harrods bears and walking out of the door with my spanking new Burberry's trenchcoat and knee-high boots, I want to buy that pink Tag Heuer watch cos i like alot alot, I want to buy that diamond pendant cos i like glittery sparkling stuff, I want to go sun-tanning and jogging cos I am fat and semi-brown-semi-beige in the wrong places, I want to go for facials and a hair job cos my face is blemished and my hair is ugly, I want to go watch movies, I want some entertainment - shopping, eating good food, clubbing, shopping, buying things, I want some shopping kakis, mahjong kakis, kopi kakis, clubbing kakis, tanning kakis...

Please grant me all my I-wants this Xmas...I've been a good gal this year and I promise to be better next year.

No, I am not in depression again.
Yesh, I am fine.. Still gorgeous and beautiful, not to forget, damn-smart(I passed my advance theory 1st attempt ok). *smirks*
Just a little not-so-contented-with-what-I-have.

Oh, you know, I feel a bit short-changed. I bought him a phone for his birthday in March ($400) then now, I wun get my present back. Very lugee rite?? Well, thats a lesson learnt for investment mistakes. Anyway, Junfeng's present will make everything ok!! rite anot darling??*fingers crossed*

|3:30 AM|

Sunday, December 04, 2005

I think, I think too much...
Everytime I pray or wish,
I wish for one thing..
To be happy, happier...

Smiling has become a muscle reflex action..
I wonder if I laugh out of sheer entertaining, or to drown my innermost pain,
People whom I always regarded as friends seems to be drifting away..
Others wear a mask and lie through their teeth, for whatever fucking motive I do not know,
I sometimes think that its my fault..
Or yah, I think I think too much..


I am starting to curl myself up and protect myself like a porcupine..
Spilling out words that hurt people around me..
I am really really sorry...
And no, I do not like being one...


I have been so uptight that I dun even think I had the time to sit down and think what I really want in life, for myself, and for the people around me..

I feel I am losing myself..
I wanna be the happy, carefree girl I used to be..
I need someone to guide me along..

On my birthday this year,
When I make my wish..
I will silently pray, "I wanna be happier.."

|2:18 PM|

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Memories of Phuket
Finally found the "platform" for transferring pics into my comp..
Its a photo-log.. Enjoy...

PhiPhi (pronounced pee-pee) Island

The following picture needs parental guidance. After careful considerations, to teach my Junfeng a lesson, I decided to blog it!! The story goes like this...

On the last night in Phuket, while we were waiting for my favorite fried sting ray, we saw this Aussie who was wearing this pink bikini (stuffed with tissue) and a super low denim skirt. He squeezed his breasts in front of us and since I thought it was uber farni, so I laughed and say "So cute.."

Haha..then this fella got upset and said, "Very cute meh?? I also cute wat.."

So I said, "you wear lo.."

He said "Ok..."

=)

Its ok, I still love you Darling... =)

|11:43 AM|

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Wishlist
Things on wishlists are meant to be wished, not fulfilled.
So there goes..

Tiffany Elsa Peretti Sevillana S$15,000

Louis Vuitton Musette Tango S$1150

|3:52 PM|

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

10 Reasons why Phuket Sucks..
I dislike my Phuket trip..
Let me tell you why..

Reason No 1: Bangkok men are much more handsome compared to Phuket's

Reason No 2: The hotel staff was unfriendly because we had no small change to give as tips. The bed was sandy. And the TV was just too far away from the bed. Breakfast was shit la!! Yucks..

Reason No 3: Out of 10 restuarants, 4 are pubs, 3 sells pasta and pizza, 2 sells american burgers, 0.5 sells coffe, and o.5 sells Thai food, not to mention, lousy, non-authentic thai food

Reason No 4: Because of Reason No 2, I was upset and hungry most of the time..

Reason No 5: Unless you sport brown/blonde hair, hairy chest and legs, blue eyes and look like a robert cai-tou, you are invisible. They think all Asians are as poor as them, so they dun sell things to you!!

Reason No 6: Nevermind if they dun give a heck about me. I still want to shop. But fuckit, there was nothing to buy. I came back with only a pink skirt and a pink bikini that was too small for my butt!! Damn..
Oh, maybe i damn suay lah, there is a huge shopping centre (not open yet) that sells mango, guess, blah blah blah..think i may be happier shopping if it was already open.

Reason No 7: There were loads of massage shops. And I totally hate choosing. And when I finally chose one (although she gave me discount), the massage sucks lah..I was aching all over the other day..

Reason No 8: I was seasick cos the water was soo choppy. and after being seasick for an hour, I only snorkelled for less that half an hour.. Damn sianz..

Reason No 9: It was soo wet the last day, my feet was dirty and soaked with mud because the bloody thai roads are soo uneven, and I couldn't do pedicure that was 150THB...sucks..
Oh yah, dun get bluffed by all those "Phuket is back" shit, that place is still pretty off..No shopping centres..and ppl actually make money by selling you tsunami DVDs..I totally hated that idea..

Reason No 10: I totally, thoroughly, fucking cannot stand farangs with thai gals, who aint't even pretty to start with..I can understand that those gals are poor and need money, but I cannot stand the thought of sleeping around with hairy beasts with huge dicks (maybe). You need to work ya ass off like other fellow Thai gals be it in pizza places or at hotel front desks.
I despise you..but I really can't do anything rite..so nvm...

There are of course fun parts too..

I watched Erin Brockovich, The Fan and many lame shows while we were rotting in the rooms.

I came back victorious with a pink necklace, pink skirt and pink bikini (at least something la)

I ate loads of huge giant prawns, fried stingray and had beer while watching TV..

Snorkelling was preety fun, pink fishies were the cutest!!

I got to know some nice ppl there..Ester (fr. USA) even invited us to her Sheraton Golf Villa, which made me sooo sooo jealous lah...Scott (from Brisbane) who happens to be cute and quite hot (u gotta grab him pheona!!!), Diana and Will who are equally nice ppl was on the snorkelling trip with us..

Disclaimer: I have no dislikes (prior to this trip) for Thailand. I have always been proud of Thailand as it lived up to its Land of Smiles tag all the times I visited Thailand, although everytime I met something unpleasant there. But.. Phuket totally killed Thailand, in my impression at least. So, if you ever ask me, I would say, "Think twice b4 you spent ya money there yah.." =)

|1:54 PM|

Friday, November 18, 2005

Harry Potter_-_Goblet of Fire
Harry Potter was FANTABULOUSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

Harry Potter looked as goofy as ever,
Spoke with such sexy english accent..

Ron with his silly red hair was funny as usual,
Now, as a teenager, starts cursing and swearing,
But forgivable as he said "bloody hell" in such a sexy english tongue.

Hermione was gorgeous in her periwinkle dress...
Breast abit small, but considering her age...
I'm envious...

Simply love the way they say "Potter" (Pot-turl)
Isn't it just sexy...

Dun like the chinese-HK gal Ah Chou,
Even though I must admit she looked wonderful during the Xmas dance party.

Dun like the two Indian parrots who go around saying "Hi Harry" ..

Dun like Krum, cos he doesnt look shuai..

Dun like the Beauxbaton girls and their "Ahhh...." butterflies fly!!! "Ahhh...." more butterflies fly also...very AAA lo....yucks...

But,

I love MAGIC.
I love unicorns.

Oh and of course,
I love my horny vampire.

I know wat you are thinking!!!
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yah la yah la..abit out of point...
But chin cai laaaa =)

|1:36 PM|

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Blink of an eye
It's over, well, almost..

4 over, one more to go on monday..

And then I will be in Phuket for the rest of the week..

Yup, the SUN, SAND, SEA and MEEEEEEEE!!!!

Envy dao wan yeah?? Haha...

Anyway, to sum in up, cos i got no time on monday, cos i need to go home and take passport and pack and be at the airport at 6+ in the morning...

I wanna declare that:

I am the Queen of Procastination, A BIG FAT PROCASTINATING BITCH.

Ok, everyone procastinates...So whats the big deal rite??



Yah, that made me feel a little better...

Maybe I should still keep that as a 2006 new year resolution,
And just like many many others,
IT will NEVER come true...

Oh oh oh oh ....

After looking at Dawn Yang, I think I should go for plastic too..
I do not need a nosejob, my nose is pretty..
I do not need a change of jawline..Its defined enuff yeah..
EYESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS??

Yummy!! =)

PS: If anyone knows who was her plastic surgeon..can tell me please??

|5:08 PM|

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Life is perfect...
Fiona and I agreed that life would be PUURFECT if everyday is as follows..

• Wild sex
• Hot shower
• Pizza with a cry-cry-cry movie on a comfy couch with bf
• A cute pizza boy would make it damn good
• Meetup with galfrens at coffee club
• Calamari, mudpies, many forks to share the sinful indulgences
• Bitching, gossiping, just chilling...
• Shopping and actually buying stuff without guilt
• Chinablack, good music
• Many vodka oranges
• Cute guys dancing around you
• Sleeping in late the next day.....

We ended this whole conversation with..

If only life is like tt lah!!!

|10:37 AM|

Hall 6 Blk 33 Level 4 Room 635

For the curiousity (ok, in case you care) of friends who haven seen my room in Hall 6.
Here's it...

A wardrobe of beautiful clothes, greenery view, pink bedsheets, study table for endless mugging...

Cheerios..
Blogging early in the morning..if only there is a cup of hot tea... =S

|8:16 AM|

Sunday, November 06, 2005

My little dreams...
When I was younger..
My only dream was to build a happy family..
A home where my beautiful daughter would yearn to come home to..
Where my husband loved me..
Bcos my family was nothing like that..
And Home was just a House..

As I grew a little older and was in KCPPS..
I decided it would be cool to be a teacher..
Bcos of many many school holidays..
And I could smack cheeky students on their knuckles..
But mostly bcos of the few nice teachers who left deep footprintz in my life..

When I went to secondary school,
I decided that the fastest way to get rich is to get married..
Preferably to a old man who is going to die..
And most of all.. FRIGGING RICH!!
I planned to feed him with super "nourishing" supplements and hope he die early,
Leaving ALL his money to me..

Ok, i guess being a mistress is pretty slutty and cheap..
So I came to more concrete plans..
Like opening a boutique..
Shufen was my first partner in mind..
That time, we were very really hippies and often went to coffeebean at J8,
As we studied, and bitched, and gossiped,
We always talked abt "our shop"..
I kinda insisted we named the shop "BARBARA"
Cos thats Shufen's english name..
Well, at least I insisted it was..though she was nv too happy abt it!!
OoO..btw, thats also e place we first saw Xie Ting Feng and then both fell madly in love with him..for awhile at least..

When I came to poly,
That dream still lingered..
But on the very few occasions that I met her,
I most vividly remember once,
When I brought up "Lets open a shop in Far east.."
She replied, "Don't be stupid, everyone says the same thing..It will never be possible.."
I was crushed..
But deep inside I knew she was right..
The dream was far-fetched..at least then...
And it was also the first indication that we have grew up, out of our dreams, and drifting away from each other's circle...

Well well... *sighs*

My latest dream is to own a UOB ladies card..
A platinum one if I marry a rich husband..
But that black plastic card with a red rose would actually suffice for the time-being..
Bcos of that, here I am..mugging for my BsC..

Well, anyway..
Be happy for me now ok..

First, I know I will be happily married with beautiful kids and a wonderful husband, yearly family holidays and a beautiful house as my HOME, have a dog named Yogurt..
So, whoever you are, YOU are a god-damned lucky man to marry me ok..??
Cos although I hate doing housework..I AM A WONDERFUL WIFE IN THE MAKING!!!!
And a goddess in bed **ahem* whahah
So if you are rich, I will bear you at least 6 kids, with no worries of lousy figures..
Cos I can go Expression or Marie France with your money =)

Second, I will work hard and save up and open my shop..
Still name it Babara..Paint the walls pink..
And give 50% discounts to schoolgals I like..

Wish me luck.. =)

|1:37 AM|

Sunday, October 30, 2005

我真的累了。。。
I cried really hard last night...
I had been trying to squeeze out all negative thoughts these days..
But yesterday, I felt really vulnerable and started crying..
Over the phone with Feng, I just broke down..
I feel stupid..lagging...thick in the head..
I wondered how I aced through my poly days..

I thought of how happy I would be if I am still working..
I can buy a car..support it with my tuition allowances..
Put on braces..and then go clubbing every weekend..
Meet up with Xiu over the weekends to go shopping or batam for a massage..
Hang out with my colleagues and drink till high on a FRiday nite..
Plan a holiday every 3 months or soo..

I have no more strength..
I feel stupid most of the time..
And I tell you..
This is FUCKING UNHEALTHY!!!
I am giving up..
I tell myself this is my last shot..
If I am kicked out of this whole scholarship glamour..
I WILL QUIT SCHOOL...
Get a tattoo, put on braces, go on a snorkelling trip, get a job, buy a branded bag, go clubbing every weekend, take up spanish classes, give tuition, learn driving, and buy a car..
Save enough money open my dream shop..
I can well afford all this when I am happier..
I dun need to be fucking rich..
When a man loves you..he will give you everything he has..
And for that, I will be happy with whatever little money we have..
Cos I will be happy at least..Spending happily...

Yes I know,
I see this big L on my forehead..
I feel like a loser too..giving up halfway..
But please forgive me..
Mock at me behind my back..
I can't really bother anymore..
I am really feeling terrible..
I really dunno what to do or expect..

|1:13 PM|

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

.................
201 - Circulation, reproduction, estrogen, pregnancy, sensory, ATP, K+, Ca+, VGCC
202 - E.Coli, Gram negative, Malaria, TB, Therapeutic index
203 - Cell junctions, Notch, Apoptosis, Caspases, FRADD
204 - Immunohistochemistry, Cell cultures, PCR, Digestion
205 - T-tests, chi square, parametric, variables, ANOVA

FUCK EXAMS!!!
Bsc in Science..u better be worth my fucking time..

Ooo.. i did get tipsy on Saturday night. 1 vodka orange, some graveyard (yucks), 2 sips of beer and 2 frigging waterfall. Shaked my boogie happily with the top 40s that DJ @ Momo spun. Got a gorgeous top. NO GUCCI bag yet though...No Fish and Co. But nice home-cooked food and FRESH MEIJI MILK.

Sometimes, smaller things in life make you happy too.. =)

|12:12 AM|

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Life is short...
Solemn faces..
Teary eyes..
Hugs and words of comfort exchanged..

I was at a funeral again..
This time at my doorstep..
A distant relative of mine died..
40 year old man..
Drowned in biathalon..
Left behind a cancer-stricken wife..
And 2 children..7 & 10..
And parents 70 and above..

I've been to 2 funerals in this month..
I hope there is no more...

