Sunday, December 04, 2005
I think, I think too much...
Everytime I pray or wish,
I wish for one thing..
To be happy, happier...
Smiling has become a muscle reflex action..
I wonder if I laugh out of sheer entertaining, or to drown my innermost pain,
People whom I always regarded as friends seems to be drifting away..
Others wear a mask and lie through their teeth, for whatever fucking motive I do not know,
I sometimes think that its my fault..
Or yah,
I think I think too much..
I am starting to curl myself up and protect myself like a porcupine..
Spilling out words that hurt people around me..
I am really really sorry...And no, I do not like being one...
I have been so uptight that I dun even think I had the time to sit down and think what I really want in life, for myself, and for the people around me..
I feel I am losing myself..
I wanna be the happy, carefree girl I used to be..
I need someone to guide me along..
On my birthday this year,
When I make my wish..
I will silently pray, "
I wanna be happier.."
|2:18 PM|
I am starting to curl myself up and protect myself like a porcupine..