Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Tuesday - Another Tuesday!!
I haven been able to sleep recently, again...
About one month ago, Pheooona passed me 10 pink and white pills, in an envelop that said "Don't kill yourself with this!!"
Until yesterday, there was still at least 5 left..
So gals and boys, dun worry, I am not overdosed yet...
I really wanna thank those gals and guys who stood by me all this while,
who laughingly asked how I was, who advised me not to eat pills, who dated me out as often as they can..
I really appreciate it...
If losing a man exchanges some much more in my life, I rather be single all my life..
just to be loved by everyone else that I love too..
***
Met Thad online today..
Thad said he is happy that I am suffering a far worse fate than him,
I scolded him as usual and but reassured him that I am fine.
He told me he had always regarded me as a strong woman who dun tell lies,
therefore he will take my word that I am happy and fine.
I am flattered he has such respect for me.
But how true is it? To hear it from thad?
Strong? Sometimes I wonder myself..
Dun tell lies? Sometimes I lie to you that I am not free to meet you..Whaha..
**T H A D**
I have never done anything for you to care for me that much,
But I am happy you bother...
So I decided I shall be nice to you..
Take back that curse I casted on you years ago..
So that you can find a gal..
And lose ya "V" soon...
Heeee....
***
Rob got back from Taiwan yesterday
And he msged me..
He will bring me the cute vampire soon, he promised..
He asked if I am single now..
I asked him if it matters?
To him? Or whether i would get the vamp only if I were single...
He decided not to know the answer..
He is a very nice fren..
Many years back, I was very very upset over some family matters
And I called him out to talk to me...
It was in the wee hours of the night...
I weeped so badly in front of him..
And he just sat there with me..
Silently....
Many years later, I still appreciate that night...
Someone I know I will "love" Rob for the rest of my life,
And bcos of some history, I still feel apologetic to him...
But I am glad that we are still frens...
He msged me this morning again..
I hope I will see him more often in NUS..
He is a good fren...
Some man I would want as a fren for the rest of my life...
***
Vernon, my da-ge,
who never fails to comfort me with wise advice
Has found a galfren recently,
I often teased him about it..
I tell from the way he "speaks" that he is very very happy..
And deep down in my heart,
I feel happy for him too...
He makes me feel protected in a brotherly way...
And I like him for that...
***
These men,
Some whom I know for more than half a decade,
Definitely do not have evil/horny/bad intentions on me..
They do not want me to be their galfrens definitely,
But they still care...
Its not true that men are only nice to you when they want you to be their gals...
At least, for these nice guys of mine...
=)
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