Life is short...
I pray for the safety of each and everyone of you...

|10:26 PM|

Saturday, October 22, 2005

As Bitter as Wormwood...
I am feeling bitter again..
Sleeping too much..
TRying desperately to study but always in vain..
I hold grudges of some of my dearest friends..
Vent my anger on Handsome..
And cried myself to sleep that night..
Not because of the fact we argued..
But because I feel stupid..
I am losing faith..
The confidence that I always had has drained away..
Too fast that I feel I am losing myself..

I am losing hope..
Friends keep telling me that "Gal, you can do it!"
Thanks for the motivation..
But I fear I can't live up to expections..
Of my frens, my family and utimately..of myself..
I feel everything is wrong..
I am at pit bottom again..

I wanna go shopping, go clubbing, get wasted..
Buy a gorgeous shirt, get a branded bag..
Down some 6 apple cidal..3 tequila pops..10 vodka orange..1 beer..
Eat good food like that Japanese BBQ at Riverside Quay,
or Fish and Co that I had been lusting for..
Sleep in on a weekend afternoon..watch TV..and rot..

BUT I CANt'T..
I haven done anything like that eversince I started school..
Eversince I am a NANYANG SCHOLAR..
I wake up to study..
Study until I sleep..
Eat cup noodles for dinner..
Treat myself with some Apollo bread and sweets and choc milk..
Thinking that they may make me happier..

Well, ironically..
Its gonna end soon..
You aint gonna be a scholar anymore..
Cos you are shitty in ya results..
And you are of no use to NTU at all....

I miss my lil office is NUS..
I need a hug..
I want to cry..

|11:44 AM|

Friday, October 21, 2005

Goodbye Audrey..
Recently I learned about the death of an acquaintance..
Acquaintance meaning I never had her hp no..
Never had her MSN..
Never really hang out with her..

I think I met her 4 times
First time @ Rav
Second @ Chinablack
Third @ Zouk
Fourth and last time @ Chinablack..

The fact that I am blogging abt her and her passing on..
Is bcos..I always think of her..
Always..Very often..
Eversince I knew of her death..
I was extremely shocked when I first knew abt it..
Deeply saddenly again when Darren told me the whole story..
She died in a car crash...

It is a pity..
She was a beautiful girl..
Long wavy hair, pretty eyes and a big smile..
And she was the first girl named AUDREY whom I actually liked..
I had always been turned off by gals named Audrey (other than myself of cos)
Bcos Audrey is a beautiful name, meant for beautiful people...
And all, except her, was not worthy of thy name..

I am sad and very sorry she left..
Meaning I will never ever see her again..
She seems a good girl..
A nice girlfriend..
Someone whom you wanna go shopping with..go clubbing with..and bitch with at cafes for hours and hours..

Its really an irony that I miss her quite so much..
Its maybe a pity I never got to know her better..
Whatever it is..
Goodbye Audrey..
I will remember you for a long, long time..

|1:21 PM|

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Alex's Birthday...
I get upset bcos we seldom meet-up.. So I myself appreciate the times we are together.. Therefore I hope you too do share the same feelings...

The Girlz

Food, food, glorious food... @Crystal Jade

I was the model for Crystal Jade that nite..

Look at my big mouth...Yummy!!!

Meihua joins in the fun.. =)

Posing for more pics...

Now..after the birthday song shouting (haha..we never change)

Alex WISHES...BLOWS...AND CUTS...

Presents...I love presents!!!

Adidas Polo, Sexy Black Boxers, Esprit Shirt, Lemon Yellow Long sleeve shirt...

Too many presents...Alex scratches head...

The wedding dinner picture!!

!!!!!!Yum seng!!!!!!

Fiona and Samuel missing...

Off to C.a.n. Cafe...

Darren did not leave us..thumbs up..

Our friendship is again strengthened by ya anti-chee hong-ness

Let's celebrate with a mass oil blotting session!!

Eeeks..soo oily!! =(

Drink!! Drink !!

Dun I look naked..?? Whaha =P

Siewling and Wenfeng abt to perform a spectacular french-kissing demo...

Step 1: Paiseh....

Paparazzi on the mark...

Finally...the TONGUEY moment..

But i nv see the tongue =(

Suddenly...7 people scurried away from Can cafe..

"Faster leave..." says Baolian...

Cos the boss only charged us for two buckets of beer!!

Damn cheapo rite.... Whahaha...

Happy Birthday Lad..

Like I say...

F R I E N D S 4 E V E R!!!

|1:05 AM|

Thursday, October 13, 2005

2345hrs Friday 13 Oct 1999
That night..
I started my journey of happiness..
Only to crush it with my own hands 2 yrs later..

Today..6 yrs later..
I have made a resolution..
I will move on..
My prince has come..
And he is bringing me..
To another chapter of my life..

That chapter is past tense..
I will look forward to the new one..
Moving on is sad..
Letting go of regrets is sad..
But to live my whole life in despair and regrets is a far worse fate..

You left many memories in my heart..
The most beautiful ones thus far..
You have found a new love..
So have I..
Lets move on with our lives..

If you ever read this..
I wanna let you know..
I was sorry that I left you..
And I hated you for forgetting me that soon too..
It is this love and hatred that kept me going for another 3 yrs..

Today..
I have forgiven you..and myself..
So I can move on..
With a man who loves me more than you do..

|11:47 PM|

To Shawn....
Congrats on passing ya driving..
I couldnt say it on ya "SQUEALS"
It just refused me...
=(
Anyway..yah..the message is "congrats!!"

I also wanna go clubbing
Zouk..20 OCt..someone jio me la..
If i say no..then ask again..nicely...
Then I will go!!!

Love ya all lots..

|2:01 PM|

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

I found my prince..
Its 12 Oct..
A special day for me and Junfeng =)

Yesterday I told him something that I nv thought I would ever confess,
That he sets me free from my past regrets..
My memories of my ex-ex-boyfren..
Which had been huanting me everyday for the past 3 yrs..

Frens who know me would know I am still in love with him..
The reason why I dun have a friendster is bcos of him..
I used to kill myself bcos of him..
And I teared in buses thinking its all my fault he left me...

Junfeng was all cool about it,
Although I know deep in his heart he must be disappointed..
That I still think..
I would be disappointed too...
And my reaction would be definitely terribly nasty..
Therefore, I felt more in love when I realised that he was willing to help me erase my past..

I reassured him that the memories had taken its toll and I am no longer sadden by it..
Memories are just memories..
And I have moved on with my life..
To a new chapter where Junfeng plays the lead character..
And I am a princess..
I am happy...

Hall life has been fun thus far..
My rate of knowing fren is climbing like money-losing stocks..
My rate of studying has improved quite a bit anyway..
I have decided to stay in hall for good..
Although I am saddened I cant see my aunty and cousins much..
My aunty would call every other day and ask me to go home for dinner..
I am very happy that she really bothers to..
She has thus taken the role of the 2nd most important woman in my life,
Sometimes, I feel sad that I dun get to see my cousins much,
Dun get to chit chat with them over dinner..

Junfeng always reassured me that things will get better after my exams..
That I can bring them out after my exams..
And I am happy for his moral support...

Its the curse of a woman..
The surge of hormones are working and I feel emotional writing this entry..
I am gonna bath..dress up nicely..go for lecture..
Then my ultimate date with prince charming!! =)

|10:39 AM|

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Isn't it suppose to be a happy year?
I tot 2005 would be a happy yr for most of us..
All of us are turning 21..
Meet up on saturdays in parts of Sg where you would nv be otherwise..
Weiming just passed out from OCS..
Shufen, XiuQing and Liyin are happily working..and in love...
I am busy (and happily) studying..
Fiona is happy in Brisbane..
MH is happy, SL is happy, BL is happy..
Alex is happy..Darren is horny(whaha), Aloy is happy, Shawn is happy..
And of cos, JF must be happy too!! =)

But yesterday I got a call..
From someone I haven heard in a while..
Abt a news I wished I nv would hear..
A fren's dad just passed away..
I suddenly felt sorry for him..
Its ironic how I just saw him two days ago..
Happy and jovial as he always is..

Going to the wake brought back painful memories..
Those of my family preparing for my gram's funeral..
You dun grieve..you just dun time time for it..
All you have time is placing peanuts on e table, serving drinks..
Pray and pray and pray some stupid nonsensical stuff!!
Ppl expect you to be very sad...
You just dun have time to be sad..

After I stormed through the heavy rain back to my hall..
I was wet and tired and upset..
And I received another sms..
That a fren's fren had died..
I guess he sent it to the wrong person??
Cos I do not know any Alvin..
But it definitely sent chills down my spine..
Isit a sign??

I hate deaths..
Its the scariest thing that can every happen to anyone..

I know its wierd coming from me, BUT
Treasure ya loved ones yah?? =)

|12:28 PM|

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

I am a SIX-ian
I stay in Hall 6. Blk 33. Level 4. Room 635.

Its dusty..
Pretty quiet..
And very hot!!

I have an interesting roommate..
I was soo relieved that she is clean..and NICE..
The only drawback is that its really warm at night..
And its really really dusty!!

Like usual,
I dun have much friends..
I hope things keep up soon...

I will post pics of my room when I do it up!!
And when I am less sick..

Schoolwork is overwhelming
Partly bcos I keep procastinating!!

I need to do some shit abt that habit of mine..
Before its just too late....

|6:11 PM|

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

MY BIRTHDAY WISHLIST!!!
I know its soo damn early ( its 3 months ahead) but I am sooo
EXCITED!!!!!

I have come up with a wishlist...
BUY IT FOR ME - PleAse!!! PrEtTy pLeAsE!!!!

Haha....
I know I very thick skin...
But its only once in your life you are 21 you know??

I am going to be 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yipppeee!!!!

Ok..hold your breath..
Here goes...
(its cheapest to most expensive)

|3:54 PM|

Saturday, September 17, 2005

BREASTS!!

I guess I am deeply troubled with my Physiology tests..
Therefore I keep posting about body parts here..
Your body (including mine) is amazing..

It can do wonders to other people..
Physically, Emotionally, Psychologically, Sexually...
Many women are unsatistified with their breasts..
Fierce melons or fluffy pillows they call it..
Molehills I call mine..

And many love to make a mountain out of their molehills...
Many girls envy other girls with big boobs..
I always envy girls with big eyes too..
Do other girls envy me??
Maybe, for my big brains??

|2:45 PM|

Monday, September 12, 2005

A dream..
I dreamt of a newborn...

It signifies a new beginning....

|7:14 PM|

Money not enough!!


















Thats my brain scan!!!
Few days ago, I went to be a guinea pig for a IBS research study.
Got electrocuted 21times on my finger!!
Soaked my feet in icy cold water for 30s, 14 cycles!!
THAT was the most painful thing that you could ever imagine.
Lied in a white coffin where MRI was performed.
When I was rised into the big hollow machine,
I felt as if I was send to my own grave.
A WHITE one...
Well, all that for S$200!!
I told myself that i would reward myself with something good with that money...

I am happier when I think of spending the money.
That I earned through blood and sweat!!!

|1:18 PM|

Thursday, September 08, 2005

WE ARE SPECTACULAR!!!!

|8:53 PM|

NP - Nanyang Scholars...

I am tired.....

I miss sooo many ppl....

My paper is finally published...

Shall upload it when I have time...

|8:49 PM|

Friday, September 02, 2005

My student life yet far....
$$ not in yet..
I also dunno why...
Very poor... =(

Should be staying in hostel in Oct..
Kinda looking forward to it..
At least I dun need to travel from Woodlands to Boonlay everyday..
Its damn tiring you know...

Mugging since last week...
Had a test just yesterday..
Think I did pretty bad...
Feel a little stupid..
Feel that I ain't that smart anymore...
Cnnt really grasp the concepts anymore..
Met Peiqi on the bus..
Equally shitty situation..
She thinks she landed in a smelly pile of brownish poo...
Well, she is not alone...

Came to class at 830..
Went into an empty lab...
I thought I am in the wrong class...
So I called my darling lab tech..
She say class is at 930..
I feel so god-damn kuku...
Should have slept longer...
ARgh....

Reading "5 people you meet in heaven"...
Good book...
Stirs emotions in me...
I love reading...
On the trains, on the buses, and curled up on my bed..
But I just hate it when the reading materials are lecture notez...

I think I gonna join some student activities..
Baolian gonna help me..
There's a plus and a minus...
Plus =Studentlife gonna be more fun and enrich and I can fulfill my scholar's requirement..
Minus = After all the mugging..do i still have time...

OoOpz...now i realise I am late for class...
Gtg....

Miss ya all...

Whoever you are....

Cheers

|9:21 AM|

Saturday, August 27, 2005

A letter to all....
Dear all,

I have not been able to blog recently..
Bcos I have been studying hard..
Real hard you see..
I am kinda stressed..
Cos test is coming up next week..
And I still dun understand most of the lectures..
Being a NANYANG SCHOLAR is pretty stressful you know..
I have to remember that I HAVE TO DO WELL...

So, there you are..
A very stressed-up but still very pretty Audrey - e NANYANG SCHOLAR..

Like Vernon said..
I wish I have 25hrs everyday..
So that I have time for frens, to eat good food, to go tuition and even self-study abit..
But I really cnnt squeeze time anywhere anymore..
And that is just "SUCKY"...

I long for a holiday..
Am thinking of a beach getaway..
Meihua, Shawn...are we still going Redang or Tioman??
I need the sun, the sea, and the sand...
And maybe a handful of bust cream!! Whahah...

Haiz..I gotta go back to studies soon...

Experimental Techniques..

Cloning
Transformation
PCR
Vectors
Poly A Tail
DNA Polymerase

Anything sounds familiar??

Yours sincerely,
NANYANG STOOOOPID SCHOLAR

PS: I love you guys....

|10:51 AM|

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Wanna know the juicy details?? Call me...
Prof Chua said:
"I am inclined not to give you the scholarship!! You were disloyal to NTU!! So tell me why you deserve it once again..."

5 mins later (after a long and persuasive verdict) he said:
"I will put you at ease..I will give you the scholarship...But you still have to convince me further that you deserve it..."

Another 10 mins later:
"Pls work hard, graduate and be a good citizen!!"

"Yes sir, I will..."

I am praying hard...

|7:18 PM|

I am happy...
Some said: "Good for you..."
Some said: "Congrats..."
Some said: "You are so damn lucky..."

I say: "I am happy!!"

Because..

I

AM

A

NANYANG

SCHOLAR

!!!!!

=)

Many ppl to thank...
Baolian...who got so excited with me...
Fiona...who brainstorm and spotted questions with me...
Meihua..for the never-dying flow of words of encouragement...
Prof Lars and Dr Sze who have hopes of me doing well...
Prof Chua...who although made things difficult for me...but still gave me the scholarship...
NTU admin ladies...who were as busy as a bee just to do evrything for me...
And of course NUS...for pissing me off to becoming an even richer gal...
Now my fixed asset is confirmed at 10k!!! whaha...

|9:25 AM|

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Whatever I do..its just not enuff...
I remember...
After I broke up with Tiong and was together with Lewis..
I was (tried to) pretty nice to Lewis..
I cared about him alot because I was soo in love with him..
Shufen then asked me,
"Why are you soo good to him? I nv see you soo nice to Tiong before..."
I shrugged my shoulders...

Now..
I am trying my best to be nice...
To be as demure, virtuous, less flirtatious as I can be...
But all I get are loads of back-stabbing...
From frens of mine..
From people I hardly know..
Or well, whom hardly know me...

After many weeks of collection of negative feedback...
I finally teared..
I am not sad...
Not upset..
Just tired...

There are many gals in the whole wide world..
And of cos many different categories of gals..
If there are good ones..
There are definitely bad ones..

I, Audrey Wang, can proudly declare I am not the best...
Or do I fall into the "good" category..
But I definitely do not fall into the "fucking lousy" category...

I try me best to be nice to frens..
Maybe I am a lousier fren than Meihua or Baolian or Fiona or Siewling is to me..
But I still am always there for them..

I do not make any effort to meet up with Xiu or Fen..
But I always still miss them..

I try me best to be nice to my little cousins..
Although I always break my promise abt bringing them here and there..
At least I would feel gulity when they remind me that I broke my promise..again...

I try me best to be nice to junfeng..
But fucking not-surprisingly..
My goody-two-shoes act is not enuff...
Bcos he is always better than me..
I am not upset..
Bcos thats part of the reason how i can fall in love with him...

It freaking ironic that his frens think I am a bitch character...
But my frens think that he is the nice one and I am bullying him..
I dun blame anyone..
If I am not me..
I think the same way too..

In case you care to know...
I DO NOT take advantage of him...
I treasure him too much to do that...

|12:18 PM|

Thursday, August 11, 2005

I only have myself to blame....
You know what...??

I wrote a letter to NTU and asked them to take me back..
Better still, give me the scholarship again..
Frankly,
If I am the Dean of Admissions,
I wouldn't take me back...
How can an indecisive bimbo be a Nanyang Scholar??

So WHY??
Why did I suddenly chicken out??
Because it suddenly hit me that its alot of money that I am losing out...
Let me do you the sums...
School fees.. $3000 x 8 semesters = $24,000
Allowances..$5000 x 3 yrs = $15,000
Total..$39,000!!!!!
Its a no-joke figure ok?
Especially for someone like me who had to work my ass off to pay for my school fees ever since my secondary school days..

I admit I kinda regarded NTU as a backup,
The "2nd best" sort of thing..
But NUS is really pissing me off..
Probably I am a bit terrified by the overwhelming workload..
Not to forget the no. of Indian scholars...and very kiasu JC kids...

And I am kinda lucky to have Weili as my classmate..
We kinda stick out with each other most of the time..
As we are both "dao" and very anti-social and "bo-chup"...
Haha...
I ponteng..he also ponteng...
I got no notes...he also dun have...
Haha...
How to survive??

How was my little holiday??
Good....Fanta-bulous!!!
Went to Penang - Genting - KL - JB...
Not that its not worth mentioning...
But there are really many other things I need to fret..bitch..scream...and let off some steam...
But something worth mentioning is that...
The food in penang was supa-delicious!!!
Only that it gave me the runs ever since last week...
Assam laksa, prawn mee, rojak, satay, chao kway teow, mee suan...
Yummy yummy!!
Penang was much more fun than KL and Genting...
Air was too polluted...
And my ultimate shopping plans did not really work out...
I only managed to dig a few miserable pieces of garment..
But..
I managed to find my square cut jeans for only RM179!!
Authentic ok?????
And looks nice on me wor!!!
Hahah....

Know what..
My next thing to fret..
What if NTU says "Yes...you are welcome to come back??"
HOW???????????????????

|10:46 AM|

Monday, August 01, 2005

A little holiday...
Today is my last day of work...
As Prof Urs made his thank you speech to me..
I just sat there and smiled...
I nodded my head at times..
And tried hard not to look stupid...
I was actually at a loss of words...

This Aug 2005 is a new phase in my life..
I will play hard...work even harder to achieve my goals...

Will be in Malaysia for the next six days...
So long....

|5:56 PM|

Friday, July 29, 2005

Top 20 My Foot!!
As the days draw nearer to the start of school and to the end of my working life,
My heart feels heavier...
I feel ill most of the time..
My nose and my tummy just dun feel rite all the time..
I wonder if I am really ill,
Or is it pyschological??

Suddenly, I feel that I was duped into this whole NUS TOP 20 shit...
The administration sucks..
The staff sucks...
And to think I rejected NTU for NUS even when I was promised lots of money over there..
Guess I brought all this shit to myself...

It started when I attended NUS course briefing...
Everything was tailored to a JC student...
I felt so boliao that I had to leave in the middle of the talk...

Then when I am supposed to take adavance placements..
I was pinning high hopes to get exemptions for some modules..
So I could graduate earlier like I planned..
I was wrong...
The paper was out to kill...
And now NUS can definitely pocket one more semester of school fees from me..

Yes, my mom always say..."When in doubt...ASK!!"
I did that...
I called and asked what modules am I exactly exempted for..
The lady told me "I dunno leiz..u have to wait then maybe they will email you..."
I called and asked which timetable am I supposed to follow..
Another lady told me "The dates are over already...You should check the website everyday..."
I went to the office to get a form so that I do not have to take modules which will only lengthen my undergrad studies...
I stood there like a fool, not being attended, listening to two bitches talk abt their stupid city harvest church wedding and how much each table costs!!

Yes..I am upset...and fucking angry...
I am upset because I regret my choice(s)...
I am upset because it is only now that I realise..
With a good diploma (and no money),
You should not hope for exemptions..
You should only hope that they dun give you extra modules...
And if you have a choice..
Go with the flow..
Go to a JC..
Not a poly..
Life is soo much more difficult for one poly kid...

|10:22 AM|

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

I realise I have not been smiling as much recently...
Its been a long time since I blogged...
Partly because the compie at home crashed...
And my workstation is kinda "snatched" away...
Well, selfish me has snatched it back...
Even though I think I shouldn't really be sitting here anymore...

Last Friday was a super duper fun drinking session at Kokting's house...
Many reasons to celebrate...
WF's and Cindy's birthday..
And of cos, my leaving.....
I always pictured that I will cry when I make my farewell speech...
To the people who inspired, motivated, helped me...and of cos, irritated me...
But somehow, recently, I am soo eager to just leave this place...
Because I feel nothing here belongs to me anymore...

Saturday was Meihua's orange party...
Crowd was fun...
JF was with me...
Food (did i mention the stingrays) was great...
But my orange top turned red...
Sorry MH, I really bought it as a orange top...
Dunno why it became red....???????

Sunday was Alex's OCS Commission...
I was very proud of Alex...
No one in our clique would imagine that he actually survived it!!!
Amongst the 5 boys...he was the ultimate bummer..
But he became the OFFICER!!
He looked very smart in that white, neatly pressed uniform...
The whole parade was something to remember...

I dunno why...
But I am already looking forward to my graduation day....
(even though I haven even started school)

All my frens are materialistic and horny bitches / bastards (thats Darren)...
They choose to side JF when I am unhappy...
I guess I am just paranoid...
And dear parasitologist Fiona preached "Paranoidism is the cause to many breakups.."
I was pretty unhappy abt news that I gathered and by my own thoughts..
A few weeks ago, I thought that maybe this time round...
That I will be nonchalant abt most things...
But I was wrong...
Look how I blew my top over some stupid SMS-es...
And you know I really really cared...
Or rather...how nasty I can get when I am jealous...
I really wouldn't give a damn if it was only a one-way traffic...
I can't help but to think that the conversation (whatever it was) was mutually flirtatious...

|2:09 PM|

Thursday, July 21, 2005

On my way to work..
Today I woke up especially early...
Bcos I had lab meeting at 9am...
I haven report for work at 9am for a long time...
And to think I organised this lab meeting...

On my way to work...

I saw the latest edition of Her World...
I bought it from the nasty PRC at Woodlands MRT station...
Surprisingly, she is not nasty today... =)

I also realised that I have a pretty side view...
Prettier than my front view...
And a very impish grin...
I like it!!! =)

And I also realised something else...
From now till next year...
Or maybe longer...
There wun be a complete group picture anymore...
Not even at Meihua's orange party...
We may have new members such as Junfeng and Wenfeng...
But I feel its just ain't the same...
Alex was often not around throughout this year..
Fiona would be gone until next year...
If Fiona returns next June,
Maybe then it will be Meihua's turn to fly...
Then followed by Shawn and Darren...

I dated back to the last time all 10 of us smiled/grinned happily into the camera...
It was my birthday / Xmas celebration last Dec..
And the other time was during Grad day... (May 04)

Ironically, its one group picture every half a year...
And the latest (without Alex) was last Fri when Fiona left..

Time flies...
Hope we will be able to take another group pic soon...

|2:12 PM|

Monday, July 18, 2005

NKF Scandal
Everyone has their own view...

I just feel that he is one smart Indian man...
One smart greedy Indian man who was tempted by riches...
Or maybe...since he decide his own pay...
Might as well take more la..
I wouldn't reject a pay like that too...

Most rich men are smart people...
Some rich people are rich bcos they do bad things...
People who wanna get rich but are not too smart...
Can only go rob the bank...
Well, you may not even find $600,000 in the bank...

I wonder if one day of he gets kidney failure and needs dialysis..
Will he be sponsored by NKF??
When my gram got kidney failure..
All they offered was a bag and tubes stucked to and sticking out of her stomach...
And that she can "mind her own business" at home...
Because she was too old, dying and not worth saving??

Anyway..
I saw this link from Thad's blog...
Its farni...
And its been so long I have heard such lingo...
Reminds me of Versace jeans, armani hair, orange combs....

Have a laugh...
www.rockson.blogspot.com

|10:38 AM|

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Audrey - The Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
Your kisses are truly unforgettable


Kissing is a huge game for you, a way to flirt and play
You're the first one to suggest playing spin the bottle at a party
Or you'll go for the wild kiss during a game of truth or dare
And you're up for kissing any sexy stranger if the mood is right



Wanna kiss me???

|7:36 PM|

Fiona is really gone...
I told myself not to cry...
I told myself its for a happy reason...
When Fiona walked around hugging everyone...
And I was on the verge of tears...
I cracked a stupid joke...
And forced myself not to cry...
And I did not...
So I do not need to treat supper too!!! =)

At the departure gate,
Fiona shook my hands vigorously and said,
"I will miss you...and I will graduate earlier than you...but still I am happy for you..."
I am happy for myself too...for you as well...
Study hard...
We will miss you...
All the best...
Wear my scarf yah...
Even though I saw ya sis gave you one already...
I dun mind losing to her...
Hers is "ai xin" brand one...

The airport bought back fond memories of my Scotland trip...
I was dead drunk two days before departure and was screaming "I don't wanna go Scotland!"
On the day itself, I remembered my uncle dropped by the airport entrance and only told me to be careful...
At the airport, Lewis was with me all the way...
I was also greeted by my poly frens and Shufen and Guangrong and some of her poly frens..
Sean and Shunjie got me a lucky charm...which made me soo damn touched..
Anyway, I think I am such a loser cos I cried so much more than Fiona even though I am leaving only for like "4months+?"...
I cried because Shufen cried...
Baolian teared (if I did not remember wrongly) and then I cried again..
I hugged Lewis and cried again...

Last night,
I asked Junfeng if he would cry if I was the one leaving...
He refused to answer my question...
And ask me back "Then what about me?"
I asked him to go find another gal to "sub" me while I am gone... =)

I hope and am really hoping that I would be able to go for a exchange/YEP while I am in NUS...
YEP is a long-time wish and Exchange is one of the perks that made me wanna study locally...
Not to mention I really dun have $30k to go Australia...

Wish me luck...come send me off when that day comes...

|6:20 PM|

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Counting my blessings....
Thanks pals..... =D

This is from THAD...
If I am that guy Audrey likes right now, I will be very very happy cos of the things she wrote. WOW, its sooooo sweet and unlike drey, she really appreciates JunFeng a lot, and if I am JF, that stupid, hair-standing blog will make my day so HAPPY that even if Army RSM scold me I will be happy.
Well, JF is lucky cos he found an expressive girlfriend that tells him straight how she is feeling.

This is from BL:
Glad to see everyone ard me so blissfully in love... it is what they deserved... they happy i also feel happy for them... gals (i think it includes me), must cherish it hor!
i want to see u all in smiles and not frowns all over your face...

This is from WoonFei:

Shimeimei has got a new darling!!!congratulation! Actually, shimei is a very pretty gal (that's what she claimed...). i better agree. or else... life will be miserable..anyway... u look at the smile on her face...

I feel happy for her...

from: a heartbroken WF.

***

To Thad:

Dun lose hope in love..and dun keep telling yourself to forget the happiness of falling in love all over again...That person is just somewhere out there...

To BL:

You have always been around for me...and never failed to make me realise that you are indeed a worthy fren..I miss you badly...and the long hours we spent studying/gossiping at MOS..Now that I found my Star Cruise Virgo...I am saving all my blessings for you..to find a man worthy of you...Jia you!!!

To WF:

Bestest luck with F.A.N.G or ya No 1...You count yourself lucky you dun have to bring me home to your asthmatic mum...She will live to a ripe old age... =)

|12:17 PM|

Monday, July 11, 2005

Not everything can be compared....
For Junfeng - My Vampire...

Like any other men, Junfeng has his good points and bad ones..
Junfeng's good points:
Junfeng always treat me like a princess..
Junfeng is nice to his family, his friends and of course me...
And I think that kindness in the basis to a good person...
Junfeng's bad points:
Junfeng only know how to say "Bu yao guan ta!!"
And the other one...
Junfeng and I know... =)

In case you dunno Junfeng well,
Let me introduce Junfeng to you...

I got to know Junfeng through Darren..
At Eski Bar, Junfeng gave me his tele no...wrongly...
Which I called and ended up talking to a very angry Indian man who insisted...
"I am not Junfeng!!!"
And when I finally managed to call through Junfeng's line..
Junfeng hung up on me..
Which later Junfeng claimed, was accidental...

Junfeng sets my blog as his "home" page..
Therefore,
Everytime Junfeng opens his IE,
Junfeng will +1 to my counter!!

Junfeng has 48 porn clips in his computer..
And 8, I found under his "Recent documents"
I decided I shouldn't be angry with Junfeng...
All men watches porn!!

Junfeng said he is going to learn how to cook prawns for me..
Because Junfeng knows how crazy I am in love with those lil' cousin's of lobsters..
Junfeng decided to impress by mentioning some exotic dishes initially..
Until I said prawns in tomato sauce or coleslaw sauce is fine...
Junfeng is elated..
It makes thing easier for him...
Until my medical check-up...
Junfeng decided that maybe I should cut down on prawns...
But then,
Yesterday Junfeng mentioned prawn buffet for dinner...
I am not the only fickled-minded person ok??

Junfeng surprises me with the ways he deals with my unreasonable and whiny behaviors..
The other day, I got so upset when I am positive I flunked my advance placements and went on and on that I do not wanna study anymore...
I looked at Junfeng and said, "I dun wanna study anymore...can I??"
Junfeng looked at me and smiled.
I said impatiently and abit loudly, "Say something!"
Junfeng replied, smiling and not at all bothered by my scream, "But I can't encourage you not to study, rite??"
I replied, "Thanks..."
And from the bottom of my heart..I mean it...

I have also decided I wanna learn how to be a "xiao nu ren"
So I decided I will let Junfeng decide on many things..
For example...
what to have for dinner?
whether we should eat mango or mixed fruit snow ice?
whether we should eat a pork or chicken frankfurter?
whether he wants to join us for breakfast at tiong bahru?
whether we should meet at lavender or novena?
whether we should eat fish and co, vienna or buffet at china sq..?
Anyway, whatever Junfeng decided, I always chose the opposite..
And Junfeng is never bothered by how I go against him..
Junfeng will only smile and go along with me..
And then Junfeng will say, "You are so farni...."
I am farni because I am happy...
Happy that you are with me...

To MH and BL:
Junfeng is not my float...
Junfeng is my Star Cruise Virgo....

To SL:
Dun mention WF too often...
Junfeng is jealous... =)

To Junfeng:
Count how many times I mentioned ya name in this entry...
Its 39 times already....
Its definitely more than the number of times SL mentioned WF...
When I dun mention your name..
It does not mean I dun give a damn abt you...

***drum rolls***
The geez of this entry...
I am sure you know that your importance not dictated by the no. of times I mention "Junfeng" on my blog... (its 40 times now)
Thanks for everything you have given me..
And also the things you are going to give me...

|11:06 AM|

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

OoOoooo.....!!! Scary eh?? Haha... 

|1:28 PM|

Pretty eh?? Haha... =)

|1:19 PM|

Blogging - just for the sake of blogging!!
Pimples outbreaks...

Mugging for exams for advanced placements...
Wish me luck...

Heart-aching news that I am not exactly in the pink of health...
Met a pregnant doctor with a constipated face..
Maybe her son is coming out from her anus...

**Confused. Upset. Angry. Tired. Lazy. Slacking**

|12:50 PM|

Saturday, July 02, 2005

KunYao e Santa Claus...Bought Michie a jigsaw puzzle and a bracelet for me!!! So sweet!!! =) 

|6:03 PM|

Michie, KunYao, Prof Urs, QueeMing and Me...There is always a reason to snap a shot!! Anytime...haha.... 

|6:00 PM|

Thursday, June 30, 2005

I dun pity her..I respect her!!
Michie showed me this blog:

http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=scruffymedic&nextdate=6%2f19%2f2005+21%3a19%3a43.043&direction=p

It touched me!!
I hope you guys can take some time to read it too...

I could almost feel her agony...
Mine was nothing close when I lost my gram...
I respect her...
And she do not need my / other's pity...
She has found a goal in life....
Which many many others might still be in the midst of it..

Some people work for fame and money..
Some people work because they need to...
Some people work because they got nothing to do...
Some people work because their moms nag at them when they bum around too much at home..
She, works because she has PASSION!!
Maybe to her, that is not just a job...

I wish I could be like her...
Not that I wanna lose my love ones in a crash to appreciate them better..
But to know exactly what I want in life...
I am entering Uni because my short-term goal is to earn an annual income of >$28k so I can apply for the Ladies Card.
Dun I sound like such a BIMBO??

|1:42 PM|

Shimeimei.blogspot - On the Billboard!!
Look...A COUNTER!!!!! A PURPLE COUNTER!!!!!!

To activate my counter..I nearly screwed up my blog....
Thanks to my stooooooopidity...

But now..the prob is fixed...
Thanks to Pris and Junfeng's help....

My blog started on 07/04/2005...
So it has been 85 days to date....
I started the counter with 1001 hits..
Taking into consideration a human traffic of 10 readers / fans per day..
(I think I am being fairly modest liao...Ah-heemmmm - clears throat)

Thus, in the future..
I can monitor my blog's popularity...
And bcos it increases by 1 hit everytime I refreshes...
I suggest you trust only 1/3 of the number..
Cos 66.66% will be my contribution...
I have a blog fetish that haven died yet..mind you...haha...

I told Fiona that maybe one day I will be a famous blogger too..
She said: "yah..if all others stop blogging!!"
But nvm..she is always that nice to me..

Well..I am happy you guys like to read my blog...
Like to read about my shitty da-pian life... (in case u dun notice, e colour was chosen for a reason)
At least I get concerned phonecalls from friends..
KPOs like THAD!!! (Hey look.... i mentioned ya name!!)
Thad called yesterday to ask abt me / Lewis..
But later added that his motive of calling was actually to be mentioned here..
Not to show concern or anything close...
I guess he is a far-sighted man...
Knowing that my blog has soared to fame with avid readers...
Frens who care...
Love ya lots...
And love Thad lots too...
No matter how irritating you are!! Whaha...

|10:52 AM|

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

I think I have forgiven him...
I was upset by the conversation...upset that he actually meant that I am cheap...
Upset that he called me in the middle of the night and suspected that I was sleeping at someone else's home....

By posting the conversation on the blog...
I do not mean to advertise that I have an ex-boyfren who calls me cheap...
But to remember that he actually said such hurting, nasty words on that one fateful day...

And next time,
When I read back my blog...
I will be reminded again..
And will probably hate him..
Or maybe just smile...a triumphant one...*hopefully*

I called people up and vented my anger..

Junfeng incessantly repeated in between my rants: "Bu Yao Guan Ta!! Bu Yao Guan Ta Lor!! Bu Yao Guan Ta Lah!!" (Dun care abt him - I cant type chinese) =(
I got pissed and hung up his phone...
"Is that his best shot??" I thought as I slammed my Samsung...
But later, he added by sms : "I dun really talk well...but I want you to know that no matter what happened, I'll be there for you!! =) "
I was touched...So thats wat "Bu Yao Guan Ta" meant...

Fiona said : "Maybe you should stop contacting him for a long time"
I can't..He has been in my life for nearly 3 yrs..his opinions matters!!

Lewis called this morning: "I am sorry about last night!"
I am softened...And managed "Ok..byebye!!"

|1:34 PM|

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Another arguement....
Cheap Slut For Sale..Anyone?? =)

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
actually i really dun mind waiting for u to njoy ya single life then.. we can still hang out.. u can still njoy ya life.. i will wait.. but when u got yaself a boyfren i feel so betrayed.. i mean its just 1month plus then.. how can u bring yaself to love someone else? i really cant myself.. i think i will take a long time.. i dun wan to be ya second best.. so i wanted to ignore u so u can be happy

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
its so sudden.. it make me feel then e words u use to say became so superfical.. i dun understand y u do it?

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
y date him? for a rebound?

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
or searching for ya memories?

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
i dun understand...

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
for fun...

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
i will nv know who is the right guy if i dun go out with them..right??

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
maybe...

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
but so fast u start seeing someone?

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
sometime u make yaself sound so cheap.. sorry if i am harsh...

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
or maybe our love wasnt tt deep too..

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
i just dun understand y.. i think..

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
i dun mind you calling me anything...i dun care wat ppl think too..

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
nothing cheap in going movie dates rite??

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
i am not sleeping with him for god's sake...

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
i am not calling u anything...

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
i noe u are not doing anything..

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
then??

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
wats so cheap abt a movie date?? or a new date??

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
okok i am just disgusted by e way u call him darling n stuff k..

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
u live e way u wan n be happy just dun regret its really painful to regret.. i noe it all so well its hurts big time..

And this was the last straw...

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
n one more thing.. u are not honest dun write it in ya blog..

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
wat?? wat cant i write??

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
She is a honest person

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
well i guess not.. maybe not now

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
FUCK U....

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
WATEVER...

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
GET OUT OF MY LIFE

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
I DUN NEED YOU TO TEACH ME STUFF...

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
U ARE NOT VERY SUCCESSFUL TOO...

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
do u wan e jacket ya granny gave me? e ways i used to treat u i think i am not worthy of it

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
ya ya i noe..

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
BURN IT,,...I DUN NEED IT

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
i am no better

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
y must u be so pissed?

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
BCOS U ARE ATTACKING ME??

My Feet hurts...iSqueeze anyone?? says:
DUN READ MY BLOG FOR GOD'S SAKE...

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
i am not... pls dun misunderstand..

Lewis *67days of misses n counting.. * says:
i wun read it from now on..

|12:28 PM|

Audrey - The Saggi Woman
From Meihua to Fiona to Muah!!!

SAGITTARIUS WOMAN

A tall, slim and graceful woman who walks proudly like she is walking in a beauty pageant competition. If she slips or nearly falls, she will nicely covered it up and continue with her graceful and impressive walking step. She knows how to use make up to enhance her beauty. She looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy. She will not get upset easily.
Self confident woman who believes in her own style. She will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern. She is a very open person, sometimes too blunt. She is a honest person and never try to cause troubles for any one.

She likes to say something that you do not want to hear and yet she can say something so pleasing at the same time. She says things and make you wonder if you should get upset or love her more.

She is also a free spirit and does not like to stay home. She likes to be protected, but not to give her orders. She has no respect for a weak man. If she tries to overpower you, then you have to calm her down and try to control her to be in a limit by doing the same thing too. She will listen if she respect you. She likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.

She is a no nonsense woman, so you will not hear she says " Guess what I will do next", or "Guess what I am thinking" because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy. If you do not understand her in this matter, you could easily break up with her. She sees problems in her love life as another funny story.

She is clumsy and it is in her nature. You may think it is cute, but for some neat guys this could be so unbearable. She is very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends. She has good taste in fine cloths, good food, first class and first services. Even a poor woman in this Zodiac will struggle to afford such good taste. She could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money. If you think lending her money, think again.

She is a paranoid. If she thinks you like her, she may already think about getting marry and lost her freedom and so on and on. A jolly woman who loves sports. She has more guy friends and sometimes could act like one of a guy. She does not care about rumors, so she can get home very late and couldn't careless what her neighbor will gossip about her. She thinks either good or bad, you will know it yourself , so you should not bother what people think.

Her wit and innocent look are her charms. She is often hurt from love, but never afraid to look for a new one as if she is singing "Do that to me one more time". She likes going straight and being straight forward. She will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something. If you meet her and tell her straight what you think, she will admire you.

Thats Audrey for you!! Sounds accurate yeah??

|12:08 PM|

Monday, June 27, 2005

My Weekend Update!!
Haha..I like my weekend..

Let me tell you guys how i spent it!! Haha...

On Saturday,
I went for tuition...(yeap, that sucks), But at least I got my tuition money..$300!! Yippee!!
Went back to the lab to do some expts!!
Met up with Vampie to go Tiong Bahru for dinner..
And to watch *ALotLikeLove* at Great World City..
Went shopping and saw Ong Ai Ling (the malaysian model who looks like Fann Wong),
And spotted a few tops / bottoms that I liked..
Which I did not buy.... =(
Then walked the Singapore River until City Hall to take train home..
**I walked at least 5km that night**

On Sunday,
Woke up early to go MacRitchie Park...
Went to Yishun first to have Big Breakfast!! Yummy!!!
Reached MacRitchie at around 10am...
Walked the wooden trails to the treetop trail...
Chatted with Vampie happily on the way...

MacRitchie changed alot...
Since my Sec school days when I had to turn up at the park faithfully for my weekly trainings...

I also remembered that just three weeks ago,
I was terribly upset,
Bcos I had to go back to my AMK house to pack some of the old stuff..
And I made a bold decision to throw away all my track and field trophies..
Even though my aunty and uncles asked me to keep them..
To show to my offsprings,
"Look! Mommy used to run!! And was very very good at it!!"
But I acted brave, and pretended to shrug it off...
Bcos I really have no space for those metallic cups,
With words "First in 800m / 1500m" engraved beautifully on them..

No matter how much I had always wanted to display all my pride in a nice, orange, spot-light litted cabinet...
I had to dump them...

Anyway, back to my "trekking" story...
The process was fun, with nice scenery and great workouts as you climbed the steep slopes..

Lots of people watching too..
Sweaty Angmos with nice legs and yummy butts...
Aunties and Uncles with bulging tummies..
Spoilt brats that you wanna swat them in the face with a tennis racquet..
Old man and chinese / indonesian women who came in red bras, tight tops and hugging jeans..
(Shan't mention or even try to imagine wat they were up to..)

Took about 2hrs when we finally reached the treetop trail...
Took only 15 mins to walk it!!
It wasn't really impressive...
But I wasn't disappointed at all...
Cos I had great company,
And the trip back to MacRitchie itself was overwhelming /fulfilling on its own..
Not to mention I survived a 15km walk without much whining!!

BTW, my feet aches...
iSqueeze outing anyone??
(Oh..there are free iSqueeze massages in bukit panjang!! Can go there and sit!! FOC!!Hahah)
I dun even mind if someone wanna donate one to me.. Whahah...

Went to Thomson Plaza next for lunch...
Great lunch...Nice noodles, nice dim sum, and nice mango pudding!! Yummy!!!

Went to AMK to pick up Junfeng's new phone..
He chose the black one instead of the red one..
Bcos I said it was nicer..
"You wun regret it my dear!!" =) Haha...

Then went to Sembawang for my "Dan-bao-fan" (Rice wrapped in egg)
And then I went home...
While he went for a date with some other gal!!

I slept the whole evening..
And skipped tuition cos I am sooo lazy and sooo tired..
I cant be bothered really...Haha..

The moral of the story is...
I had a good weekend...
And also a good Monday...

Cos Sokhui, my colleague, gave me a webcam, for free!!!!!
And Prof Urs gave me a box of chocs...from Switzerland...
And Woonfei said that my blog touched him...and that inspired him to do up his blog...
And I am going to BBDC to book my advance theory...
Everything is fun!!!!

I'm loving it!! =)

|11:30 AM|

Dream a little dream....
I did mine too!! =)

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're very preoccupied with your fears and problems. These bad dreams indicate that you need to spend more time on your issues during the day. Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities. You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind. You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.

I onced dream that I was
A murderer...
A prostitute...
A scientist...

And sometimes I dream of weird stuff...
Like I was Jet Li's galfren and I was shopping at Pasar Malam with him..
Of Prof Moore (HOD of Pharmacology) with a ugly moustache...
Or of my gram whom I miss dearly..
Within 49 days of her death,
I dreamed of her in our AMK flat,
and she said she was cold...
So I burned her the favorite grey jacket that she always wore...
And hoped that she feels better / warmer..
Wherever she is...

|11:15 AM|

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Blog Fetish
I am sooooo obsessed with my blog...
I read it at least 15x in 24 hrs...
Yes, i keep count...
I refresh it every 10 mins when I am at work..
So I can sing-along with Guang Liang..
I read Fiona's, SL's, MH's, Aloy's, Shawn's and Thad's blog faithfully too..
But your hit level is probably only one-third of mine...
Which is damn alot considering you guys seldom update ya blog...
Help me...
I am obsessed with my blog, me and myself!!!!

Today is Saturday,
Which means tuition at Springleaf..
I always dread going there..
Its a pain in my pretty arse!!
And its raining somemore...Cats and dogs...
So I have to take a cab...
Cos they are rich and they live in private estates,
which the government dun provide shelters from the bus-stops straight to ya doorstep...
Oh,
Did I mention?
The tutee's father just bought a Jaguar...X-type...Red!!
Jealous until die man!!!!!

Movie Date with My Horny Vampire tonight..
Looking forward to it...
I hope its nice..
And rekindle my hope for love...
But nevertheless, it still worth watching...
Cos Ashton Kutcher is sooo damn shuai dao wan!!!

-------
Audrey Out - to a boring tuition date with a 12 yr old...

|11:40 AM|

Friday, June 24, 2005

Curiosity Killed the Cat

I am soo bored at work,
I am reading everyone's blog,
And surfing friends' photo galleries...

So bored until I stumbled across one photo..

He was smiling...
His usual smile..
And for at least 3 seconds,
I stopped breathing...
I told myself I will not enlarge the photo..
I will not double-click it...
But I did..
When I saw his smiling face...
My heart ache... Badly...
And I am upset once again..

I stopped thinking of him since one month ago..
Eversince I broke up with Lewis and starting going out with other people..
But today,
I am reminded of him again...
And the feeling ain't good...

At least recently, I dun think of him soo much anymore..
And I hope,
That I won't in the future...
That would mean that I have really really really really gotten over him...

Curiosity kills the cat..
It ruined my mood for the whole day....

And I hate myself all over again...

|2:36 PM|

Thursday - Retail Therapy

I accomplished many things yesterday...
Well, even if I procastinate tuition again, I still accomplished many, many things..
Things that make me happy....

1. I send my screwed-up Samsung phone for repair (finally)...
The customer service officer and I chatted for abit and she mentioned "Luckily ya phone spoils before the warranty ended, if not you will have to pay alot of $$.." and then she gave me a cheeky smile..
I replied,"I am going to sell away this f**king phone after this!!"
She then gave me a thumbs-up and said, "Good for you! I support u!!"
So much for technical support and customer service!!

2. Went shopping at Taka, Wisma, Far East, OG with BL and Fio
The aim was to go Mango sale...Hanged out there for around 2 hours (i think), tossing and turning clothes, but I ended up not buying anything..I am not really a Mango person anyway...

Next was manicure at Far East, not very nicely done to be truthful, but its cheap..so what the heck?? haha..I like it..its pinky like me...and it went well with many things...my skirt, the thongs at BLUSH?, the bandung Junfeng bought for me, and many many other things that I own...so I am happy!! =) But my colleague Kokting mentioned that its abit Ah-lian....haha...

After BL left, me and Fio continued e search for a pair of "long"shorts for my date this weekend and her scarf for Aust...I found my shorts at OG and I like it lots..its big at the butt so it makes my butt looks yummy!! HaHa...although Fio didn't get her scarf, i promise to loan her mine!!!

Fiona: Like I said, its branded, nice and comfy and will remind you of me (other than the word cheesy)...So when you miss me...take a long, hard, deep breath of the scarf and you will think of me!! Whahah...

Hee..and while we walk and shop..we chatted quite alot..bitching and gossiping...haha..it was fun..although I kept getting kinda excited and spoke/shouted/exclaimed abit loudly occasionally..haha..

Oh yes...lets organise our hawker hop soon!! I wanna do it soon...

Gals and guys, we (namely me BL and Fio) have decided to embark on a hawker trip one of these weekends (b4 Fio leaves, of course) to eat all day...hopping and skipping from hawker centres to coffeeshops...to eat all good food like char kway tiao(i dun like it..but since Fio and BL like) prawn noodles, BBQ fish, bak kut teh, popiah, chicken rice, chwee kuay...blah blah blah!!! So please decide on a date soon ok???

3. Met up with Junfeng for dinner and a nice "chat" =)

PS: I drew up a financial plan for myself..and realised that I do not have alot of $$!! So i am upset..there are many things I need (or maybe want) to buy / do, namely;

1. Laptop - $2K

2. Digi cam - $600

3. School fees - $700

4. Jeans and new undies- $100

5. Cosmetics and skin care - $100

6. A short holiday (hopefully in Aug) - $500

7. Driving lessons - approx. $1.2k

8. Braces - $3k (maybe in 2006/7)

& all those on the top right-hand corner of this page..

where is my sugar-daddy??

|11:28 AM|

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Writer's Block

Too many things to blog, too little time...

Many things to announce...
1.
Hope you guys had fun on Saturday...
Thanks Pheona for helping out all the time..
Thanks to the guys who feasted happily (i hope) and making the gathering enjoyable..
Thanks to 2 Fengs who helped my aunty dismantle our old sound system..
I took pride in making prata, pizza and the food..sorry if it turned out burnt!! Haha...
But hope you guys had enjoyed it...all of it!!
Still abit of Baileys left..I shall drink myself drunk... =)
Thanks Pheoona for cutting my bangs, and BL for giving comments..
(Hey, that rhymes..)

2.
Pheona, seems like you getting pre-departure syndromes nowadays..cheer up gal..call me to bitch if you need to..will bitch together with ya!! Everyone is happy for you..so be happy!! =) Waiting for ya return to pay back ya debts and save up for our New York trip!! Victoria Secrets, Kate Spade, DKNY, Guess?? here we come!!!!!

3.
Nothing much to do nowadays so had been reading others blog...and I wanna re-emphasize something - "When you are smart, be it!! Dun try to act smart!! Serves XX rite for being a smart alec to complain about other's blog...Boohoohooo...Orbee ah!! =P Why should one care so much about people posing their nude pics? What good does it make to let others know that you two are different bloggers?? There are soo many ppl out there different from you, why must you point each of them out?" By this, I am trying to reprimand myself too...

4.
My tummy ain't feeling rite again.....

5.
I passed my Basic Theory!!! Yippppeee Yaaaaaaaaaaay!!

6.
I watched Hitch!! And learned something:
Life isn't about the moments you take ya breath,
Life is about the moments that take ya breath away...
So, Have you really lived life??
Have I?

|2:13 PM|

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Back on my feet!!

Gals: I am back on my feet...

I realise that I am responsible for my own feelings..
No matter what others say,
I should only trust myself and what I see...
Right now,
I am feeling better than ever,
I found someone who is true to me,
And stupid enough to wait up for me every night,
To give me every minute he has in his free time,
To promise me stuff,
And making another promise to keep those promises..
I guess most of you know who he is..
Dun ask me what we are now,
I dunno if I can fall madly in love in 20 days..
But definitely,
He is the one who brings smiles to my face nowadays...

Horny Vampire:
I know you will read this...and I want you to know I hold u to all ya promises..and if you dun fulfill them, you should realise that I have a large troop of "sisters" and they will sure beat you up!!!

Baolian / Fiona:
Thanks for sharing (dark lil secrets) and caring (asking me to take care)!!

Meihua:
Thanks for thinking of me in the middle of the night, although I was awaken by you..I smiled when I saw the msg!! Love ya!!

Pris:
If you are reading this, thanks for offering to send me home that night..I really really appreciate that..was touched that night..but my "admirer" beat you to that!! whahah...try again next time..*hope there isn't any next time though*

Linghui / Yiqian / Yijie:
I know you will read this too...I love you gals!! And the 2 little ones..dun try to eavesdrop and make reports to ya mommy anymore ok?? Otherwise, she will start bothering me...haha..

|10:29 AM|

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Or whether you are toying with me..
I hate the idea when I think that I am chosen because I was the easiest...

Baolian says this is called "rebound" (i dunno y this word was chosen)
Its a theory which says that when a gal is single,
As long as a man is nearby,
At the right place... right time,
You will fall in love with him.
But, He is not the right one.

I told Lewis that guys are nice to me,
Saying things that sound like music to my ears..
And I am enjoying,
Busking in that "love"
And I told him too,
I know half of what I hear may be bullshit..
But I am choosing to believe them,
Because they sound nice,
Even though I know they are not exactly honest...
No, I dun think I am stupid,
Bcos if I am,
I will not know that the things are bullshit..
Regurgitated to many other gals,
Just to make them happy...

|1:36 PM|

Monday, June 13, 2005

I am confused...I am not ready yet...

It was through this blog that friends I never met for a long time are updated about me..so they know I am upset and managed to squeeze time to send me a sms or give me a tinkle..I am starting to think that blogs are wonderful channels to keep in touch afterall...

But now that more people reads my blog, I realise that I sometimes cannot write what I really think here..bcos the truth may hurt some people...who are dear to me...

Eg: Can I bitch about Fiona or Baolian here??
No...I can only say how much I miss them...

Right now, I am confused...very screwed in my brains...

I wanna know how important I am to you...
How much you love or maybe just like me...

|11:47 AM|

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Loving every minute of my life now...

I am beginning to love my life and myself more and more..
If you notice, you would realise that I dun say that my life sux anymore!!
Even though I still can't sleep, (I also dunno y)
I am happy often.

Many things make me happy...
The details, I will keep them to myself...
The joy and smiles I derived from this little things are giving me hope again...

Yesterday was the first night in a long long time I laid on my bed at 10pm...
I was about to fall asleep when Lewis called and said he was at my doorstep...
I wondered what he wanted and when I opened the door,
He came with a cream, for my fingers...
Lewis, I know you still read my blog and I wanna tell you this:
"It was nice of you really..to come all the way to give me the cream..but its really difficult for me to love you again, or even another guy..You will be a friend to me from now on, whether or not you want it..!! But I really appreciate all the care you are still going to continue to give me..If one day it ever stops, I will know you have moved on..and that..its my ultimate wish for you.."

And as I am fell asleep again, a horny vampire (he told me not to mention his name) called me and woke me up..and then I can't sleep again..because I am starting to enjoy talking to him..

And this morning, SL msged me at 8+ in the morning!!! Oh my!! Haha..after that, I drifted in and out of dreamland..having weird dreams all the way till 10...b4 i had to wake up to give tuition again...ARgH!!!

Going for midnight shopping at Suntec with my cousin Linghui, and the gals...hope it will be a fruitful one!!!

Yipppeee...

Life rocks!!!

|2:50 PM|

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

One year anniversary for my working life!!!!

Boys and Gals, On ya speakers!!! I attached a song to my blog!!! =)

Today is 08/06/2005..Its one year since I started work...

Happy one year anniversary!!!!

Many things have changed in this one year...

1) I am single now..

2) I dun stay in AMK anymore..

3) I dun bear any hopes that I can go to Aust and study anymore..

4) But I have more friends...Friends that truly care...u!!!

Last night, I left work at around 11pm..its the lastest thus far since i started work...and I hope that it will be the lastest even until the very day I leave. Luckily, there was nice people staying around to chat with me, and I watched TV in between the times when I had nothing to do. At 10.30pm, I even comtemplated to sleep in the lab, I was so tired and confused that i felt like crying in front of the monitor...But in the end, I still decided to go home. Aloy, Thad and Lewis all offered to drive me home, if they had a car...but they did not..haha..its ok..its the thoughts that count!! =) Junfeng was nice too, even though he did not offer to drive me home, he waited for me online...haha..when i went home, i still saw him online..haha..he was really waiting for me..I really dunno if he is "ting hua" or stoopid..haha..anyway..it was nice of you to accompany me until i wanted to sleep. And for that, you shall get ya birthday present!! And the mice is still part of the present wor...

Junfeng and I chatted about many things, some pretty lame stuff really..like what his favourite cartoon character was...I shall not say for now...You guys (who know Junfeng) can guess!! Do it in the tagboard!! Its really hilarious..the right winner shall be crowned "The Ultimate Genius" by me..haha...We also talked about gals..about how guys like gals that needed to be protected..Amongst us, I think BL and SL are really gals that guys would fall in love with, because they seem so fragile that every men wants to take care of them, no offence gals, but I envy you..HowI wish men would wanna protect me too...but I guess I am just too head-strong...or perhaps my looks already scared them off?? haha...maybe I should start covering my mouth with a flowery handkerchief when I laugh, instead of throwing my head back and clapping my lap..haha..sometimes, it feels like a an orang utan...

My project has not been going well, at least for today...that means i will have to repeat it again..Was helping Prof Urs look for another LO to replace me when i go, so i seeked Dr Forday's help. In one day, there is already 15 replies, and its still counting...that proves that there are really many people out there in need of a job...haha...

Oh, and yes...to correct what i said yesterday...
I would stay single a longer time...not all my life...
These attention and love I am getting from friends are overwhelming...but I dun think they will shower me with love forever, cos once they find someone themselves, they wun care about me anymore le...**weep weep**
At least thats what I think...
So in the meantime..I still wanna wait for my "white horse prince".

It feels good to be able to openly flirt again...to know that there is someone who appreciates you and would stay up late just to talk to you...
It feels good when someone msgs you a sweet-lil-nothing and make you blush just by staring at the msg...

Buuuuuuuut....its always like this when you are single...and only when you are single..
And when you are attached...everything becomes ashes..
All the promises made to you becomes dirt...and you become dirt...
I don't like that...Really really don't...
I hate empty promises...
Maybe thats y I am scared to commit...
Being woo-ed is better than woo-ed already...
I dun wanna be a past tense...
I wanna be the future tense...

|6:12 PM|

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Tuesday - Another Tuesday!!

I haven been able to sleep recently, again...

About one month ago, Pheooona passed me 10 pink and white pills, in an envelop that said "Don't kill yourself with this!!"

Until yesterday, there was still at least 5 left..

So gals and boys, dun worry, I am not overdosed yet...

I really wanna thank those gals and guys who stood by me all this while,

who laughingly asked how I was, who advised me not to eat pills, who dated me out as often as they can..

I really appreciate it...

If losing a man exchanges some much more in my life, I rather be single all my life..

just to be loved by everyone else that I love too..

***

Met Thad online today..

Thad said he is happy that I am suffering a far worse fate than him,

I scolded him as usual and but reassured him that I am fine.

He told me he had always regarded me as a strong woman who dun tell lies,

therefore he will take my word that I am happy and fine.

I am flattered he has such respect for me.

But how true is it? To hear it from thad?

Strong? Sometimes I wonder myself..

Dun tell lies? Sometimes I lie to you that I am not free to meet you..Whaha..

**T H A D**

I have never done anything for you to care for me that much,

But I am happy you bother...

So I decided I shall be nice to you..

Take back that curse I casted on you years ago..

So that you can find a gal..

And lose ya "V" soon...

Heeee....

***

Rob got back from Taiwan yesterday

And he msged me..

He will bring me the cute vampire soon, he promised..

He asked if I am single now..

I asked him if it matters?

To him? Or whether i would get the vamp only if I were single...

He decided not to know the answer..

He is a very nice fren..

Many years back, I was very very upset over some family matters

And I called him out to talk to me...

It was in the wee hours of the night...

I weeped so badly in front of him..

And he just sat there with me..

Silently....

Many years later, I still appreciate that night...

Someone I know I will "love" Rob for the rest of my life,

And bcos of some history, I still feel apologetic to him...

But I am glad that we are still frens...

He msged me this morning again..

I hope I will see him more often in NUS..

He is a good fren...

Some man I would want as a fren for the rest of my life...

***

Vernon, my da-ge,

who never fails to comfort me with wise advice

Has found a galfren recently,

I often teased him about it..

I tell from the way he "speaks" that he is very very happy..

And deep down in my heart,

I feel happy for him too...

He makes me feel protected in a brotherly way...

And I like him for that...

***

These men,

Some whom I know for more than half a decade,

Definitely do not have evil/horny/bad intentions on me..

They do not want me to be their galfrens definitely,

But they still care...

Its not true that men are only nice to you when they want you to be their gals...

At least, for these nice guys of mine...

=)

|2:32 PM|

Monday, June 06, 2005

A Lot Like Love

Hey Gals, try this webbie and and the quizzes..its fun!!
http://alotlikelove.movies.go.com/

I wanna watch the show...really really want to!!!!

MAN WANTED!!

Requirements:

Tall dark and handsome

Able to fork out $9.50 for the tix and another $6.50 for popcorn

**If no men are found, gals: please save my already diminishing loveflame by writing my HP no on the backs of bus seats and get some horny old man to call me ok?? thanks!!**

Check out the trailers too..its hilarious...and deadly romantic!!!

"I'll be there for you!!"

This 5 words,

I swear to you.

I will drop dead at his feet for someone to say that to me!!

|12:03 PM|

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Do I Still Love Him?

It was easy noticing him...
It was easier to fall in love in with him...
But it was NEVER easy to loving him...

HE was a reserved man...
HE never told many people about his stuff..
I guess he plucked up lots of courage to open up to me..
And for that,
I am grateful to him..
For loving me so faithfully that he trusted me enough..
But somehow,
In the status that we were together for 2 and a half years..
I felt that he never told me enough,
Often he is still holding things back from me..
Anyway, who am I to critcise?
HE was right...
I never opened myself to him too....

I promised to watch Madagascar with him..
I was determined in keeping that promise...
Until I got pissed off by him yesterday,
And to spite him,
I decided to watch it with Darren and Siewling..

Sometimes I really dunno myself...
Did I really care about meeting him at all?
Maybe not...
But if anything was to be learnt yesterday?
I found one more thing I want in THE MAN..
He must be decisive..
He must be able to give me answers,
Instead of asking me questions..
I really want to put down my strong front..

To the people I know, and do not know,
I may seem hard to handle...
Definitely not the kind of gal you wanna take in ya hands,
To give love and hugs to..
But deep down inside,
Which girl do not need a man's shoulder?

This morning,
HE told me that he does not want me to be just a "friend"
And I told him I do not wanna be his "galfriend"
Thus I forced him to "name" our status..
Strangers? Ex-steads? Ex-schoolmates?
In the end,
We still did not come to an answer...

I told him that I am hanging out with some new friends,
Guys that I might fall in love in the future...
He asked me to treat him like one of them..
Bcos all guys are the same,
They do not wanna be your "friend"
They all want you to be their "galfriend"
It kinda shocked me to hear that from him,
But deep down in my heart,
I wonder how true that statement is...

|11:12 PM|

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

**BUSTED**

I think my boss thinks I am foolishly and hopelessly stupid.

How can I make such an idiotic mistake?

Audrey: You may think that you are smart, but really, please don't act smart. Or at the very least, read and make sure before you open ya frigging mouth.
You're doomed...you are hopelessly idiotic.

I told some of my friends that I wanna be single for a long long time.
Told some others that I wanna move on, find a rich handsome man and then marry him straightaway.

But I myself, am very confused.

There are men, maybe boys, after me. Or at the very least dating me out. But I am reluctant to.

Reluctant to make up and dress nicely for a first date.
Reluctant to answer sms-es.
Reluctant to even give them my HP no.

I am afraid. Afraid to commit myself.

Or maybe I have yet to let go.

I am not ugly. I am not stupid too.

I just have not found my sandy beach.

|12:05 PM|

Friday, May 27, 2005

Life is boring!!

My life is boring, boring-er and boring-er, day by day.

I need to spice up my life....

GSS is coming and I have no kakis to go shopping....sucks...

I am bored...dead bored...

**Yawnz**

Life's a bitch!!

|11:40 PM|

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Smile gals!! Its 4d3n in Bangkok!! Good food...and shop till you drop!!!! 

|11:15 AM|

Our first lunch at the Porky Restaurant!! Thailand is really not halal-friendly!! They all love pork!!!! 

|11:14 AM|

Day 1 - Shopping at Lumpini NIght Bazaar!! Loved those lights!! SoOoO pretty!! 

|11:13 AM|

Sleeping soundly on the cosy bed in Twin hotel Hotel..Luckily I still look pretty when I am sleeping!! Phew!! 

|11:12 AM|

Day 2 - Bright and awake and ready for shopping!!!!! 

|11:12 AM|

Waiting for the Tuk-tuk to drive us to MBK for shopping and more shopping!! 

|11:10 AM|

We were really bored!!! Haha..MIchie still trying hard to shit!! 

|11:09 AM|

Dead!! In Gloria Jeans waiting for MBK to open shop!!!

|11:09 AM|

Day 3 - Massive shopping at Chatuchak and then a rewarding leg Massage for THB 300...with lots of fun trying to get them sing my favorite Thai song to me!!!

|11:07 AM|

Supper in Karnmanee....LuUuv the garlic bread and mangoes!! YUmmy!! 

|11:06 AM|

Shopping at Chatuchak Market.....Tired, oily and hot!!!  

|11:05 AM|

Sunset 6000 miles above ground!!! Magnificent!!  

|11:04 AM|

On the way home!!! Peiqi is missing home!!! 

|11:03 AM|

Sunday, May 22, 2005

5 Days of Fun.Friends.Booze.Dance.Thailand.Handsome.Men.Shopping.Food.Sawadeeka!!!

Dead beat from Retail Therapy...

Day 0: Highlight Hair/Meeting up/ Clubbing
Took half a day off and left work at 12pm to go Bak Kut Teh lunch with Kokting and the rest. That stall at Zion Road really has nice soup. I like it. I always fantasize about the soup at Zion Road + Bak Kut at Alexander!! Great combo - Nice and yummy!!
After lunch, I went to city hall to meet up with Fiona. Since I was early, I decided to shop around at Mango and M)phosis. Shopping on a weekday afternoon is real fun and enjoyable! Quiet and nice!! I will have more chances of doing this when i start school!!
When Fio came, we went straight to Funan to cut and highlight my hair. Paying only $80 for it..so I am excited!! I had always wanted to highlight my hair, but nv had the chance to.. Now is finally the time!! At the salon, the lady who did my hair was chatty and nice..the only bad thing was that she was doing two customers at the same time..so she left me sitting around for quite some time. Well, time was not my major issue. I was pretty worried that my hair will turn out tooo gold!! So i sat with my fingers crossed all the time....When my hair was done(after a long 4hrs), I was elated...The highlights were nice..at least I loved it!! I like the orange and brown tones...nice nice!!! Met up with the rest of the gals and took a cabbie down to Zouk. Had to give Dbl 0 a pass because the NTU bash starts at 1030..I was a little disappointed..but who cares...we were still going to drink and drink and drink...haha...
The cheapo plan was to enter by Phuture so that we can save the $16 for the ticket. At the door, my Delifrance bread was confiscated...Com'on...as if I will be seen eating bread in Zouk!! And then this very-short-but-think-he-is-very-handsome-and-cool kuku bouncer tried to make things difficult for me...he refused to stamp my hand!! Duh~..and why?? Because I asked (a little quite loudly) "What does he want?" just when i entered. By that, I actually meant to ask if we needed to surrender or show anything to the bouncers...Then this sucker-moron-son-of-a-bitch said, "What do i want? You dun wanna a chop?" And then he pushed my hand away and chopped someone behind me...*Fucking Jackass!!* I gave him a glare and walked away...One thing and another happened and we had to leave Phuture...and then something and another happened and we had to enter Phuture again. Damned! I dreaded that. I cannot bear to see that jackass again...see that smirk when he say "Dun wanna chop huh?" I really wanted to kick him in his groin and walk away....Luckily, he was not doing the stamping by then...but from the corner of my eyes, I saw his eyes light up when he saw me...but nevertheless, he did not try anything funny!! Mambo night is fun...many sing-alongs..Drinking is fun too....After two tequila shots and some apple shooters, I got a bit high and was ready to party....After that, I had beer and tequila pop...what a combo.....!! But no, I wasn't drunk...But it was fun anyhow!!! =)

Day 1: Flying to Bangkok
Itinery:
1055: Fly
1255: Arrive Bangkok
1400: Shopping at Siam Centre, MBK for Mango, M)phosis, nice tops and BRAS!!
1830: Night Market at Lumpini
0001: Cup noodles for supper and cocktails at the bar

Surviving only on 4hrs of sleep, I dragged myself to the airport on bus 858. Surprisingly, I was very very awake...Met up with the gals (namely Michie, Deborah and PeiQi) at the airport. The plane was delayed by half an hour. Not a good sign!! But other than that, everything went quite smoothly...The Thai air steward was damn shuai!! His name is Chachana..haha..yes..his name is funny but he is shuai!!!! =) Reached Bangkok happy and refreshed...and took a Volvo to our hotel - The Twin Tower Hotel. Nice cosy hotel with friendly staff...Would definitely go back again!! First stop: Bangkok City Centre...There was some many things I was looking forward to...cheap bras, cheap m)phosis, cheap mango....but I was wrong...M)phosis is at least 30% more expensive in Bangkok..Sad sad...Mango was the same price..so there was no point in splurging my THB...bought many cute tanks though!! Got cheated once or twice...But got used to it after awhile... Had porky noodles for lunch and thai BBQ for dinner...nice and cheap....but maybe a little too spicy!!! I think that Thailand is not very halah-friendly..everything has pork in it!! No wonder I seldom see Malays in thailand...
After dinner, we went to Lumpini Night Market. Nice touristic spot which reminds me of Holland V and Malaysia's Mont Kiera...Everyone bought something there..We took 4 frigging hours to walked a whole section of the market..By then it was already 1130pm, and we were dead beat!! And to think there are 4 sections in all...
There, I heard a very nice Thai song...its nice and it keeps ringing in my head!! I like thai songs and the way they speak...Haha... I like Thai men too!!
Went back to the hotel and drank at the lounge..there was supposed to be live music..but when we arrived..the pianist left already..so sad...anyway, we were all abit hungry so we decided to walk out and get some cup noodles...my gosh...thailand cup noodles are delicious!!! Went to bed a little after 1am...I slept sooo sooo soundly...I wish I stay in Thailand every night!!! =)

Day 2: Shopping and more shopping!!
Itinery:
0800: Breakfast
0900: Take Tuk-tuk to MBK
1030: Shopping at MBK for BRAS!!
1600: Went back to hotel for Thai Massage
1830: Set off to Chinatown for bird's nest, seafood and titbits

Breakfast was a chore. There were soo many people at the restaurant. Soo many Singaporeans that I felt like I was in Singapore.. So many Japanese that they got abit irritating...
We left for more shopping at MBK on a tuk tuk..that ride was fun..All 4 of us could sit on the tuk-tuk and it somehow reminded me of the Visa card advert.. The driver was serving left and right and it was soo soo fun...The 4 of us kept giggling on the tuk-tuk!! We reached MBK a little too early. So we decided to walk around, in then end, we ended up at Gloria jeans and we had some juices while we waited for the shops to open. We combed MBK level by level and at the last level..I finally found my Wacoal bra shop...I tried many many and bought many many bras..Spent at least 2000THB (~S$80) on my bras!! Haha..I was happy nevertheless, until I wen t into Tokyu Dept Store and saw Wacoal Bras...on sale somemore!! @#$%^&*~!! Nvm, tourists are meant to be cheated..I reminded myself!! Lunch was at the food court, with 400THB, we ordered many dishes and we ate our fill....My favorite was the mango..it was soooo soooo sweet...yummy!!! After shopping for a straight 5hrs+, we decided to head back to the hotel for a full body massage. It was then I met another fucking-moron-son-of-a-bitch-jackass!! This kuku in brown uniform(he is supposed to be a Thailand policemen, but i shall not and will not address him as one cos i despise him) , and he stopped my cabbie because he saw me taking off my seatbelt. He wanted to fine me THB1000, and I argued with him. In the end, he said to give him THB500 and he will not issue me the ticket. The gals at the back seat told me to give him the money and I had no choice but to give it to him!! I dun wanna end up in the police station because I was seen without a safety belt. Anyway. no one offered to share the fine with me..so apparently I had to foot the bill myself...Come to think of it, I should have bargained with him...maybe THB300? If he dun want, then i will pay the summon..no big deal wat!!
I hate thailand kukus in brown uniforms!!!
Anyway, we headed back to the hotel for a full body massage...Nice!! THB560 for a full one hour massage!! Very very comfy and relaxing!! Just felt abit strange naked knowing there are 3 other gals in the same room!! Michie and Debbie tried traditional thai massage..and I could feel them being moved all over the bed...Haha...
After the massage, we headed for Chinatown to buy titbits and eat some bird's nest, sharksfin and seafood. We planned for a cabaret too, but hearing that it was THB600, we decided to spend the money on some other stuff!! We had fish, prawns, mussels and bird's nest at Chinatown, the same stall I went to some years back. The stall still looked the same, and the food still tasted as good!! Paid THB1000 altogether!! Yummy!! We then walked without a motive for more titbits!! Haha..it started raining..and we all more abit sianz so we decided to go back to the hotel for drinks and the live music that we missed the previous night!! We were pretty impressed to see teenagers in big raincoats holding umbrellas to shelter pedestrians across the roads!! I guess it must be some measures taken to reduce road accidents, anyway, it was nice of whoever who tot of it!! A big kissey to you, and thanks for getting a cabbie for us!! =) Drinks was fun, and the pianist was nice too. I loved Elton John and he played Elton JOhn for me!! Although his English wasn't very good, I thought he sounded ok!! Haha..anyway, at 0001am, we said goodnite and went back to bed!! ZzZzZz..........

Day 3: Shopping at the Chatuchak Market
Woke up early to take van transfer to Karnmanee Palace. Day 3's aim was to go shop at Chatuchak for the whole day!! The first impression of the Karnmanee Hotel was that it was very "thai".. It was not as budget as I imagined it to be...so it was a good sign!! We left very very quickly to go to Chatuchak as we were all anxious to do more shopping!! It was raining and the hotel staff were nice enough to go out in the rain to get a cab in for us!! We were all so touched!! Anyway, when we went to Chatuchak, it was still wet!! But shopping was soo soo fun, because stuff were sooo sooo mmuch cheaper?? Singaporeans were everywhere, and I really hated the way they stare at you when they knew that you are also a fellow Singaporean!! Aiyo, what's so nice to see?? Never see S'poreans b4 mahz?? Duh!! Anyway, I bought many tees, racer tops and accessories!! But it was very humid and stuffy, so after a while, everyone got a little fustrated and irritable. We walked pass a nice hut which provided leg massage for THB300!! All of us agreed to splurge on massage again!! The staff were friendly and fun...I tried to sing them the Thai song that I kept hearing over the radio and described to them how the singer looked like. They all wrecked their brains to help me figure out who the hell that was. After a while, when I suddenly remember the tune, I hummed it to them and they all got so excited!! Haha...we laughed soo loudly that everyone started staring at us!! Haha..it was really fun!! After the long day, we decided to head back to the hotel. But no cabbie knew where the hell our hotel was, I tried at least 10 cabs b4 we found a cabbie who "knew" where the hotel was!! Well, at least we got back safely!! Dinner was at BigC Centre. We ate at a restaurant which was like Simply Thai, only the prices are cheaper and the food sooo sooo much nicer!! We had Tim Yum Kung, Mama noodles, crispy squid, mango salad (my fave) and freezy frosties ...Yummy!! All for only THB700!! After that was shopping at the BigC supermarket, something like Carrefour!! I bought two Triumph bras and some nice titbits and more mangoes!! =) Anyway, that bra sales girl was funny, when she wanted to ask Deb if she wanted padded bra, she asked, "you want big big?? or small small??" Haha....
Went back to the hotel to watch TV, talk cock and then eat mangoes!! Yummy yum!!

Day 4: Shopping at Chatuchak and Back to Sinagpore
Day 4's aim is to buy stuff that we did not buy yesterday! Spent about half an hour locating stores!! I did not buy much, just a bag for my aunty!! It was stuffy and humid again, making me irritable, again!! Oh yah, and I made an Angora rabbit sneeze like nobody's business!! I blew some air on it and then it started sneezing and sneezing...haha..oh my!! It was actually allergic to me!! Haha...Shitzus were only selling at THB2100=SGD80+, even b4 bargaining!! I want a dog!! I want!!
After a while. we all got too tired so we left earlier then expected. Went back to the hotel to catch a short nap b4 heading to the airport!! Our flight was at 1645hrs!! Missing home already!! Haha..had KFC as lunch b4 we boarded the plane. While having lunch, we kept hearing "Singapore Singapore" over the sound system!! Apparently only Singaporeans needed to be reminded to board airplanes? There were really soo many people who were late for their flights. Yes we were laughing at them, until we also were late for our flight!! So we basically ran across the whole terminal to our gate which was at the extreme end of the airport!! **Never fly budget, the gates are crazy, they are soo soo far, you think that you have already reached Singapore by the end of all the walking**
Got to see my handsome Chachana on board again. Somehow he does not look as handsome as I first saw him!! =(
Reached Sinagpore at around 2000hrs, and I had to take a bus home..my god!! My luggage was insanely crazy with the two bottles of liquor in my backpack and I looked damned stupid carrying the gigantic goodies bag!! Anyway, to save that 20 bucks, I had no choice!! To make things worse, I realised that 858 stops only outside 888 plaza, so I need a 10 mins walk back home!! Gosh, with that 10kg load, I really wished I never went to Thailand. But, anyway, I gritted my teeth and TREKKED through 888 and reached home with tired shoulders!! =(

Well, thats about my Thailand trip!!
I intend to go Thailand again soon, when my bra supply runs low and when I have more money to shop..so date me yah!! *Muacks*

|11:39 PM|

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Single Life - Getting used to it.....

I think I am very brave.....funny and irritating at the same time...Haha..

Yesterday, I finally met up with Lewis to talk things thru'.

What did we talk about?
Nothing much - that he do not wanna break up but I wanna break up....
Why do I wanna break up?
Because I am not happy in this relationship...
Why does he want me back?
Because he still likes me and he now knows he is wrong.
Why did he say nasty things to me on that fateful day?
Because he was angry he cant find a bunch of keys and he blamed himself for being late and then he saw my black face, so he decided to continue being angry instead of coaxing me....
And blah-blah-blah....

Then I got fed up and tired..I was about to tear now and then..and to prevent myself from really tearing , I excused myself to go home...Erm..actually because I needed to pee......

So I walked very fast....He chased behind me..Shouting for me to stop and listen...

I stopped..irritated and URGENT....and screamed "What?"

He started mumbling"...I..know...its...my..fault..."

I was pissed,"Can you dun mumble? I cant hear you?"

"I really did not mean it...." he mumbled, softly....

"Its over..I dun love you anymore. You should have said sorry on that day..not 3 weeks after we broke up..."

"I know...and you must understand...I really wanna be with you.,...Can we be together again??"

"I NEED TO GO HOME NOW..I WANNA GO TOILET LA..." I hissed........

And off i ran back home.....

When I reached home, and finished pee-ing, I thought it was quite bad of me to do that...but its really over...I dun feel anything anymore...I am happy being single...Or at least..I aint hating it....

I think I will be single for quite some time, I dunno how easy is it for me to fall in love again...

The next man I meet, I hope I marry him...And grow old with him...

I hate breakups, they are kinda sad....

Yup, so i will take my time and find the right man...

That rich, nice, handsome, caring, loving, patient, prince who will arrive in shining armor, on a white horse...to envelop me in his bearly hug, onto the horse with him....

|11:44 AM|

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Thats My Gram!! SoOoO pretty right? She is uncanny to my Aunty!!! Anyway, she is the best best Gram in the world!!! I think the brows were ugly though!!! =) 

|3:55 PM|

Thats my grandparents wedding pic!! I think he looks like a Jappy soldier!!! EwWww.... 

|3:52 PM|

Thats Me and Shufen - My Bestest Fren in Secondary School - Oh what happy and innocent smiles!! 

|3:50 PM|

Friday, May 13, 2005

Thursday - Life's a Bitch

I skipped the pill last night..
Cause Fiona's and BL's voices kept ringing in my mind..
"You shouldn't depend on it too much..."
I was awake on my bed--- for one hour,
B4 I finally fell asleep....
A bad sleep..
Interupted by dreams like my cousin got chicken pox,
And that Prof Moore grew a moustache!!
I just popped a pill, [0033hrs, 13/05/05]
And I am feeling sleepy already.
I will be sleeping after this entry.
Congratulate me!!

Met up with MH, SL and FIo.
The plan was to bitch..
About men,
About life,
About studies,
About life.
OoOpz, I forgot to let you guys know I am planning to get a tattoo this June...
Well, now you know!!!
I love you gals...
And I wanna let you know I treasure all your love, care and friendship.
Please be careful.
I might just kiss you on Wed!!
But maybe not Fio..
I dun wanna taste ya bleeding gums and feel the stitches..
Yucky yuckZzZ..

Shufen smsed.
And said I looked FAT.
I am happy!!
Extremely delighted!!
I am always happy when people tell me I look fat...
But not when they say I have a big tummy.
I know that fact,
And I am trying best to trim it down.
So pls pls pls,
Dun remind me ok?
Please only say I look fat!!
And I will give you,
My sweetest, most dazzling toothy trademark smile!!
Anyway,
She dated me to chill.
I said yes, of course!
I miss her a whole lot...
Heaps and heaps of misses!!!
But I really doubt I will see her tml...
My fingers are crossed!!

Good nitez..time for bed...
Pinky is kicking into action now.
Pinky is the name of my pill btw...
I just thought of the name..
Cool yeah??

|12:21 AM|

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

A Good Nite Sleep

It just took one pink pill...To rock me to sleep...

Within an hour, I was in a daze! I said good-nights to my friends on MSN and went to bed. The pill had a rock-me-to-sleep-on-a-cradle kinda effect. I slept very very well, something that I had missed since some time ago. No, I did not dream of a tall, dark handsome guy. So of course I did not get to kiss him!! But anyway, I am still happy that I finally had a good good sleep.

Today is a good day.
For one, I booked my basic theory test. I never wanted to do it in the past , bcos I always thought that I would be lucky enoughed to be ferried around. But nowadays, I guess I just have to wake up my idea..I took 3 tries at the photo-taking machine. Finally chose a nice-enough pic for my application! Guess the guy likes me..haha..others only had one try!! See..it takes a B cup and a pretty face to get such treatment!! Way to go MH!!! Haha...

And I got Performance Bonus, so happy!!! I now believe in Lillian Too; Create a vaccuum in your financial circle(give money to people) and more money will be sucked in. I gave up my NTU scholarship and now money flows in!! Hee...I am happy!!LV Change purse..Here I come!! You shall be a Made in France-Imported from Thailand-Stays in Singapore-Owned by Pretty Audrey purse!! Be proud and strong..we will brave the waves together!!!

Been bumming around at work recently. Not much to do, or so I am just plain lazy. I have stuff planned out, so I shall work hard next week! Now that I am rich, well richer, I can buy a nice top to go clubbing on Wednesday and get my Gucci without much guilt!! =)

|5:25 PM|

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

This is the updated version of a picture of Darren's birthday. Notice the Ah-ma and someone is missing!! And the colour is nicer!!! 

|3:53 PM|

NUS.Me.Money. Love-Hate Triangle

A biology patent lawyer,
A bio-statistician...
That sounds cool enough..
5 years to a BSc, Honours and Masters.
Major in Life Sciences,
Minor in Law or Stats.
That sounds cool too.
Student exchange to France, Switzerland or Germany,
Even China, Taiwan or Hongkong.
Sounds like heaps of fun.

But how? How the hell am I going to survive through this 5 years?
With a cap of 4.00 and above!
Or even 4.50....

With classmates that are 2 years younger,
Still spotting small jappy tees,
And micro-denim skirts.
I feel like an old hag.

I am anticipating NUS with open arms,
But a caged heart!!
I am apprehensive.
And at the same time,
Extremely excited!

I will survive..

Live thru' the 3 yrs,
Then the 4th.
Then think of the 5th.

For all I know,
It will be all but a breeze......

|2:37 PM|

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Insomnia - Sleepless nights are dangerous...

I am losing sleep, something that I have never experienced in a long time. Well, I haven been single in a long time. I have resorted to getting pills from Fiona, cos all these sleepless nights have drained me out physically and mentally. I am becoming, like I always say, kuku...When I can't sleep, I think of all sorts of shit. I think of suicidal means and how maybe I should just die...I think of how many people have achieved what I always wanted - all by a pretty face and nice boobs, maybe I just shouldn't study so hard...

Sometimes I feel like crying, breaking out in hysterical sobs and wails, but I can only tear silently and discreetly on the bus. And I feel so bloody pathetic. I am too lazy and afraid to go to parks and seasides to cry. Too embarassed to cry in the bathroom or at home. So I can only weep silently in my bed, in front of this comp, and on lonely bus trips..

I feel like I have been dumped into a cold open sea, and right now, I am in the middle part of the sea, where the water is the deepest..I am struggling hard to stay afloat..but even when I swim to the other side of shore, what will happen?

I will be so god-damned alone on the island...

|12:47 AM|

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Perfumes = Taboo

Never never give perfumes to me, it's TABOO....

Last night, when I could not sleep, amongst thoughts of buying a pH meter and my sucky life, I suddenly realise that nothing good ever comes out of that sweet-smelling bottle...

Back in 2002, I gave a bottle of CK One to Tiong for his birthday, and we broke up in 4 months.
Last Xmas, Shufen gave me a bottle of Gucci Envy, and I haven seen her once in 4 months..She is supposed to be my best friend, mind you!
Last Xmas, Lewis gave me a bottle of Lancome Miracle, and ah-ha, we broke up within 5 months too...

So never never give me perfume, unless you never wanna see me again....

|12:43 PM|

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

TIRED like SHIT!!!

I am tired,
VERY TIRED......
Physically,
mentally and
emotionally.......

I feel like crying...
On the bus,
when I'm walking home,
and now, infront of this comp. ...

Try giving tuition every night,
try bleeding for a few days!!!!

I hate bread.
If I can,
I'll kill all bakers,
destroy all yeast.
Then there will be no more bread.
No more!!!!!!

I need a proper dinner,
I need care and love,
I need hugs and kisses,
I need SLEEP.
Lots of it!!!!!!!!!!

Good night!!

|10:47 PM|

Baolian, Me and Fiona!!! 

|5:51 PM|

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Family matters most!!

I realised how wonderful my family is...

My cousin messaged me, rather awkwardly, and told me that she did not really knew how to console me, but that I could always talk to her if I needed help...I was touched, then a tear trickle down my cheek * spotted by a pimple*...

Next, I got a missed call from my aunt! I called back and she asked, rather awkwardly too, why I broke up with him. She told me that its a pity after 2 and a half years..and told me to think about it carefully...I cried again!!! I dun blame her, she dun read blogs......

So for people who reads it, dun ask me why...I really will cry...

|12:08 PM|

Monday, May 02, 2005

A long weekend........

Slacking on Saturday and then attending Darren's birthday....Was quite a nice party and I realised that Darren's face is photocopied onto his sis's face. They looked so alike...Haha....And they are a good lot of kids, very "kuai"!! Unlike me, haiz...whatever, I can't be bothered to be a good girl anyway....

After the party at Darren's house, we went to Acid bar for the chips!!! Yes, the chips, not the drinks!! Haha..the spicy chips there are just soooo addictive...yummy!!! We wolved down the chips so fast that the waiter did 4 refills..after a while, they decided not to help us refill, so we were kinda eating more than we were drinking..whahah!!

Reached home at 3:17am, and woke up Sunday morning 10am for tuition.
I had 4 tuitions in a row that morning - a total of 6 hrs of tuition and surviving only on 2 pcs of bread, 1 stick of fishballs, 6 hours of sleep with a bad headache, I was so god-damned pissed-off at everything - late buses, naughty students, bad weather!!!
Nothing much to do at night so I finished my Catherine Barry book. The lead took off her breast implants after the silicone leaked. So she went back to 36A after being a 36C for like, a few months? Yucks, 36A. Thats kinda scary. I am now happy with what I have...haha!!

Monday morning, the lousy bee hoon from 888 again. I told myself times and again that I will not buy anymore bee hoon from her..but every weekend I am boound to eat her yucky bee hoon!!! I hate it, it spoils my day!! In the noon, went to Chinatown to eat DIY Popiah!! Not as nicey as my gram's but it was at the very least "edible". I liked the crayfish with the nice steamed man-tou!! (At this point, I think of Cai's and Yinman's baby - a little joke I made up!! Haha) Next, it was a very sunny and sweaty walk back to Chinatown MRT and then back to Woodlands.

At night, he messaged me, and asked me on a movie. I rejected him. I don't understand why he can always act as if nothing happened. I told him to get out of my life (in a nice way at first) but he told me lots of stories about why I was wrong and stuff like that. He must be outta his mind. So I told him i hated him and asked him to fuck off!! I shan't be bothered, he always has a good way with his words and that struck me sometimes. But this time, I am determined my decision is right, and thus, I shall stick to that......

|6:58 PM|

Saturday, April 30, 2005

Saturday - Lousy Day!!

Lousy Reason No 1: Woke up because I was very hungry, was actually deciding to sleep till ten plus!! Yucks!!

Lousy Reason No 2: Found an ulcer on the right side of my tongue!! Double yucks!!

Lousy Reason No 3: Need to go for tuition at Springleaf!! Yucky yucks!!

Anyway, here's the link to all the farni poems (including the bedsheet gal, stain boy, melon head, gal with many eyes and gal who stare - they are my fav!!) Check it out!!

http://homepage.tinet.ie/~sebulbac/burton/home.html

Cheerios!! And ulcers sux!!

|9:08 AM|

Friday, April 29, 2005

Friday - A good day!!

Today is Friday, 29th April 2005.

Many things and one miracle happened today, and I made many decisions today.

Miracle No 1:: My secondary school "bestest" buddy, Shufen, smsed me at 06:27:16 and wished me good morning and initiated a meet-up. Well, the miracle is that she actually woke up at half past 6 in the morning?? and also that she wants to meet me? Haha..who cares.. Anyway, in the end, she couldn't make it. So, next time maybe....
Anyway, me and her used to be soo close, we even wrote letters and little dark secrets to each other in our Pa-Di-Xiong diary...We talked to each other about every little thing, and she was always by my side...I just missed the good times we had.
They always bring a smile back....

Happy thing No 1: I took half day's leave!! =)

Happy thing No 2: Hi-tea at Marriott with Fiona and Baolian [Meihua did not make it - gotta smacked you for this!!!! *takes out a whip and burning candle*] Yummy food - the laksa was fantastic!!! Cooked by a nerdy-looking chef who looks like he likes me..Whahah...

And our usual chit-chatting session was fun too!! **smacks Meihua again** A whole lot went to my NTU / NUS dilemma, and some about Fiona's Aust plans, Baolian's school-life and love-life, and of course, about annoying people...especially men....

Happy thing No 3: Shopping!!! Bought a nicey-little-skirt for Darren's party tomorrow!!! Wanted to splurge on a M)phosis top, but they do not have my size and to top it up, the salesgirl was an arrogant 4-eye-cock who only knew how to say "Dun have!! Dun have!!" **stick the hangar up her hairy arse!!**

Happy thing No 4: I irritated Baolian and Fiona with my ability to tell jokes, they were just plain jealous!! Its real funny but they refused to laugh at it...Well, it goes like this....

There was a gal who loves to wear clothes that looked like bedsheets (with ugly pink flowers and stuff), then, in the end, she turned into a bed. **Imagine**A gal with a dress that looks like your bedsheets, turning into a bed, with her head as the headboard and the limbs as the bed legs** Isn't it just hilarious??


Decision No 1: I have decided to let some of my frens know about my dark little secret..

I broke up with him..

Please try not to ask me "why?" ok??
1st: I might just start crying....
2nd: I wish to reserve the who-is-right-and-who-is-wrong to myself as I dun wanna be a "kiss-and-tell"...I still hope we remain as frens as I was happier when we were "just friends"...

**Sorry to the people that I met and pretended that nothing happened, I just did not want to rake up the story, in case I cry...** hee =)

Decision No 2: I have decided to turn down NTU and take NUS. Brave one eh?? Well, I pondered upon it for many days, weighed the pros and cons, and with the help of some nice frens and colleagues, I finally chose the latter. Many things worth pondering included the workload, the reputation, and of course, the god-damned $$$!! But well, I will decline the scholarship tomorrow morning!!!
**Baolian: I am really sad I cant be your classmate again...that was also one of my considerations...but I still love you as a fren!!! Hee**

Decision No 3: I am going to Thailand....Yipppeee...with Michie, Deb and Peiqi, my colleagues from NUS. With air tix and hotel, it adds up to less than $300 bucks, and its all on NUS!! Yipppppeee again!! Haha...can't wait can't wait!!! Wacoal bras..Bird nest...Sharks fin...Ah gua....here i come!!!

Good nitez!! **Yawnz**

And last but for least for 29/04/05 - 30/04/05,

**Happy 21st Birthday Darren!!**

If world peace did not come true, wish for a hairy butt or more leg hairs, they are fun!!! =)

|11:08 PM|

Monday, April 25, 2005

CrossRoads...

NUS or NTU?? NUS or NTU?? This freaking question has been hurting my poor little brain for the past few days...

When people have no choice, they are stuck with whatever they have, no matter how much or how little. I guess I should be lucky, that I am in the position to choose, and not letting others choose me. But now, because of the choices I have, I am at a dilemma.

NUS has accepted me, but it has not invited me for a scholarship yet (not that they will, but maybe, just maybe, they might *fingers crossed*). NUS is top-20 world-wide, and has a Prof Urs that I can always come back to for my honours, if I ever make it. But the length of my university studies is still unknown, depending on how well i do, how many modules i take and how i fare for the advance placements. Sounds complicated, yeah it is.....

NTU has accepted me too, and godblessme, granted me scholarship. What does it comes with? $5k each year and all school fees...ain't I blessed?? But NTU is top 50 in the world...and it definitely does not sound as good as NUS. I may be biased, but thats how the whole world go about. Your certs and your qualifications. Give me the shit about it is who you are that impress the employer...will he just dump my resume out because I am from NTU and not NUS?? But going to NTU, I am going to have a easy life, all is planned out for me. I have lots of frens there (not forgetting I am going to be BL classmate once again...).

I am tempted with the money and the easy life in NTU, but am greedy for the reputation and whatsoever you call it in NUS.

Can someone just tell me what I should do?

**Hugs and kisses to pheoona and BL for their invaluable advice..Kokguan as well (sorry i cant kiss you)...and many others..In the meanwhile (next 7 days), I will think hard, real hard..............

PS: I am hiding something, something that none has known...I wanna make sure I am right this time..

Clear my mind

Follow my heart

I will tell

When I am at peace with what I decide

|2:36 PM|

Monday, April 18, 2005

Gram - I miss you so!

A picture of me and my grandmother sits by my bedside. It is one of the very few that I have and the only one that I keep, so dearly.....

Yesterday, out of fun, I took a picture of the photograph on my Samsung. Saved it and set it as my wallpaper. Its very blur, but still I could see my grandmother's smile clearly on it. Its been 2 years, and the pain of her leaving has kinda died down. I don't weep in my bed anymore, and I don't tear on a lonely bus journey anymore. Not that i don't miss her, but its become a dull, blurred memory...one that often brings sweet memories as we joke about her during family gatherings.

Last night, after the Newcastle - Man U match, I went to bed. I had the most upseting dream - a dream of my gram, dying again... In the god-damned dream, she was at our AMK home, in her blue pyjamas that I will always remember, bed-riddened and dying. I could see her face clearly, nothing like in the smiling picture. I don't know what it meant, but it did not symbolise anything about happiness. I don't remember much of our conversation, just some about telling me to study hard. I guessed I must have cried in my dreams, because this morning when i woke up, my eyes were so full of shit that I couldn't open my eyes. I do not believe in supernatural powers, but when it comes to my grandmother, I always think otherwise. The saddest thing in my life is that I disappointed her while she was alive. And I am regretful and sorry about that, to her, and to myself...

I never fail to tear whenever I think about her. Never fail to love and then miss her even more. And the memories of my childhood never fail to overwhelm me at these times....I remember her bringing a cane down to the playground and chasing me across the whole neighbourhood to threaten me to go home for dinner. I remember how she waited up for me one Mid-Autumn night while I was at the playground, playing with fire and candles. I remember how she would boast to all the aunties how smart I am or how ugly I looked as a kid, and the way she would glow with pride when a neighbour praised that I was smart or pretty. I remember how she always stands by the kitchen window and wave to me when i went to school or was coming home. I remember how hard it was for me and my brother to see her through her last journey, and how i managed to finally cry when the hard facts hit me that she died...

Sometimes I hope that she is still alive, to attend my grad ceremony or even nag at me to eat my dinner. I myself am very proud of my achievements, and i dearly wanted her to be proud of me as well, and to enjoy some of the good things that I can now afford to buy for her.

But that's impossible, never possible again....

|11:06 AM|

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Prof Urs, Myself, Priz & Mic at the XO Beehoon Place 

|1:20 PM|

Audrey - The Horoscope Gal

The Plus Side

You have the gift of seeing the best in people and are kind and caring to those who need your help. You have a lot of empathy - you can put yourself in someone else's shoes to imagine how they are feeling. Your optimistic attitude is contagious and helps friends to be more open-minded. You also love coming up with different ideas on how to solve a problem.

The Flip SIde

You are a Fire sign and with that comes impatience. You like to get moving and sometimes you fail to plan things out in detail. (Wrong, when i go for interviews, I never fail to say that I am METICULOUS!!) You also can be very sensitive and get your feelings hurt when friends don't view the world as you do. Try not to be so preachy! Your friends get enough lectures in school! (Haha..that is soooooo me!!)

Likes·

Perfume· Being invited places· Being praised· Helping others

Dislikes·

Clothes that are too snug· Making promises·

Being in one place for too long· Having your honesty questioned

(from:yahooligans.com - the webby for kids)

Alcohoroscopes
In vino veritas -- and, for Sagittarius, in booze blurtiness:
When buttered, they'll spill all your secrets and many of their own. (I won't, i promise!!) Tactlessness aside, Sagittarius is just plain fun to drink with. (I play 5-10 quite well..haha) This is a sign of serious partying. They're the people who chat up everyone in the room(only the handsome guys), then persuade the entire crowd to travel somewhere else -- like a nightclub, or a playground. (Not true, i am usually the one who hates to leave) Good-natured hijinks are sure to ensue (including a high possibility of loopy groping; spontaneous Sag is a brilliant booty call).

How Bad is My Temper?
You are insensible and generally have complete no control over your emotions. You do get angry quickly and others marvel at your anger levels even when provoked. Actually, you get tongue-tied when angry (this is absolutely true; i cried once while quarreling with ah Ah Lian, so paiseh) and you will remove your anger waiting for the other person to calm down. Then you will reason with your opponent and convince the other person in a very gentle
manner that the whole thing was just his mistake . You're also likely to totally sever ties with someone when you're upset with them...

Lalala....this is so god-damn true!! Haha...Please tell me if I am not preachy, otherwise I can consider being an insurance agent..Haha...

|11:23 AM|

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

NUS / NTU Blues !!!

Last night, after a night's out with Fiona, Flora, Aloy, Darren and Shawn, I returned home (in a Merc) to see a big envelope, with a huge NUS logo on it. I kinda knew what it meant, but trying to swallow the facts slowly, i went to the loo first then came back to open the letter. It reads:

CONGRATULATIONS!! MISS AUDREY WANG SHIMEI

I AM PLEASE TO OFFER YOU ADMISSION TO NUS IN THE COURSE

LIFE SCIENCES

Your extraordinary academic achievement, hard work and determination has earned you a place in a truly global university acknowledged to be among the best in the WORLD!!

******************************

So haolian right? Erm..yes..i meant NUS, not me.

*********************

Well, actually I am very elated now that I get the offer from NUS, because in this case, I have options. But I am still tempted to go NTU, think of all the ease, no school fees, no worries for living expenses (that is, if I get my scholarship). Well, anyway, Fiona said:"Good things happen to people who wait!!" I shall wait and see, maybe stuff will work out real soon!!

***************************

**To Fiona: "Melbourne will take you too!! Good things happen to good people who waits!!"

!!Cheers!!

***************************************

To get exemption from the National HaoLian University (NHU), one has to sit for tests. Yes, i will have to sit for biochemistry, organic chemistry and genetics test to get the advanced credits. And the worst part is that I had absolutely no freaking idea what they are going to test me on, of course, apart from what the name suggests!!

|2:06 PM|

Monday, April 11, 2005

Woodlands Perverted Mr Underwear Strikes Again !!!

He striked again two nights ago!!
He used to steal only one or two wet underwears hanging out in my kitchen window. But two fateful nights ago, he became greedy and took my whole hanger away. Lots of underwear and my two Vanity Affair & Wacoal Bras!!! What a sucker!! My two naive cousins chose to believe that it might had been a poor old lady who stole underwear because her kids were going through puberty and she had no money to buy underwear..what a touching story!! I wish I am a kid too, so I can be merciful and kind towards this disgusting desperado too!! But I can't, now I gotta waste my money to buy new lingerie, because he freaking took mine away for whatever reasons.!! I curse that you get huge acnes on the inside of your nose if you took them to sniff, then ya nose will bleed when you are trying to dig the shit out of it!! Or you will get extremely itchy rashes if you wear them!!! Whahah... **wicked laughter***

Tuesday will be Fiona's birthday. We celebrated it early on Saturday at Siloso!! Too bad Baolian could not make it...Missed you gal!! Anyway, had great fun that day although we were playing stupid games like Wacko and number games...yes...what the heck!!! Haha...Then we had dinner at Chinatown, good food as usual...Zhong zhong wu xiang and bbq stingray..yummy!!!

Happy Birthday Girl!!! Cheerios to our friendship!!!

Gotta miss ya when you go to Aust!!!! **weeps**

Work will be boring this week, gotta optimize some assays so it means some work again and again!! Haiz.....But its pay day soon...wHooOohOoOO...!!! $$$$$$!!!!

|11:02 AM|

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Cooper Restaurant - where Shancai and Dao Ming Shi had ice-cream!!! Yummy!! 

|5:09 PM|

Gucci Glasses Gives Me Headaches

Its Thursday, and a bad day. First, i woke up to stare into the mirror to see my right eye red - AGAIN. And to make things worst, it hurts. Help me, I think I am going blind!! Its been like this since ages, and being vain, I refused to swop contacts for glasses. No, not vain. Glasses give me headaches, dull painful aches that sux!! and make my day even badder!! Lewis bought me a pair of Gucci frames but even that did not help. I need to save up for LASIK, being a 4-eye cock is no fun.

Lillian Too is my new found Love - Fengshui!!?! Year of Rooster is a good time to consolidate $$, not spend it. And a good way keep $$ is to string 3 chinese coins and place in it your wallet. Hmmm, I should do something like that. I think my wallet has a black hole, $$ always seems to disappear suddenly. I wanna buy sooo many things, my mustte tango, my burberrys bag, my plastic surgery (OoOpz!!). I think I sux, too much of a spendthrift. I need to change. Or should I not.

I think I sux (yes..again) at what I am doing. I should not touch any tubes or pipettes again. I never get the right thing, too much DNA, not enough samples, wrong Abs reading!!?! I should just go answer telephones calls and then argue with unreasonable people. That should be what I am best at.

***Audrey Out

|1:58 PM|